Which reminds me, my hoodie arrived today! Actually it arrived 2 days ago but every time they delivered, no one responded. Can't believe they delivered 3 times, but well, my mum got it for me today, while I was out. Haven't had a chance to look at it, because it's drying on the bamboo pole. Haha.

And taught some new people No Other again, and my feet are aching like mad cause I was a dumb ass and wore slippers. Haha. I hope the videos help, because I'm going MIA for the next month. Sad life starts.

Watched Paranormal Activity 2 yesterday with SGKwavers (yes, I'm having so much life people won't believe I'm taking A levels in...9 days.). As much as I was a coward (or ninja, as John calls the three of us girls behind) and hid behind my jacket for like, close to the whole film, I think it was uh, not extremely interesting. I'm still freaked out though.

I swear these are the last 3 days of slacking, and I better resolve to keep my computer off everyday (at least until 10pm) because it's such a huge distraction.

I can't stand the fact that my computer is lagging so much. And damn the Mini 50S, I give up. Tight on money because I think I've got to pay for my orders soon. Which is going to set me back by half of my not-so-existent savings. Well, like I've been saying all this while, I've got to work my ass off after As. Not like I mind, anyway.

Lovely. Off to read.

Hoodie was supposed to be delivered but my dad didn't open the door and I wasn't home, so I'll have to collect it another time. Ugh.

Anyway, past few days have been spent on Tumblr (hence the lack of updates here). It's pretty awesome over there, but it's a little stressful because everything you post goes onto your follower's dashboard and well, I'm a spammer, so...you get my drift. But there's so many awesome people out there in the world that inspire me so much, because of many different things: their talents, their strength etc. And well, the internet is a wonderful thing that lets me know these people whom I'll never ever meet in real life.

I've been extremely unproductive this week, what with the Tumblr addiction and all. Oops.

Hoot is out, and I almost ROFL-ed at Siwon's cameo (is it even called a cameo?) in it. As usual, they're all pretty (but I'm not so into Tiffany's wig D:) but I honestly do not get the lyrics. Haha I shoot shoot shoot, you hoot hoot hoot = NO SENSE. *shrugs* I see tweets about 'Mistake' being a great song; shall check it out soon.

All right, I've been fanfic spamming for the past few days too. Loving it so much.

I think we tend to dig up all these rubbish to do when we're stressed knowing we need to study but just don't feel like it. Erps.

I feel like I need to type in perfect grammar because, well, I need it for GP. I should learn to throw in some bombastic words too, huh. Damn A levels.

Whatever, I'm back to reading. Bye.

Okay I shall go sleep now. Got to wake up to do work tomorrow!

And I want Kyochon 2011 Calendar! D: BECAUSE SUNGMIN APPEARS IN SO MANY PICTURES OKAY. Which makes it all the more awesome. Okay, I shall get it, after I find out the price is reasonable. D:

I miss JYJ already. D:

So yea, continuing from the interview, (I'm still basking in Yoochun's perfect English and draggy last syllabus which is so epic sexy and well, *melts*) I was just squealing every time Yoochun spoke in English! And Jaejoong's English greeting and the trademark shy laughter after that, and Junsu's 'very good' and 'wonderful' which sounded so adorable! And Yoochun's 'Saranghaeyo Jaejoong...Yoochun...Junsu?' when trying to understand what we were saying was so lovely! XD Although I think the screwup on our part was..heartbreaking. D: Shall not go on about it, since it just makes me even more sad.

Then it was VCR, and they did Ayyy Girl! (Okay I got a little weirded out by the song at first but it's starting to get catchy. Haha, I'm still not accustomed to the rap and, oh, the English. Lol.) And Chajatta (is that how the romanization is? XD) which was so freaking awesome! :D And yay to Korean, cause they sound so much more comfortable with it. (: And they ended off with Empty..remix? In which we were damn freaking high and jumping all over the place (while the row in front of us remained sedentary - which occured throughout the whole performance. Grr.) But yes, I think we just went mad highing over there, at least our entire row was. (Haha I think the girls beside me were pretty high fangirls too XD) But it was sad seeing the people in front of us, and its not just the row, but even more in front, who were just standing there. D: And also people who just whipped out their cameras. D: Sigh.

No encore - I think we started a lot later than expected so we were pretty sad when it ended. D: I think we're still feeling the withdrawal symptoms now. I want to see them again! D: (Or how about, I want to see the 5 of them together again!) Because throughout the entire showcase, we just kept thinking (okay, we meaning the four of us) about how empty the stage looked and how almost everything they said or did has got to do with 5 of them not together. Gosh, the heartache. D: I've refrained from spamming it throughout the post, since, well, it was JYJ's showcase, but I honestly wish to see 5 on the stage again. Singing the awesome songs that got us all hooked to them. Always Keep the Faith, as Yoochun said at the end of the showcase, which made all the Cassies melt right there on the spot. Perfect ending, because we know we will. (:

Okay, so end of fan account. Haha. Great fangirl experience with Pear, Kah and Li Ying! :D Love you guys! Haha and especially Pear, who was next to me and we just kept squealing and highing and whacking each other! Ahh, we'll do this again when they're back okay! :D

Saw some fancams already, but well, our seats were really good (bhb-ing, please ignore) and I can't seem to enjoy anything that's smaller than what we actually saw on the day itself. XD Hope they'll have a good tour! :D

Shall start a new post if not I'll seem off topic talking about stuff other than JYJ. D: Blogging about the showcase makes me sad. D: Because I'm still suffering from withdrawal and that means unproductive day for me. D:

The showcase was seriously awesome, I'm telling you. It felt really short though, (actually, it was.) so we were kinda left unsatisfied at the end of it all. D: Today started off great with Pear and I going to Bras Basah to get magazines. :D And went to meet Kah and FLY at Expo. Totally spazzed at the cafe. ><>

I shall skip the boring part about Ah Ken coming out and doing the usual warming up and stuff, UNTIL JYJ CAME OUT. What the heck, I'm pretty sure I forgot how to breathe for that few seconds or so, when they came out in white, looking as godly as ever. (Haha I disapprove of Junsu's weird..is that even a shirt? D: Though seeing his gorgeous arms kind of made up for all of it.) Seriously, all three of them look gorgeous; I'm convinced they were shining when they came out. (It's a fangirl's mind.)

I didn't listen much to the album before this (which I totally should have, because #(!_)@(#)@. That, by the way, is a euphemism for the misery caused by a certain host, in case I launch into a whole lot of vulgarities.), but they started off with Empty. I couldn't really hear them crystal clear over the music and the screaming, but I was too in awe to even speak a coherent sentence to voice my complaints. But honestly, JYJ RIGHT IN FRONT FELT LIKE A DREAM. (As you can tell, I'm still incoherent, but that's the after effects, obviously.) The moment they started singing, I just cried, because it was so, so beautiful. And because they were really here, and I still can't believe that the impossible happened.

Then it was Be the One and Be My Girl, both of which I remained in awe and shock and continued screaming and occasional tearing, because they were so...heavenly. I'm running out of vocabulary, but I don't think I can express how god-like they were in words.

I can't remember the exact order of how things went, because it's still all hazy in here. But there were VCRs and there was well, the interview. Which consisted of the normal, boring questions which I'm sure they're asked every single time. But we practically squealed at every single response of theirs, because they were just really candid and cute, though they seemed a little tired from the responses they gave. Arg, they need some rest man. Back to the interview, Yoochun's English is so darn awesome.

Okay, I shall continue tomorrow, I'm feeling incoherent now. D:

Everyone seems really busy these days, not just students, even working adults. Ahh, I guess everyone's just trying to do their best before the year ends. Because well, another year would have passed.

Although I tend to think a lot, I've been trying to stop myself from wandering off too far, whether is it to the positive or the negative. I guess this pretty much stems from how much I'm afraid of being discouraged or disappointed when I get my hopes up. Which pretty much happens a lot of times anyway. Maybe I should have been desensitized by now, but I still have that bit of faith and hope in me that I would be recognised, for who I am and what I am capable of. But well, I think I fall short of even my own expectations.

Well, being emo can only last so long.

Today was a pretty dramatic day about JYJ tickets. Lol. In which my morals and principles were almost washed down the drain. At least it didn't happen, and I'm glad. I'm no saint, but at least I know this is correct. Forgive me for having been tempted. Rah.

And yes the exciting thing came true! Blogshop's taking in Sungmin's Snowdrop photobook! XD Which equals to more starving and more desperateness in trying to get money. :S Go me.

Okay I'm really drained. Next two months shall be specs month. D: Nerdy.

Anyway, yesterday's Twitter was pretty lol because Kim Hee Chul was trending for practically the whole day. And as if now, it still is. Haha. Powerful.

Just cleaned up my schedule for next few weeks; I think we'll be brain dead by the end of these 3 weeks. Gosh. Jiayou everyone! :D

Results have been rather okay, except for Economics. And by okay, I mean Ds and Es. I can't believe I'm breathing the same air as people who are getting As. What is this. But Economics was a total letdown, U. Like what the heck, from a C to a U is no freaking joke okay. Frustrating like hell, praying ISP isn't updated. Damn it. But I was really surprised that I passed everything, which is miraculous.

GP dropped from a C to a D, but looking at the percentile I'm pretty satisfied.

Math was surprising (but I really did work hard for Stats okay! And two days of hard work to cram everything after binomial and poisson - at which I stopped caring and dao-ed lectures and tutorials was super torturous. I have a sudden ego boost to call myself a genius but no, I'm still not good enough to be one.) I'm technically 2% away (4 marks) from a D. Which is a huge jump from U, and considering I really didn't study much for pure Math, I count myself lucky.

Chemistry was a D, which is still a vast improvement from a S, even though the percentile makes me feel like a dumb ass. But I've been working hard on my Chem (like, finally) and I'm remaining..hopeful. Except for Chemical Periodicity which refuses to stay in my head. Grr. I love Mrs Lee, honestly.

Biology made me rather hopeful too, D. An improvement from E! And actually, Paper 3 saved my ass. Seriously. Paper 1 too actually. See how much it takes to pull up a Paper 2 with 35/100 to make 51% overall. Gosh, Mr Khairul is a lifesaver.

So my results spell DUDED. Lol. from SUCCE or something. OMG MY ECONS. D: What is this.

Okay shall stop ranting about my lousy score.

Ah the something and something I was excited about two posts ago, I'm still excited because one seems like it'll be confirmed tomorrow! Yes yes yes. So darn excited. I'm actually more excited about the other thing, but it seems like people are busy and I shall not be an irritating ass to press them about it. (:

JYJ! Our seats are pretty damn good okay. We're in the centre block behind VIP seats! I'm so freaking excited, they'll be staring in our direction! *excited* And I think QUEST is well, IDEK. D: I'm trying to believe they are still good, even though they've pulled off so much crazy stunts. But I guess the crazier stunts that fans put up make me feel like QUEST is actually sane. I guess its the case of relativity. (This totally reminds me of prooflabel.) Maybe cause some time has passed since then, comparatively I feel like this was even worse than that time. Okay, I shall justify. Firstly I think the system for booking (or pre-booking as they call it. IDK why they have to do this anyway.) was pretty much awesome as compared to CNBlue's showcase. At least their server didn't crash entirely and people were still able to get in. (Maybe its just cause Kah and I both managed to get in I think its so much easier. But yea, my opinion anyway.) But I think the aftersales service was better for prooflabel. I actually see them RESPONDING to the comments, and within a shorter time at that. And well, they just seemed tons friendlier. And because I'm a person who looks out for that more than anything else, I think that pretty much set the distinction for me.

But yes, IDC, because I've gotten my ticket and I can relax till next week. Sorry for the selfishness oozing out of here, but I think I should just mind my own business and not go offer my two cents worth on the Facebook wall, where nothing but blaming is taking place. Honestly, I've got better sense than that. And I'm so turned off by how people express their anger so crassly. I think it's really immature and well, I think a lot of them are older than me, which just puts me off even further. Disrespectful, but honestly, do you really expect me to show these adults respect when I don't think they deserve it? I'm young, but I know better. I'm not even perfect, but at least I know what's right and wrong.

This kinda reminds me of the personality test thing Li Ying did with Qian Wen and I recently. Which we all felt was insanely true. Haha. There was this one part about me being able to accept things that abide by my principles and beliefs; okay my interpretation of it probably twisted the whole meaning but I thought it was pretty apt and Qian Wen was like, yah this is so you. Haha So, there. On a sidenote, the part about how we handle stressful situations got us down to a tee. Haha.

All right, this has been a really long post, which is full of rants that weren't supposed to come out in the first place. Tomorrow is full study day. Wish me luck. Good night!

I don't even know what I'm doing here anyway. A little screwed up, I'm thinking.

Praying hard I'll pass Biology. And Economics. Please.

Okay off to sleep.

Today was pretty unproductive, thanks to horribly difficult Math papers. D: RI's Math Paper is insane, I pretty much gave up halfway. Even last year's A Level Math paper felt difficult to me; I'm so darn screwed.

You know, I'm rather surprised by my Prelims results. Seriously. (Because I know I didn't study as much as I would have wanted, but that's always a regret that I've faced and will continue facing, just because I don't have any motivation. ><) But yes, its a miracle I haven't gotten any S and U so far (though Biology is coming pretty close to that. *worried*). That's honestly a miracle (for me, duh), because I've been slacking so much. But studying really does makes a difference. I'm surprised at the E for my Math paper, especially at the 50 marks for my Paper 2. (Fine, I'm still at the bottom of the cohort, but I'm pretty proud of that, because I've never TOUCHED anything after Binomial and Poisson Distribution for Statistics until two days before Paper 2. And after the two days of chionging the whole Statistics syllabus, it was 38 out of 60 for Statistics. Which would have been impossible before.

Yes, so studying helps (as much I hate believing it just because I rather live in delusion and denial that studying can actually help my results.). Which means I have to work extra hard if I want to skip any more grades..like, approximately 5 to 6 grades. Haha sounds impossible.

Okay, that's like, the longest rant I've ever had on Academics so far, ever since Nanyang. Gosh, where have I been.

All right, to move on to something more exciting and well, adrenaline-inducing, I'M GOING JYJ SHOWCASE IN SINGAPORE!

And I'm getting really excited about something and something. Haha two very exciting things happening in my life, but I shall only start high-ing when it's 100% confirmed because I don't like getting my own hopes up. (Just because I know how many times I've been disappointed. D:) Arg okay, now's not the time for emo-ing, because there's just so much other things to be worried/happy/excited/angry about. Haha okay whirl of emotions, but that's me. (:

All right, enough of my mundane life. Shall sleep soon, as much as I'm excited still. (I bet half of it is caused by the damned caffeine cruising through my blood. Roar.) Good night!

Whatever it is, I don't feel like moving an inch from my computer table.

Can someone I know buy 徐佳瑩's album? D: Ahh, having no money sucks. I've been complaining a lot about this lately, but it really is a horrible feeling. I feel like I'm going to have to work my ass off after As. (Damn, I even feel like starting now because I have so much I want to buy but no money - and I don't exactly want to ask my parents for it. :S) And the $125 I earned isn't going to last me long - I've got calendars and photobooks on my order list, I don't think it'll last me till SS3. D:

Went for Han Geng's fansign yesterday. (: I'm a happy fangirl. XD (He looks absolutely awesome, sorry for sounding shallow, but yes he does. :D) Ahaha, I'm loving his hairstyle so much, its so adorable. (I know people wouldn't exactly use adorable to describe, but to me I think it is.) XD Oh and that small drama that happened there was...IDEK. Hardcore fans are hardcore, I guess, cause that's the only way to describe it. :S Thanks to Kah Hsing, if not I probably won't get his signature! (I heard it was only until 70+ for normal queue D: I was 154, can you imagine!) LOVE YOU! (I have come to realise I can't type hearts in here, so I shan't.) Hehheh, enjoy the showcase! :D (And take lots of photos! XD)

Friday was awesome as well! (: Went for long run with Li Ying in the morning (which totally killed me because my stamina sucks like I don't know what after not training. D: Sorry FLY!) and badminton with SGKwavers! :D Attempted to hunt for Han Geng at Ion with Aggie, but failed. D: Then was basketball (which I suck at. My goodness.) at night! :D No wonder the muscle aches yesterday and today. At least I'm losing some fats (I fervently hope.)!

Its been long since I updated what I was doing (especially since these days my life is as mundane as an A level student should be. Though I'm pretty sure I have much more life than people mugging out there - SORRY! :P So I'm pretty much contradicting my blog. XD).

Okay, I shall nua a little more before I actually move my ass out of the house to go study. D:

Roar.