i think i have never been this angry and pissed off. feel like screaming some seriously vulgar words but no i shall not. SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT. HATE THEM TO THE CORE MAN.
i think the whole worlds having crappy problems now. even aunty joce has problems. got exam matters, class matters, netball matters and lots more. recent addition: MOSQUITO MATTERS. Claudia just killed a mosquito at the rockwall and supposingly it has white spots. GRR. i dont know lah. but lets hope its just that im blind and i cant see properly or smth. nvm. then we were like damn dramatic. WE ARE ALL GOING TO DIE. ok fine no way man.
today i feel like shit man. whole world was watching. and i thought she was going to say smth ok. damn it. damn her. FEEL LIKE BASHING HER UP. WAH LAO THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD WAS WATCHING AND YOU DO THIS TO ME, YEA THANKS A LOT. A LOT. grr. IM GOING TO EXPLODE AT YOU ONE DAY OK. DONT THINK I DONT HAVE A TEMPER.
like oh yea. __________ is going to drive me crazy. SAY SO LATE! then now im like...DEAD??? crap lah. on that freaking fateful day i was going around everywhere. thanks jenzi for telling me or i would have been that stupid to not switch it on. GRR. but nvm. after seeing mine, i guess im quite relieved. wahaha.
shes so nice. she made me change my view of this totally man. rocks!!!
oh and i am going to die if i dont score well in eoys. my marks are like crap man. AND IT IS SO UNFAIR THAT LAST TERM IS 20% AND NOW IS 10%. ok not for history because i scored a1 last term and i think im going to fail it this term. but so much for geography. i got an e8 man. then now i get a nice a1 and heard from them they put 20% in first term. qi si wo le!!! how lah! blehblehbleh. and my marks are freakingly horrendous man. every single thing i miss my target by 2 or 3 marks except for geography. AHHH. so i better do well for the exams or i will die, especially for my history!!! blehblehbleh how??? i am freakingly scared ok. arg.
sudden craving for chocolate truffle. sigh.
LIKE OH GOSH I HATE MYSELF. refers to one of the topics i have mentioned above. HOW? is it my fault? can someone tell me, is it my fault??? tell me the truth, i dont want lies. i never want to hear a single lie! i never want to anymore. NEVER EVER.
|| At 10:04 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

seriously i think im mad to still be online now. wahaha. nvm. ok. just finished my website. my gosh man. i spent a lot of time adding scotch tape to the phtos!!! gosh. but looks quite horrendous. but im too tired to care. i have like, 6 pages??? more than enough. ok tmr must go upload. ok today. erm. i think i think a lot. lots more than what i should be thinking. grr.
and i really cant trust anyone after this kind of incident. it was NOT an accident ok. you think we are all blind??? you think we dont know its you who took it? you are so wrong. i think its just she doesnt want to put you down in front of everyone thats why she said its an accident. yea. you think we believe? grr. like oh my gosh lor. somemore shes the ________. grr. shes just too nice. she let you go. and you give her this kind of attitude like as if you dont care. GRR. angry like crap lah.
next thing. another big fat problem. stop trying to act as though you are good. not saying i am, because i know i am not, but please, just keep quiet can? grr. the world is so full of deceptions. loads of them.
another thing. big fat LIAR. grr. acting nice doesnt help, mind you. grr. im going to explode. DECEPTIONS. today really made me think so much about deceptions. the world is so scary, when can there ever be a time where everyone is truthful towards one another? why?! why must we tolerate such things? WHY?!
and some more stuff. when will worrying ever end. every single freaking second i am thinking of something. and today, really make me feel that no one can be trusted. i know some people are really those that i can confide in and i can pour my heart out to and they are the only ones whom i can really say what i think without any doubts. sigh.
every single day i will be thinking about strange stuff. arg. spliting headaches.
ok. stop talking about this. today went to causeway. as usual but didnt go library. went to mos burger instead. oh yay man. i broke my record. i ate 21 pieces of ichigo bliss. that means $7. wow . probably too angry so im probably on a binge now. i bet i will have severe digestive system problems. because my diet is very irregular. sigh.
then after that went with claudia and vernice to macdonalds. and claudia has seriously vandalised the book!!! GRR!!! and dont fold the pages!!! and oh yes. i havent got anything to study for geography which i am quite dead for. if populations take up most of the questions i will die. its my weakest topic in geography. so must study mroe on that. ok. shall do that on weekends. and i need to upload my website. finally. and the nicest page is probably the index page where theres a rollover image. wahaha. yea msn display pic. oh yes. tmr shall edit more. need to add in mroe stuff. and i didnt add in all the neoprints! couldnt get them to save properly. oh and the time is 1.05 now. shall go sleep bye.
|| At 12:42 AM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

cried like thousands of times this week. i suck. sigh. screwed up my jap oral, jap exam and ipw presentation. science sia is going to be so shi bai because our filter cant filter a THING. not even s single thing can be filtered. what goes in comes out. BLEH. nvm we shall TRY to fix our filter tmr. then need to memorise script for speech t. seriously think our english speech t is such a failure. i rmb we ended up screaming at each other. what rubbish. chinese speech t is quite nice compared to that spaceship thingy. sheesh. stressed like crap.
then science sia. die lah.
then jap. then eoys. will i ever have a time when i can worry about NOTHING AT ALL. i bet i will still be thinking about jap even after exams. i cant make up my mind.
todays jap...quite ok i guess. but i am still traumatised by ytds oral. my mind went blank and i went sumimasen i dont know how many thousand million times. oh. and i almost fell asleep during listening today. shouldnt have studied until so late. grr. oh and 2hr is so long. ended up so bored until was plaiting my fringe.
todays ipw presentation. well...i dont know what to say. before the presentation we had a big quarrel in class over the cutting of the script. and some pathetic person tore up her script after the presentation. hallo, can you please respect others? janice spent so much time and she printed all our scripts. dont you think its going too far if you tear up her hard work. fine, do you want someone to tear up your work? seriously i dont think you appreciate what janice has done for the group ok. why dont YOU try doing what she did, she did the script and she helped editted everything. she deserves credit, NOT this kind of treatment. grr. ok. presentation. was trembling. and dont worry janice, you did quite well. me and janice was crying at the back of the stand. i dont know how much time we have spent on this project, how much effort, but the audiences reponse actually made it worth all that, really. thanks everyone!
today i am very pissed off by several things. seriously. sigh. act. act lah. so angry with you. think you are very good and pro? too bad. you are far from that. i think im being very qian zuo for saying all this. but if i dont say i will explode from keeping all this inside for too long. oh and I AM NOT VERY HAPPY WITH PEOPLE EATING ON THE MRT. angry like crap man. and also please, let people get off before you board the train can. be considerate. GRR. and also dont go playing on the road lah. seriously hate this. ok got to go now. bye!
|| At 7:06 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

hi! boh liao person is back again! (pronounce it using the janice way). haha. spent $10 eating lunch today. thank you thank you. lets calculate. nos burger: large fries + nuggets ($5.25), 9pcs ichigo bliss ($3), tiramisu ($2.70) total spent at mos burger: $10.95. WOW. just for lunch. gosh.
and prototype is a great big total failure. BLEH. remaking it tmr i think.
ok shall go off now. probably the shortest post ever. haha. ok. bye!
|| At 11:28 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

hohoho merry christmas. ok nvm. just being lame around here i know its not christmas yet but nvm.
finally i have finished everything. as in what i owe teachers. phew.
bleh. i want my eye to be back to normal! grr. it is so crap to have one double eyelid and one single eyelid. this happens when i dont sleep well. then i end up with one eye bigger than the other. pathetic.
im in a quite happy mood today. as in now. but my mood changes totally when i see someone. will always feel like slapping that person. grr. like i said, dont need to tell me about whatever small little crappy things that happened to you. and you can really tell from my response if i am interested or not. and i seriously hate sticky. grr. will end up ignoring that person until that person zhi nan er tui or get so pissed at me. i am that unsociable. so moral: dont stick. bleh. talking rubbish.
i am a bias freak. NVM. am feeling quite crappy today.
moodswings like viking man. hahaha. aunty joce has very bad moodswings if you havent really understood me well. and aunty joce has been feeling very very naggy today. haha.
had trng during lunch. defenders didnt get to do much. its all right. but i think i have a swollen finger aka chicken drumstick. left index finger. and my right thumb hasnt healed. bleh. so i cant crack those fingers these few days. bleh. but nvm!
yay! we rock! never to be seperated ok! =)
went to woodlands library, again. we are gonig to go there every single day or smth is it? haha. addicted. especially ichigo bliss at mos burger. me and vernice ate 9 each today. haha. nice. and we also ate tiramisu! =) but i still love my chocolate truffle. but havent been eating that for two days. haha. i think i gained 2 kg or smth lah. oops. nvm.
and yay! got notes from claudia! and we plan to use them as crap paper after exams. wahaha. because we will be copying them into our notebooks! yay! i love my notebook! =)
and ive gone crazy copying notes. and algebra and geometry rocks. =) addicted to those sums.
oh yes. we are quite addicted to eating those small wang wang biscuits. haha. tong nian! =) haha. but seriously i think we eat more than we study. hahaha.
and photocopying machine needs cashcard. dots.
and wahaha. this is damn funny! wahahahahahaha. im going to die laughing or smth lor. wahaha. i cant stop laughing. WAHAHA. ok fine i shall stop laughing. ok just one last laugh. WAHAHA. ok. LAME.
the previous paragraph is crap. forget you even read that. FORGET. POOM! and you forgot about it. grr. box myself lah. i am such a crappy person. WAHAHA.
ok. i want to read book! but i cant! or my mum will scream! ok nvm. shall say i borrow from my friend. hahahahaha. whatever. ok shall go off now bye! =)
|| At 10:43 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

sorry for all that freaking moodswings today. bleh. what is the big fat problem with me?! sigh. probably too much stress facing jap. lots of stuff has happened lately. and i so agree that that stupid ass sucks. whatever lor. the announcement was directly shot into my head and bang, i died on the spot man. grr. who doesnt know that refers to us lor. grr. whatever. BLEH.
sigh. i am like, being split into half or smth. half of me wants to study jap. the other half of me hates the moelc. im going to have a war with myself man. sigh. thats probably why im being so moody lately. grr.
i hate myself. i hate the whole wide world. ok fine. see how problematic this is? i loved the world ytd. and now. see lah. suddenly found out that my life sucks. grr. but sigh. just strive harder.
now its like, every single moment i will be repeating stuff in my head for a thousand million times or smth. to quit or not to quit. every single moment i am thinking of that. SAVE ME!!!! should have listened to my mum in the first place shouldnt i? then i wouldnt be in such a plight now. all my fault right. sigh. first thing that pops up in my mind. i want to quit. then next thing that pops up, no you shall not because you still love jap. third, but i dont like their system! fourth, but do you know that your jap can actually pull up your marks or smth? fifth, but i hate it! i hate being so stressed out! i hate the feeling! and it continues...until i probably die of exhaustion or my brain is half dead or smth. i have a feeling im thinking a bit too much. ok probably not just a bit. probably quite a lot. i hate myself.
i hate myself for being so unorganised. i end up having to dig through a whole pile of paper to find a miserable ws that has been horribly crushed. like my movie review which i photocopied today because it was too horrendous to be shown. i found right at the bottom of my bag when i was clearing my bag out. and im currently gan-ing a chuang zuo. its on foolscape because i am out of gao zhi. so now i have to transfer everthing to gao zhi which will probably take up 3 pieces of double sided gao zhi. im mad. and i havent handed in my shuo ming wen becuase i couldnt find it in the pile of rubbish. ok. so i need to buy quite a lot of things. gaozhi, mechanical pencil, 0.28 pens. i lost some. grr. i lost the purple one! the one i loved the most! ok. and also foolscape because im out of that too. and i must rmb to bring a stack of plain paper everyday for geometry. yay. geometry rocks too. algebra rocks more though. see how much stuff im short of. and even if i manage to find another stack of gao zhi or smth in my drawer, it will probably the start of another year. this ALWAYS happens.
oh yes. pathetic facial cleanser isnt really working. grr. wonderful amount of pimples i have on my face.
and im quite angry with myself for making such a bad choice. have i done smth wrong??? yes i have. especially this matter. can i remake my choice???
and currently my sarcarstic partner is feeling very sad because of smth i shall not say. because both of us are quite angry at it. dont worry! i will not erm...discard (thats what you said right?) you. yup. sarcarstic partners!!! forever ____ _______ and ____ ______!!! ok go fill in the blanks. we shall stick!
every single time i stone, i will think about jap. grr.
and now i have this two lines on the back of my hand because we were donig some seriously lame stuff like playing the xiao ming went to the market trick on everybody we see. seriously i think we have pre exam stress or smth. we end up inventing funny funny games to play lor.
i love the song of fa yi x dang an. sorry not in the mood to capitalise my words. nice song. as in the tune is nice. ooh and i want boas album. after exam i am going on a cd shopping spree. and oops. i forgot to help yining check for her fruits basket 17. sorry! shall go check tmr. if you see this just send me another message. if you dont, erm, i will try to rmb. and shes very excited about that book because she heard that yuki wont be with tohru. and im still trying to find marmalade boy but i seem to have given up. ok wait whats the name again? forgot. its so unfair that a person who just pops out of nowhere gets to be with someone. aiyah. dont know what im saying. oh yes and my love hina. from last year until now huh. but nvm. now reading this very very great novel called samurai girl. my gosh. but i cant read it at home or my mum will scream at me. oh and vegan virgin valentine is nice too. read it ytd night. spent around 1hr reading it last night. and i saw my sarcastic partners name inside.
ok what a long and boring post. and i had better start on memorising the script for IPW presentation in the audi next week. must be in there by 10. and our pathetic video needs to be re-edited or smth. ok. lets hope we can at least show 1 min or smth. BLEH. video will be placed in the library. and i discovered 4 spelling errors on the previous cover. then reprinted. but couldnt slot in the cover. then finally had one perfect one. BUT WHATEVER. me and janice took the two dvds.
ok i have to go copy out my chuang zuo now. bye.
|| At 10:09 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

was having this interesting convo with jenzi about typing styles. we were discussing how distinct our typing styles were. haha. mine and jenzi about the same except for 'u'. haha. very obvious clues to how people type. yup. can recognise de!!! =) haha. im very very tired. bleh. and dont tell me ive just lost my shuo ming wen. grr. i am running out of gao zhi and you are doing this to me. GRR. shall go buy tmr. also need to buy mechanical pencil. i dont know what happened but this is the second mechanical pencil i lost. i shall buy 2 this time round. grr. qi si ren. but wait. did i even complete that shuo ming wen??? what crap. i think i didnt. nvm. shall go do it now. bye!
|| At 8:08 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

yay! i love everyone! except for those few people i mentioned in the previous post. wahaha. thanks a lot janice for helping us print papers! and thanks for your wonderful tissue box! haha. oh yes and me and katherine will drag you along to go kbox, movie, arcade and take neoprints. hahahaha.
my mood suddenly changed. i dont know why. whatever lah. ok. nvm. shall go off now. bye!
|| At 7:50 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

bleh lah. havent even quit and im already thinking about how i will be regretting after i quit. grr. but i love my mum and dad. sigh. told my mum how i felt lor, then was like asking her, then she said (in chinese), i give you the freedom, so it depends on you, i wont force you to do anything. thanks mum! adn my mum is very cute ok. i have been having a flu the past few days, then my mum has been like asking me to go eat chocolates or smth. haha. ok.
love all of you! =) thanks so much! especially katherine! =)
had a serious breakdown before third lang today. went crazy. didnt want to go but was dragged along. sigh. but after todays lesson i guess im still very interested in jap. so i dont know what to do now. sigh. ok now i know i have to take the exams, but after that, i really dont know. aiyah.
simply complicated. sinfully sweet. wickedly pure. purely wicked. damn cool ok.
and that joleen is seriously obsessed with the word EVIL or smth lor. haha. wahaha. crazy! hahaha. oh yes. retarded ipw presentation rehearsal today. whatever lor. must memorise the script. die like what lah. my parts are like so darn long. CRAP.
dislike some seriously EXTRA people. grr. i am seriously NOT interested in whatever you are always trying to tell everyone. stop being such a show-off lor. WHATEVER. i was damn reluctant to say it lah. like, im quite regretting now lor. why was i so damn stupid can. you arent even what i expect of you. dont tell me i have high expectations or anything. my expectations for everything are different. and i dont suppose i can go any lower for you le. i have probably gone to the lowest i can ever go. but you seriously make me feel like bashing you and just shouting some not very pretty words into your face. whatever. i dont care if your social circle is wide. i dont care whatever you do because it is seriously none of my business. what makes you think i treat you that well. fine i AM biased. who isnt? anyone who can say they are 101% fair to everyone please raise your hand. like, i would see no hands in the air or smth. grr. but i am NOT biased against you or anything. i try to give a fair view at first, thinking you would change or smth, but obviously you havent.
another one. POT CALLING THE KETTLE BLACK. whatever lor. its you ok. stop pushing whatever crappy mistakes you have done to another person or anything lor. if its you just say its your fault. grr. somemore complain about other stuff, which are not even related to me. like why would i be interested??? same thing as previous one. stop acting like you are darn smart, you know everything, interrupting us. whatever. no peace around man. world of deception.
grr. i am just feeling damn pissed off today. by lots of stuff. i guess i blew up before third lang lor. my face went totally BLACK ok. but, they dont get the point man. whatever. asses. GRR.
i feel like ive just exploded or smth. today has been a very bad day for me. grr.
ok. shall go and read a book. bye.
|| At 7:05 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

i hate oral. especially after so many years of being the very first to go for oral. i am getting very pissed at how they arrange the sequence in alphabetical order. nvm. but i think im the second person to go or smth. crap lah. so i need to go off earlier. whatever.私はジョスリーン。アンです。私は音楽おきくのが好きです。aiyah. whatever lah i think im going to die. but seriously i dont really feel like quitting lor. i cant decided now help me. ok. we shall see after the exams. sigh. nvm. shall go read a book now. oops. i guess its quite late nv,. shall read anyway. bye!
|| At 10:37 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

i am dying because i cant breathe. bleh. having this damn crappy flu which was passed from janice. haha. nvm. but seriously i almost died during pe today. bleh lah. couldnt even breathe properly. sigh.
boo. today was so fun. did that windchime thingy until around 3+. i spent a lot of time on it ok! haha. then after that met up with vernice and went to woodlands library.
we are currently very obsessed with woodlands library. probably because there is my beloved...CHOCOLATE TRUFFLE there. haha. im probably a boring person. because i will stick to whatever i do/eat/ whatever. bleh.
then studied with claudia, ying yan, shiyu, vernice and xing xuan. yup. and geometry rocks man. especially using compass. haha. i finally know how to use it properly. because janice and katherine will laugh whenever i use the compass because i am a very clumsy person. haha.
and its so fun. then went to mac with claudia, shiyu and vernice. damn funny over there lah. FAST AS SPEED OF LIGHT GO SHIYU. haha. i am so amazed by her speed man. hahahaha. so funny lah. ok. hi shiyu. it will probably take 12hrs to process. uh yea. dots. haha. oh yes happy birthday shiyu! sorry cannot go to your house there tmr morning because of school bus. which is quite retarded. grr. sorry! but have a meaningful birthday! =)
aunty joce is feeling damn tired today. because i slept at 12.30 ytd. and i am so tired of studying like crazy. so today is my rest day and i shall be off to read a book. so shall go off and read a book in peace! ok. dont want to see her face tmr. but i have no choice. my mum will scream at me if i dont go. grr. whatever. hate her face. grr. endure for the next two lessons and no more. oh yes. that reminds me. i need to go and check the timing for oral. whatever lah. i bet im going to say wakarimasen for every single thing the examiner asks. grr. dont know if im regretting not quitting. sigh. i dont know. having a serious war with myself. help. sigh. watashiwajocelyndes. (my name is jocelyn). like who doesnt know lor. crap lah. i dont know how to survive oral examinations. crappy. nvm. shall fail it anyway. nvm. ok. bye.
|| At 10:09 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

im currently very hesitant about quiting third lang. because qitian said that it can be used to replace marks or smth lah. grr. so how??? i bet im not going to score well for geog thanks to my wonderful E8 in CA1. but i improved ok! from a fail (8) to a 16! yup. and i passed everything in geog. so supposingly i will pass. but im not that sure about history. i bet its going to drop. grr. source based questions are driving me crazy ok. ok. lang arts. i dont know. barely pass it i guess. math. dead. chinese, should have improved. thats about all i guess. grr. so its most probably gonig to be pulling up my history. grr. but, i have lots of interest in jap. no interest in the system, tests and teachers. seriously if i dont go for third lang, its just because of that asshole teacher. im damn pissed off with that teacher. grr. muto senseh rocks. grr. but she went back to japan! bleh lah. this teacher is out to make us suffer man.
sigh. im supposed to be doing zuo wen now but i want to sleep. grr. i am planning to study at school. or i will end up falling asleep. sigh.
weights is going to end. boohoohoo. i am going to miss leg press. im stuck. nvm. dont know what im talking about actually. NVM. oh and im going to miss my sarcastic partner CLAUDIA SNG PEISI too.
haha. yay. and i am THAT stupid to get a scratch on my leg when i was walking pass the door. thanks to the stupid lock. grr.
i am having a war with myself. so crap lah. i dont know if i should even quit! but when i think of the oral i feel so much like quitting, but when i rmb that its gonig to pull my marks up i suddenly feel the urge to go for it. and i still love jap lor. grr. sigh. havent seen a trace of happiness. because there isnt even 1 haha in here. sigh. i am feeling rather hesitant now. im feeling inferior to people who managed to hang on until now. really zi bei can. sigh. i have no appetite now. not even for chocolate truffle. currently feeling like crap lah. will there ever be a time when my heart would be at peace? grr. think im going to breakdown soon enough.
my mum says if i want to take the exams i better go for the next few jap lessons, so i better do that, and also i need to find out the timing and class of our oral. grr. im seriously horrified by orals. i hate 1 on 1 or 2 on 1 format. thats why i hate one on one tuition. i dont even like tuition. or probably because i havent had tuition before.
sigh. my life is SO disastrous. this is so crappy. grr. im drowning in a sea of uncertainty. im uncertain about everything. what will my future hold for me? i will never know. no one will. i guess ive never felt this bad before. really. recalling past incidents, ive never had a war with myself for such a long time before. being a gemini doesnt really rocks when you get split personalities sometimes. sigh. what will happen the next second? we never know.
lets hope essay question on uncertainty would come out because i have seriously lots to talk about it. sigh. my heart is bleeding. we enter with nothing but hope and expectations, we leave with nothing but memories and sadness. sigh. so, does it matters? sigh. live life like a sakura. it has a short life, but it gives nothing but its best throughout its life. but. is it possible in us?
im being quite pessimistic here. i can be optimistic and pessimistic. depending on what kind of a problem i am facing. sigh. i guess life would be full of regrets.
ok. chocolate truffle. really means not much to me now.
i have my own problems to face. and i have to face it. and i will. face it. with all my strength, i will overcome this problems. give me faith. trust in me. trust yourself. i bet everyone has their own problems to face as well. so my blog here will be partly my support. the other parts will come from my inner strength. and all around me. sigh.
forget it. this is too rubbishy. forget all of it.
sigh. its time to start all over.
|| At 6:32 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

haha. kind/ fast go shiyu just said i have an interesting life. like wahaha.
oh yah. forgot to blog about one stupid incident. mrs chang was asking us take out our math notes. then my wonderful benchmate janice wrote ASS on one of it. the katherine pointed the wrod to jeryy and janice (she wrote it). then i added 'es' because got grammar error. then become smth like asses-->jerry --> janice
then later we rmbed later mrs chang see. so we added a 'b' in front. so it becomes:
basses-->jerry-->janice
haha. yay. then we were damn boh liao to write 'i am crap paper' on crap paper itself. yup. crap paper rocks. can write crap on it. haha. im talking rubbish.
yup. wahaha. feeling rather, well i dont know. saddened? sigh. wahaha. shall write what i typed in shiyus convo.
just give it up. it isnt worth remembering after all that.
yup. just go watch it rain! =)
watching it rain rocks totally. =)
just read shiyus post. vulgar. dots. i dont go beyond the word shit. uh yea. haha. anythnig beyond that seriously gets me angry. yup. but if i know you well enough, erm., i will probably know that you dont mean it that way. yup. ok. got to go now. mum is going to explode at me. ok. bye! =)
|| At 11:41 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

imagine yourself in a cafe. soft music playing and you sink your teeth into the chocolate truffle and it melts in your mouth. my gosh. romantic.
ok fine. that was crap. haha. went to woodlands regional library with shiyu, vernice and xing xuan to study. chocolate truffle! rocks totally. haha.
grr. the structured questions in the book is quite erm...chim. as in the answer is nowhere near our short and sweet answer. its some chang pian da lun or smth lah. forget it. had lots of fun and laughter while studying. hmm that line sounds stupid. ok. nvm. we are retards. wahaha. ok im feeling retarded today. nvm.
was chatting with shiyu just now. dont worry! like you said, concentrate on eoys and netball. and loving you toothbrush. haha. no need to love aunty joce. haha. and shes printing out that convo because its going to motivate her. haha.
see im going to start a new column or smth is it? come, write to aunty joce about your problems. like dots. haha. so retarded. a shoulder to cry on. nah. 16 shoulders to cry on. =) dont worry cheer up! we are always here for you! =) if you really want a shoulder to cry on, go ahead.
will always be here for anything! =) your toothbrush also right! =)
aunty joce is feeling quite retarded now. haha. fingers numb. too cold i guess. haha. ok.
just forget about it. it isnt worth it, like i told you. aiyah. just refer to everything i told you in the convo lah. haha. because its exactly the same thing im going to say. yup. be happy! the world loves you, not of your tears but of your smile. so smile! you still have us! =)
haha. ok. oh btw staff at that popular very unhelpful. bleh lah. fine whatever.
ok. you still have us! ok. back to studying i guess. no. shall go sleep. before my mum screams. ok. bye! =)
|| At 10:04 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

grr. feel like exploding. stop lying can you? especially if they are so UNTRUE. they dont show that you are a responsible person who goes around interfering with others lifes, but it just shows that you are so despicable to tell others about it, and the things you say are not even a single bit TRUE. if it was true, ok fine, you are pardoned, but they are just plain lies. forget it. its no use. POS. too bad you dont understand what that means man. JUST FORGET IT.
ok i have just vented my anger. now calm down and BLOG.
ok. today went to j8. because my mum and i went out with my cousins and aunt. so retarded. i was left at j8 because guess what, they went casino. nvm. had enough of that kind of stuff since young. like 8? because every single time i go there is with my parents and my cousins and aunt and i end up at either the arcade or the cyber cafe. really. my mum gives me around 50 RM to go do smth. dots can. so im used to wandering around on my own. used to it. so usually i dont drag people along to do stuff. ok back to what i was talking about. ok went to popular. then went to buy drink and stood outside cd shop. then watched the first half of initial D. i just stood there for about 1/2 to 1 hr and watched. eh damn interesting. maybe shall go buy the dvd or smth. oh yes. katherine and janice! our kbox and movie marathon! and no chucky! no ju-on or any other ghost movies. especially not house of wax. not saying that ju-on is not as scary as house of wax or anything. just that janice is very obsessed with house of wax. haha. oh and i think this is the first haha in my post today. ok nvm. then went to look for my mum because they came out already. then went to IMM. because my mum and cousin wanted to buy some slimming tea or smth. oh and i just found out that my mum took slimming pills and was admitted to hospital before. erm... dots man. oh and i heard that the fruit juice tastes horrible. and my mum just ordered another 3 bottles. grr. and she just bought some tea that has slimming effects. oh i said that just now. nvm. then went to buy mooncakes. and went back home. then drank this soup made of chinese hrabs or smth. almost puked. now the taste is still inside my mouth and i feel like puking lah. eaten dont know how many thousand sweets. still no use. and im currently wearing something that looks very nice! my cousin lent my mum some jackets to bring to korea and i am wearing one that looks like a suit! so cool! ok. mum is screaming. going to woodlands to study with shiyu, vernice xing xuan and i dont know who else is coming. ok nvm. shall go off now. bye! =)
|| At 10:26 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

anyone has the same poor bruises as me??? Katherine introduced a very crazy game to us today. first my class was playing it. then me and qitian brought that game down to the rockwall. then we ended up playing like mad people. and Katherine and me have broke level seven without speaking! =) we spent about 1 hr trying to beat that. ok. lwts aim for 8th level ok! but i dont know what stupid crap is this lah. my thighs are now covered with small liittle bruises everywhere. looks like polka dots lor. my dad is going to shout at me. first was that flower pot thingy. now this game. grr. better get something to hit instead of my own legs. and surprisingly i think i also have a bruise on my hand. played too much. oh. sylvester cat face. wahahaha. eh? sudden change. wahahaha. hmm. today couldnt catch a bounce pass properly, probably didnt warm up enough. hmm. oh yes. keep passes flat. erm, at least not that high. so sorry! oh yah. must passs ahead too. as in me. i am having quite funny problems with doing that. oh yes and relax more! my shoulders very stiff or smth lah. cannot swing properly. heard from others lah, i run that time i probably look like im pounding dough or smth.then i will get very kan cheong then i cannot recieve a bounce pass. uh. then ms loo say must relax more. ok try to. better practise recieving bounce pass.
oh yes. and our chinese teacher is really too nice le. my gosh lor. rmb i said i owe her zuo wen. yea. she was like (in chines, but i dont like typing han yu pin yin), who didnt hand in chuang zuo? then she was like, peixun, then i was like raise my hand then apologised, then she say other people whom she rmbed never hand in. then later right we were supposed to do comprehension on wed, then today hand in, but we couldnt finish, because was crazy trying to finish the science sia, so she was like, then hand in on mon. then one more, our class was supposed to do this zuo wen (again) on wed and fri (as in must complete in 1/2 hr). then 1/2 hr pass, she said smth like 10 more minutes. then i was only on the first page. (because i just started doing it for like 15 min only.) then after that, she useed the whole lesson for it lor. then our class erm...you know lah. a few people havent complete, so she said hand in on mon. my gosh. i guess shes too nice le lah. very guilty for not completing work lor. grr. bash myself up. ok. shall be really nice and hand in, chuang zuo, zuo wen and compre on mon. cannot extend le. oh and she said we are the guai-est class she taught. like dots. look at our punctuality in handing in work. for me, corrections. grr. very angry with myself. i think ive just slacked one whole year away. ok not one year yet. about there. i think i just slacked it away. feel like boxing myself. oh and i still have lots of things to say. so get ready for a wonderfully long speech. i jsut discovered i have 11 lanterns in my bag. ok. thats not actually what i wanted to talk about. hmm. oh yes. numerology. zhun ok! interesting. come, i shall be boh liao and write those that applies to me . whether its true or not you have to decide.=) retarded. only keywords hor.
tend to fear, unfamiliar, romantic nature (?), highly developed intuition, fear of loss(YUP), loves to travel (no way man. i hate travelling overseas. especially to those far far places), devoted to parents(YUP), concern others' well-being(hmm. think so.), magnetic attraction(what stupid crap is this?), loved, devoted, motivated by affection, romantic(what? again?), entertain friends, cant face jealousy(nope dont agree with this), can be nice and friendly until i become angry (yay. i think this is the truest statment so far), hates vulgarities (i dont use some because they are really not on my vocabulary list just because its too vulgar), polite, reserved, shyness is a cover for intense drive (sounds like me huh?), NEVER PROCRASTINATING (erm. yea. this is the most untruest statement so far), good sense of humour, much inner strength, cold towards loved ones (very true sometimes. go ask yining), desperate for love (from? parents? never copy down), willing to sacrifice (hmm yea. sort of), disciplined (dots), maturity (even more dots), sensitve (YUP), loneliness behind appearances (very right huh?), seem boastful but deep down they are shy (contradicts a line), short of patience (very right), optimist (not really. i dont know), need for love (again?), afraid of being rejected
ok. this is a combination of everything i have copied down. eh damn fun lah. but above is just a simplified version. oh and the heath problems faced are very very true. -digestive system (gastric pains and all that), throat (currently having sore throat), nose (i am very vulnerable to colds and flus), liver (i dont know. too much panadol. haha. just kidding), rheumatism (hmm. better watch out for that), headache (what do you think?)
ok. interesting right. ok nvm. oh yah. today was the mid-autumn festival celebration. first we watched performances. so cool! =) especially the story telling and the wushu one! the othe rtwo were also very nice! story telling was damn cool ok. ok. then went to get drinks from the table, then went to our bags at the rockwall. then played court with seniors, in the dark. wahahaha. fun. but really couldnt see! wahaha. then played with sparklers! =) joleen has a phobia of them because she got burnt before. as in someone dropped it on her hand or smth. wahahaha. so fun. then got chased out at 9. then took bus with claudia to bukit batok mrt. faster mah. uh ok. shall go sleep now. i spent 1 hr blogging. its 11.13 now. ok. bye! oh yes. qitian smsed me just now saying her sis was born! yay! congratulations!!!! =) ant 9.05 i think. not sure. lazy go check now. ok. shall go now. bye!
|| At 10:15 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

must jiayou everyone! prove yourself wrothy to everyone else. stay strong and...uh... still the same old words...JIAYOU! =) we will all be behind you, supporting you!!!!
ok. last post before i go off. hmm. dont know what to type though. nvm. just an encouragement post for everyone! =)

my life is THAT disastrous. I want to see the rain. I want to watch it fall softly on the ground i fell on. See it as it falls from the beautiful sky and descend to the sufferings of all. It might be for an hour. or a minute. or even a second. every drop is a blessing, an encouragement, a push for us to go on further. take it. take it with determination. Be determined, to start all over again no matter what you have gone through. stand up. its the only way you can start again. a fall, will happen many a times. we just have to stand up, and face the laughters of the crowd; or even, laugh with them. treasure the rain. it does not just stop its cycle because it has fallen on the ground. it flows to another place, a place where it may find its happiness. shouldnt we do the same?

ok. the previous paragraph is quite crappy huh. boredom lor. but i seriously want to watch it rain. my heart really feels at peace when i see it rain. it washes away my troubles. and it will encourage me to cry. tears. are like rain.
ok nvm. stupid me. ok. shall go sleep now. bye! goodnight!
Watch it rain.
|| At 10:50 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

wahaha. wonderful rap me and catherine came up with. retarded. ok. nvm. oh yah. ytd didnt go for jap. decided to quit. i hate thier system. just hate it. shall not elaborate because i am currently still very pissed off with that. and i shall not be that stupid to remind myself of it. and i havent done my chinese compre which is due tmr. die man. tmr will be rushing like crazy. then tmr still need to do zuo wen. EEK. so crappy. algebra rocks. ok. out of point. whaever. and im currently having stupid hiccups now. ok nvm. oh mrs see wasnt here today. so we did ws 4.1. after that we were doing damn crappy stuff. we were also doing crappy stuff during chinese when we were supposed to be writing zuo wen. btw the rap was composed during chinese. or science. either one. cant rmb. feel very accomplished. i just finished my science sia ppt. 26 slides oK! i did 24 slides! janice did the cover and the end. ok im stuck with this walala song. went around singing it. so rubbish. haha. janice was damn irritated by that song lah. haha. then she started singing too. wahahaha. bought a new mathematical set today. bought socks too. havent bought PE tshirt. ok. so retarded. ok. having headache thanks to editing of journal and science ppt. bleh. finally finished it though. proud of it ok!!! yay! have been having loads of headache recently. arg. stress i guess. ok forget it. lets not talk about stress. once i think of stress i think of stupid jap. as in i really like jap! but i hate the system they are using ok. i probably can cope fine, but i just hate how they have this 'dont care' attitude towards their students ok. grr. just very angry with that lah. nvm.
ok new paragraph new feelings. today was a retarded day. was trying out the sylvester cat face with katherine and janice. when i see katherine i tell you, i will think of the sylvester cat at her house lah. damn funny lor. retarded expression. ok nvm. oh yah. we are gonig to take neoprints after exams oK! so crappy. never take with janice and katherine before. haha. and i shall add it to my wonderful collection. ok. was reading the chinese version of 'little women' today. interesting. i got fined by the lib for returning books late. and i was fined $14+. crap. just topped up the cashcard then got this kind of stupid thing. oh and my mum is funny ok. she is crazy about losing weight. better watch her ah. shes drinking what fruit juice thingy. yea. rmb went to clementi to buy de. but couldnt find it the last time. i dont know how my cousin managed to find it but... NVM. its so sickeningly EXPENSIVE. grr. i dont trust such stuff. have told my mum dont believe lor. then she was like, aiyah, im so fat then whatever whatever whatever. its like, she ISNT fat ok. she exercises like mad can. she is very scary. healthy. ok probably not including the fruit juice part. and i think i have very unbalance diet. i either eat very little or i binge. grr. unhealthy. nvm.
todays trng was so fun and tiring. trained with some seniors.
ok. my eyes gonig a bit blurry. maybe shall sleep very early today. ok. bye! =) goodnight! oh yes. before i go. let me advise all of you to say goodnight to everyone in the house. its very sweet to get a reply from my parents. =) i love my mum and dad! =) ok. bye! =) oh and i got 16 for geog test! im so stupid not to identify the feature. or else one more mark. aiyah. at least i have smth that im proud of besides jap. grr. which is making me fume. nvm. ok. bye!
|| At 8:48 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

yea. can tell right. had been like that for...erm. i dont know how long lah. ok. i still havent found out if red blood cells have cytoplasm. boohoohoo. but didnt revise anything today. because did science sia ppt. woohoo. finished 18 slides within 2 days. very scared our prototype cannot work!!! eekeekeek. ok. nvm. today. in the morning played half court. I HATE MY SCHOOL SHOES OK. i twisted my ankle. ok but its a lot better now. if in the past i would probably shout my lungs out because it would hurt like crazy. hmm. or probably not that exaggerated huh. haha. oh yah havent reply shiyu. eh wait why suddenly change topic? grr. second time since ytd. or was it ytd? FORGET IT. today was a quite slack day. because only proper lesson today was math. algebra still rocks ok. actually geometry is not bad too. but algebra rocks more!!! =) ok. speech t we chosee the song hui zhe chi bang de nu hai. erm dont know if this is the correct han yu pin yin but NVM. this song has been ringing in my head since speech t. hahaha. oh yah. PE was damn funny. ok. first did standing broad jump or smth. haha. fun. then it started raining. so we were stuck there in a tent at the track. so isolated from the world lah. haha. then we were stuck for like 10 min? dont know. then went back and did the theory test. eek. so we are going to do the other stations next week. hahaha. sounds fun. standing broad jump, softball throw, 50m sprint, 700m. COOL. im mad. yea. then got this interesting blue file for geting high dist for NSW competition for IT. haha. funny. then went back to class to do signing of edleweiss (dont know how to spell it) so fun! but i dont like to lead because qitian say i have a very gong expression when i was leading. aiyah. must rmb how to sign mah. ok. just finished editing essays for jenzi. havent complete yet. because seriously no brain juice le. haha. ok. then art was SO FUN. painted our pinch pot!!!!! yay. painted mine black. and i discovered i can paint with both hands!!! ok thats bo liao. oh and i was almost late for trng. or probably i was late. because i was doing that until 3. then had to get qitian to help me bring my stuff out. ok. very proud of my own painted pinchpot! =) dont know how else to decorate it. haha. ok nvm. then had trng. mm. then xx told us some very disgusting story. haha. goosebumps man. ok. i am damn stupid ok. i was looking throught the m1 bill, then i just kept walking walking walking then i reach outside my house then i continued walking striaght, then i banged into the flower pot. like so retarded can. my mum was laughing like mad lah. and now i have this HUGE bruise that is swollen on my leg. DOTS. retarded like mad today. eh? what am i talking? eek. nvm. oh yes. tmr we are having a small little rehearsal for our IPW. gosh. scary lah. as in not the presenting part. ok. shall go off now. bye!
|| At 10:41 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

bleh. just finished 6 slides of ppt on science sia. so crap can. spent lots of time on the diagram. and i am desperately in need of adobe photoshop. BLEH. without it, i cant do my website!!! and its supposed to be in by 30 sept. GRR. oh and im still trying to find out if red blood cell has cytoplasm. blah. ok. almost had gastric pains. almost. bleh. and i seriously dont know how to console people. eh? why suddenly change topic all of a sudden? RUBBISH. ok nvm. ok just took another panadol today. ok. no more panadol for this week. really. and the requirements for our science sia is CRAZY. eek. ok. im blogging in scrapes now. cant concentrate. eeks. oh yah. interestingly, there was a cockroach during jap class today. it was behind my chair. EEk. didnt scream for the first half of the lesson. thats a good sign. lue senseh also saw. but i think she pretended not to see it. eek. then after the break, went back to class, the stupid cockroach was gone. seriously i would have felt more at ease if it was still around. and im addicted to uniball signo DX pens. especially 0.28. =) and 0.38! =) haha. ok. almost collapsed after weights. hunger? probably. haha. shall go pack my bag (and lets hope i dont see any cockroaches inside my bag) . and go shiyu forgot to bring the insect repellant today. so we all got bitten today. so crappy. and the newspaper is terrorising us with reports on the cases of dengue fever rising. eek. but im suddenly addicted to reading newspaper because of that. btw. newspapers past few days were quite interesting. i dont know. i have probably gone crazy. yea. and im seriously gonig to strangle yining when i see her. people should know why. grr. and zixin too. ok NVM. shall go off now. BYE
|| At 10:32 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

interesting. got this from shiyu's blog. not according to my preference. hmm. probably according to memory.

1. yining
2. jenzi
3. katherine
4. janice
5. shiyu
6.joleen
7. qitian
8. SOMEONE (NYN has publicised this.)
9.grace
10. claudia
11. ying yan
12.soo han
13.ms loo
14.mira
15. zixin
16. liang hui
17. sandie
18. charissa
19. azidah
20. mei ling


How did you meet 13?
netball coach.

What would you do if you never met 5?
hmm. try and meet her? like what kind of question is this???

What do you honestly think of 10?
thought she was dao at first. but obviosuly was proved wrong. very fun girl to be with. RETARDED MUMMY.

Have you ever liked no.3?
uh...like her as a FRIEND. BENCHMATE. uh yah.

If 1 died tomorrow, what is 1 thing that you would like to do?
laugh out loud. ok kidding. hmm. cry like hell????

Would 2 and 11 make a good couple?
wahaha. i dont know...but i dont think so. wahaha.

Do you think 12 is hot?
wahaha. probably more on the cute side.

Would 1 and 17 make a lovely couple?
dont know each other. but personalities sort of match huh.

Tell me something humiliating about 11.
uh. like??? haha. you think i keep track of what happens to everyone huh?

Do you know any of 3's family members?
wahaha. her mum is our class erm...parent in charge? i dont know how to phrase it. but does that count?

On a scale of 1-10 how cute is 14?
wahaha. 6! shes more on the super cool and humorous type.

What would you do if 4 just professed his/her undying love for you?
erm. probably check if she has a fever from studying too much or smth.

What language does 19 speak?
english and malay. is she learning chinese as third lang? im not sure.

Who is 8 going out with?
SERIOUSLY I DONT WANT TO KNOW.

Would 18 and 5 make a good couple?
dont know each other.

When was the last time you talked to 5?
im still chatting to her on msn if you were wondering. but...ok. just now.

What is 1's favorite band?
previously 5566. but i dont know about now.

Would you ever date 16?
erm no. she wants to be a tai tai!!! haha.

Would you ever date 7?
NEVER IN MY LIFE WOULD I DO THAT. (not prejudiced towards her. but im not a les)

Is 15 single?
yea. think so. not that sure.

What is 19's last name?
oops. i dont know. quite a long name.

What school does 16 go to?
nanyang

What school does 1 go to?
nan hua

Where does 9 live?
uh. i dont know actually. i DONT stalk people.

Would you make out with 13?
NO WAY. DUH.

Are 5 and 6 best friends?
eh...dont think so.

Is 20 older than you?
i guess so. by a few months?

Is 4 the sexiest bitch alive?
DOTS. NO ACTUALLY. like hahaha.

ok. finally. shiyu is going to kill me for typing this papragraph. wahahaha.
|| At 9:57 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

ok. im back. for just a short while. im finally going to sleep! after this post that is. haha. ok. finished that damn topic on cells. and i copied like about 20+ pages of notes. ok. and tmr shall be another freaking study day for me. ok. shall go off now. bye!
|| At 12:19 AM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

ok. this is a break from my studying. having a severe headache man. but i simply refuse to take any panadol. haha. every time i tell my mum i have headache she will ask me to take panadol but its UNHEALTHY. ok. shall just blog briefly about what happened today. ok. mum was in a very very happy mood today ok. went to jp with her. bought a pair of jeans. i sriously need more skirts/jeans/shorts/whatever because i end up wearing those same old 3/4 which i hate. really lah. i hate 3/4. dont know why. find it ugly on me. haha. so prefer to wear skirt. and finally i bought a pair of jeans. which means, i have to discard the two pairs i bought erm...last year or two years ago. i seriously think if i do not throw it away, im going to end up with two denim bermudas or smth. HAHA. its like shrinking! haha. ok. oh yes. then wanted to go popular. my mum was like, nah, give you $20 put in your wallet. i was like laughing, saying:" i thought you said you only want to give me $6 a day ytd? why give me $20??? hahahahaha. damn funny lah. then she said:"aiyah. scold le then forget it. i will end up putting money inside your wallet lah. but spend it wisely ok!" oops. she didnt say the spend it wisely. but i imagined her saying that. NVM. haha. and i translated it from chinese!!! hahahaha. ok. then went pop and bought notebooks. desperately in need of notebooks!!!!! hahaha. ok. then met my aunt. then took her van back home. then only started studying at 7. so crap lah. i wasted erm...i dont know how long. ok .not exactly wasted. read national geographic. haha. then watched tv. erm. havent watched tv for ages. hehheh. sounds guai. but actually not. because i use the com. hahaha. retarded. ok. then started studying science. ARG. IVLE IS DOWn. and i just rmbed i downloaded notes ytd. wahahaha. so i have stuff to study!!! =) ok. just finished compunds and mixtures. next up is cells. MINE ARE DEAD MIND YOU. haha. ok. shall jia you and go study. maybe i shall study unil midnight or smth. hahahaha. ok. shall go off now. BYE!
|| At 10:19 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

i just rmbed about ytd from shiyu's blog. haha. ytd went for weights trng in the morning. then went to bugis. ate like LOADS of food. especially me. haha. i felt damn FAT ok. haha. then went to kallang earlier because was hased out of Mos Burger and had nothing to do. and i fell asleep standing outside muee. really lah. i was standing there, then suddenly i fell asleep and almost dropped the netball. hahaha. ok. ytd's game was so fun!!!!!!!! =) played goal keeper for all. not much to run. haha. but still as tired. then had short trng after that. so fun lah. but for the second drill, claudia and me were stuck outside being the KAYPOHS. haha. we were like, dont walk dont walk. then stay ther! yea. haha. dont understand right. haha. but we were quite enlightened about the drill. haha. and ms loo was in a very happy mood ytd. haha. the first drill we did was very funny ok! haha. laughed like mad. and ok. must rmb to bring watch or smth to time the warm up. and also, is the team ball drill included in the warmup? haha. nvm. ok. shall go off now. bye! =) Jia you everyone for future trngs! =)
|| At 6:15 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

phew. feeling so much better. guess i dont bear grudges for long. not even for a day i guess. haha. FORGIVE AND FORGET. yea. so sad. couldnt go for the asian champs today. ok didnt dare to ask. see my mums mood today lah. if she allowed it probably is a miracle. haha. but i know joleen went. haha. only her i think. so sorry lah. smsed the whole team, acutally 4 people can go, including her, then later only left her. haha. poor thing. but nvm! have fun ok! ok. i have been reading blogs since just now. since my mum went out. WAHAHA. evil. should have been studying but... haha. ok. got to go now. bye!
|| At 6:00 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

arg. feeling so dead today. woke up at 1pm. then ate then went to study. mum screamed at me for spending too much money. she screamed like hell ok. i know she almost wanted to explode because she saw my bo chap face. wah lao. then after that i think she was feeling guilty or smth, wanted me to go out with her and dad. REFUSED TO. so im here now. alone at home. supposed to study, but since she isnt around i am blogging. obviously wont be able to go out. ARG. and im having horrible cold. i better get some ant killer or smth. damn disgusting to see ants. especially on my comupter keyboard. and i end up squashing about 5 ants everyday. because i dont bother those at the kitchen because i think theres a nest or smth in there. which i will probably faint if i saw it. sigh. headache now. very tired but still have to study. oh yah. and my mum is damn discouraging lah. she was like YOUR RESULTS ARE SO LAN. thank you very much. I KNOW THAT. but can she at least tell me YOU CAN IMPROVE? arg. so i am here, discouraged, no mood to do any work. and the results so lan, refers to my bio common test. HALLO I WASNT THE ONLY ONE WHO FAILED MIND YOU! and i guess what she was refering to was also me failed math quiz, history quiz, math SIA, and i forgot whats the last one. sigh. and i seriously hate population studies! but now i seriously dont have the mood. shall go bathe. bye.
|| At 4:15 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

haha. meiling wont get to see her nice shot here le. so sorry!
ok changed to this blogskin. looks nice. ok. havent been doing much today ok. this morning reached school at around 7.20. then was recopying notes opposite the equipment room when i saw a slimy tail slid along the corner towards the vending machine. i was like, my gosh, whats that! well it was a snake. then quickly grabbed all my stuff, was about to run to the tent at the court when jenzi and xing xuan came. told them then they wanted to catch the snake. EEK. damn disgusting ok. (as in the snake.) so in the end we went to GO. then the OM came to help us catch it then let it down the drain. haha. bye snake! so cute. (snake again) haha. contradicting man. first is disgusting then cute. dots. ok. then had trng. tiring. jia you for tmr everyone!!! =)
then went to coro. felt damn bloated lah. couldnt rmb what happened there.
fall asleep on the bus. back ached like hell because position was like erm...hunched back. then didnt want to get off at my stop. went to jp instead. haha. lazy to get off. then bought magazine and took another bus back because i dont have to walk that far. lazy pig.
reached home, read magazine, fell asleep. from 5 to about 7. shit lah. later how to sleep??? i cant take naps!!! boohoohoo. im gonig to have a hard time. ARG.
ok. my left index finger hurts!!! bled this morning. ok. i need to relink a lot of people and i cant type properly without my index finger!!! aiyah. got to go relink now. bye!
|| At 10:13 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

ok. a scene keeps flashing in my mind. cant get it to stop. splitting headache!!! help!!! so horrible. arg. probably after studying too much history. so shit can. havent even finsh. what have i been doing??? sigh. ok. shall be off studying. bye! =)
|| At 10:38 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

eek. i think my flu is coming back. probably because i ate too heaty stuff on saturday. ok. got to lay off those for the time being. ok. progress report seriously sucks man. ok. didnt fail anything for geography. phew. higher chinese. erm. failed a comprehension. then the next comprehension i got 27/30. like dots man. haha. so retarded. history. failed a recent quiz. lang arts, didnt fail anything. science, failed a test. failed an SIA and a quiz. ok. im so cham can. 5 red marks. damn sad can. boo hoo hoo. ok. shall work hard! everyone jia you! =) ok. am feeling retarded. was checking the school email then found an email thats concerning what certificate of high distinction for computer skills. DOTS. i didnt even see that until today. it was supposed to be given out last friday. seriously i forgot what happened. can someone enlighten me???? i was supposed to meet mr yam on fri. but seriously i DONT check my email eveyday. how you expect me to know? but i really dont rmb what prize presentation on friday. AIYAH. so ma fan. and its so retarded. -_-''' ok. shall go study now. although i have no idea how to. arg. i need assesments because i really dont know how to revise lah. SHEESH. rubbish. ok. i really need to get some assesments on my own. or else im bound to fail. my gosh lah. ok. study hard everyone! jiayou!!! =)
|| At 7:49 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

feeling quite dead currently. feel tired. tired of everything in my life.
why does this have to happen? we were fine at first, werent we? what happened? i want to know why too. i suppose everyone does. why does it have to turn out like this? the situation tensed up, no eye contact, nothing spoken. how did it turn out like that? was this the case when we first started out? doesnt your heart break when you see that? stop stop stop. stop thinking about this.
this is what happens when im not talking to anyone. when i am, i will concentrate only on what we are talking, if not, i will start thinking about stupid stuff that has happened. probably pre-depression sydrome or smth.
my head hurts. my heart aches. sigh. shall go do some other stuff so i can forget about this. but its going to be stuck in my head for a long long time.
|| At 5:00 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

hallo. ytd went with my mum to the food fair at suntec. hahahaha. so cool! =) gained lots of weight there though. haha. i have given up on cultivating good typing habits because i guess it just isnt going to work for me. haha. ok before that went clementi. wanted to borrow comics. but couldnt find nice ones. rather go to the shop at 399. at least have better variety to choose from. haha. then went to look for what slimming fruit juice or smth lah. my mum is currently... i dont know, on losing weight frenzy? but she exercise like mad ok! she jogs to jurong east and jogs back, then she climbs the stairs up to 21st level and down and up for 5 times lah. my gosh lor. shes so motivated. boohoohoo. unlike me. ok. then couldnt find that shop lah, its at some ulu corner which we finally gave up. ok. then went to suntec. alighted at city hall then walked there. wah lao what stupid crap lah. the escalator at the overhead bridge wasnt working then its like, lots of people trying to go up lah. dots. ok. then reached the food fair. ate lots of stuff. hahaha. then until about 5+ we left. was gonig down the escalator when we saw like, lots of people below the other escalator waiting to go up. then, even funnier, later the people were climbing up the escalator because it wasnt working, then suddenly, the escalator moved downwards. LIKE HAHAHA. funny. then went back. same thing happened at the overhead bridge. there was this lady who was behind me lah, then she was like complaining to her friend on the phone saying what( in chinese), you wont believe the situation im in, you will laugh if you were here! we are like zombies walking on the overhead bridge. ...like diao. no need to announce to the WWW(whole wide world) ...haha. then went to IMM. bought shoes from DMK. i like the shoes there!!! the shoes there are very comfortable and you dont have to worry about falling. haha. then was like searching around for bag. because the color of my sling bag has erm...faded. so must get another one. so we got another bag from converse. bought like loads of stuff today. then went to jp. was like looking for a book to buy. was looking in the classics section because i simply LOVE the books!!!! but didnt buy though. didnt had enough time to get what i wanted. ok. today, went to jp with liqin, vernice, xing xuan and jenzi. went to KFC to eat and went to the library to study. haha. very funny lah. ok. then after that jenzi went back first so we went shopping. bought mood rings. vernice and i bought 2 each. haha. then went to look at tatoos and me and vernice bought also. hahahaha. we spent loads of money on accessories lah. ok. im going to get a scolding soon. shall go off now. bye!
|| At 10:08 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

Wow. One week of holidays. Going to be studying every single day. Yup. My mum asked me to do that. Just saw online progress report. Mine sucks like shit. AH!!!!!! I only got 2 EEs out of all the subjects. Or is it 3? aiyah. Whatever lah. Makes no difference anyway. And I dont have that page for history. I am going to explode. WHATEVER. So bleh. Seriously must start studying. STUDY JO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sigh. I have decided to cultivate good typing habits. Besides putting ' and ". Haha. Ok. Todays the last day of the term. Quite shuang actually. =) Ok. First was swatting flies and ants at netball court. There were like 10 ants in my shoes. I dont know how they got there lah. Pathetic. Ok. People, we need to invest in another bottle of insect repellant. So sorry I lost Shiyu's bottle. SO SORRY!!!! and I am going to steal idea from Katherine. HAHA. Shall put all my neos into a book! =) Shall do that later, after I blog. Ok. Today, played Cluedo during recess and lunch. My gosh. After lunch, was having a spliting headache. then had to take Panadol. Bought on the day of Cross country. Because was having serious flu. And now, I think I have a cold. HAHA. Partly because we were washing our clothes at the taps. yea. Like bathing lah. So lame. Then went to coro. Bought lots of stuff. I bought 2 grape ice blended. And I finished it. I am so infatuated with it!!!! =) Its nice except for the...i dont know whats that, seed? Haha. And fries too. Then went back to school. Jenzi, Vernice and Xing Xuan were telling us about weird/amusing/stupid/pervertic MSN convos. And I was laughing like hell. So damn funny lah. Then stayed with Jenzi and Vernice until about 7. 20. Then took 154 home. Was carrying like thousands of stuff lah. So funny. Fell asleep on the bus. Then was like sway here sway there. Whatever lah. Ok Shall go find a book now. BYE. Ok wait. Progress report seriously sucks like hell. So shit. Ok. Got a B for Comprehensive skills in Chinese. Wahaha. I can translate. =) Then got like 5 red marks for all those assignments lah. GRRR. And we have realised some comments are the same. Gosh. Do they really have NOTHING to write about us??? But all the comments mention I have smth to improve on. SIGH. Ok. Shall work really hard. Algebra rocks. =) Benchmates agree? I know Janice wont. And she will probably scream 'JOJO IS A STUPID FREAK!!!!' into my ear when she sees this statement. Haha. We shall play Cluedo. And Katherine and me shall win Janice. HAHA. Current record: Janice-1, Katherine-5, Me-4, Ass game-2. Ass game means there was smth wrong that happened. And they were both caused by Katherine and Janice. WAHAHA. Janice is pro at creating Cluedo boards. Haha. Shall go off now. BYE!
|| At 9:51 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

hallo! havent been blogging. because havent been using the com very much. except ytd which i spent the night playing game. damn fun. and i think i slept at 11 because i thought there was school today. haha. but ok ytd was so damn fun!!! =) had celebrations in school! waltz rocks! =) haha. then had class party. ok not much of party. just got some food then sat down to play cluedo with katherine and janice. HAHA. the concert was nice! =) then had weights trng. then went back shuqun. HAHA. wah lao. i really feel very pissed lah. get this stupid security guard who is so dumb. i was taking the netball in then he was staring at me. then he said what, no playing inside the school. WHATEVER LOR. stupid ass. sigh. but it was so fun!!! went there to play. I DONT CARE WHAT THE SECURITY GUARD SAYS. i know that we can play in the parade square lah. you think i dumb ah? actually wanted play hopscotch. but if i use my wallet i sure lose right! haha.MY GOSH! saw someone there. HAHA. =))) happy like dont know what. then went to jurong point. went to KFC and joint up loads of tables. hahahaha. very funny can. its like we have about...15 people? haha. then ended joining some tables in the middle of nowhere. hahahaha. then i think the staff were like staring at us. sorry! haha. stayed there until 6+. then took mrs yeo's car home. then played com game. today went to janices house to do science SIA. read the rubrics. it is so DEMANDING. my gosh. scary lah. then later made another prototype. haha. the filter rocks lah. but the problem is....we cant boil the water in ONE pathetic minute. erm. so we tried out our filter dont know how many million times. then after every test we had to sterlise everything all over again. then finished the filter. then tried filtering pond water with fish shit inside. ok works. sterlised the water. added mud to pond water. the water came out yellow after the filter. DOTS. couldnt find out what could be done lah!!!! so forget it. we shall just take it as it is. so we cleared up. then janice made a cluedo with idols and stuff. so fun!!!! played 6 games. janice went crazy because she uses this chim chim method of recording every move we made. but obviously shi bai because me and catherine won 3 times each. hahahahaha. laughed like mad lah. janice head almost exploded in the last two games. then got two times she got mixed up. hahahahahaha. i ended up eating 7 packs of biscuit. =) haha. ate honeydew too. janice even brought bananas in. HAHA. but didnt eat because was eating biscuits. haha. got one time was so funny. i didnt even know the answer but i won because both of them guessed wrongly. SO FUNNY. ok. shall go play game now. BYE! =)
long post. havent seen this blog of mine for such a long time le. ok. bye!
|| At 7:10 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

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