♥ , My Garden of Eden.

Amused.

♥Monday, December 28, 2009.

Its all in the title.

Amused by quite a few things today actually. There is this girl I absolutely have to blog about. She's like, around 12, looking by her height and all. But she's wearing damn mature clothes, for her age. Its not revealing or anything. But its like, something someone of my age would wear, like some ladies' blouse and miniskirt. And silver flats, which are totally teens. And she was carrying a pink Nike tote. Like, omg. I won't be surprised if she whipped out an ipod or iphone or something. And she just had this damn mature look on her face. I freaking got a shock. She's quite pretty actually, but I think she's dressing too maturely for her age. Oh my. I sure hope I never looked that way.

And. Our mentor for Game On just emailed me. Judging by her email address, I would suppose she's one year younger than me. LIKE WTH. My goodness. I'm feeling quite speechless right now. Yes, I understand that all panelists and mentors are trained, but that kind of put me into shock for a moment. Erps. I AM getting old.

Tomorrow's farewell for seniors. So last minute. :S Sorry peoples.

Oh and another amusing thing. Apparently almost all shops in Bras Basah Complex closes at 7pm, EVEN POPULAR. Freak, I got a shock okay. Apparently, the opportunity cost increases as shop keepers close later, seeing as its really quite quiet on weekdays. But I found this cool bookstore which I've never ventured into before. :D Union Bookstore. Not bad. Its still selling books ABOVE the actual conversion rates, but I don't blame them. They are like, more reasonable than even Popular. :S Shall visit there again, because I got chased out at 7pm. Hurhur.

Went back to good ol' Jurong Point. Apparently, Ocha's not there anymore. Guess that location really kinda sucked till now, when the bus interchange is finally open. Like, so scam, it was supposed to be 3rd quarter 2009.

I'm tired. Shall go sleep. :D

|| At 11:06 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

♥Sunday, December 27, 2009.

Turning into an avid blogger huh. Nah, I'm just bored. Actually I shouldn't be, because there's so much more things to do than being bored.

I miss being in China. Its not about the food, the place or anything. Its the prices. Sorry, I'm such a cheapskate. But for a spendthrift like me, that's the only place where I can get really good deals from. I'm not making a lot of sense here, because I don't really want to make sense as well. Kind of makes me wonder who I'm blogging for.

But I miss buying magazines in China. Seriously, the price apparently doubles when it reaches Singapore. Like, freak you.

Shall go to Bugis to look at CDs later. I'm tired of shopping for CDs at shops which attempt to scam me of my money. Beauty World is love, because I managed to get some DVDs for really low price yesterday.

And my mum's back from Malaysia with POT. :D Haha totally scammed her into buying it for me.

Dental appointment later.

I'm just plain bored now. Nope, I'm not starting work.

|| At 1:24 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

Thoughts.

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Its been quite long since I blogged about my thoughts huh. Since it became extremely emo and I refused to publish stuff anymore. Haha. Its been boring isn't it, just know about what I'm doing everyday. Was about to go to sleep, actually, but realised that I wanted to write this down before my feelings are flushed away.

I know I'll never become that person all of you want me to be. Maybe you've all given up on hoping that I will turn out like that. I'm not an extrovert, and I will never be one. I'm not a fire, and I'll never be one. Sorry to those whom I've let down, but I've made a promise to myself (just, actually), that this is the last time I'm apologizing to this group of people. I'm really tired of doing this over and over again, when you people don't even see that I'm trying. Do you think I want to fall short of your expectations on purpose? Who wants to go into a battle thinking they will lose?

I'm so tired of fighting this losing battle. I know I will never be that one person you can look up to.

Maybe its the help of medicine, but I didn't take those things people said to heart. I hope I don't become immune to criticisms, but I need to build up my walls again, after it crumbled before. I need to make it sturdier than before. I think I need a talk with Mrs Goh really soon; feeling a bit out of sorts after camp. Haha I'm so pathetic.

I can just announce my weaknesses here, because I'd rather everyone see for themselves that I understand and not think that I don't give a damn.

I hate talking; I hate trying to talk sense into people. I make no sense to myself; and I am water. I know I don't have my own stand, my own thoughts. Really.

I'm not into arguing. Really, please, I'd chicken out.

I give up easily. And I'm bad at sustaining my enthusiasm for something; I'm a starter, not an 'ender'.

Its like 3am now and I'm kind of delirious, as you can tell. But the point of this post isn't for anyone else. Its for me to remind myself that I need to live my own life. I'm gonna meet new people, and I'm gonna live my own life, my way. Period.

Feels so much better. But I still feel like I need to talk. Any listening ears out there?

|| At 2:43 AM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

Christmas!

♥Saturday, December 26, 2009.

Merry Christmas! Fine, its the 26th, but whatever.

This week was exciting ttm. First was Council camp. Which went..not bad I would think. Then we had two days straight of class outings. Haha. ATTENDANCE WAS LIKE SHIT PLEASE. Roar.

First time playing CS! Lol. Like some retard like that. And attempted a bit of Left 4 Dead. Quite interesting, but like damn scary. Haha.

Yesterday had barbeque at Jenzi's house. My goodness. Haha. We burnt the table top don't know how many times before we succeeded can. Scariness. But not bad, we managed to barbeque all the food. :D

Going out with Ver, Jen and Lum later. LOL.

I really need to start on my homework. :S

|| At 10:25 AM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

-.-

♥Sunday, December 20, 2009.

After I came back from China its been like, activity nonstop. So happening ah.

Okay I'm back to blog at 11.18pm. Haha. Camp has tire me out till I can only do one thing at once. ><

I'm kind of delirious now actually. I hope camp goes well, seriously. :S

Roar. Stop whining about your unfinished homework. I have yet to whine about my untouched ones. Seriously. I've probably returned all my J1 knowledge back to all my teachers. Damn. But I seriously have no time! After camp I need to start working on seniors' farewell and carnival. AND fac dance, which I haven't been going for. :S

And that reminds me, I need to add in the bloody logo for our invitation. Can't believe we freaking got the grant okay, what the hell. I am epic sianed. And my photoshop is lagging my computer like nobody's business. Gosh, plesae don't hang on me, seriously.

Hoho. Spamming DBSK videos like nobody's business too. JUNSU :D

Okay got to sleep early. Hectic 3 days ahead. GO NYSC! :D

|| At 8:23 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

♥Wednesday, December 16, 2009.

Hoho I'm back from CHINA! :D Quite a relaxed trip I guess. Quite alot of stoning and sleeping and camwhoring. Haha. And now I'm back I'm absolutely packed to the max.

Tomorrow's trial run for December camp and juniors' chalet. Gosh, so fast. Haha. Its like, one year since we were sitting there talking and crying like some madwomen. I suppose we're staying overnight.

Thursday is a rest day. Which means its start homework day. Hurhur.

Friday is another horrible day. I think I'm missing pre camp briefing. Damn. I've got training, then Blaze AGM. I haven't got a damn present and I don't know when I'm gonna get one.

And freak. I need a haircut.

Okay I shall stop whining. I'm getting slightly worried about camp. :S Roar.

Sian.

And I think Junsu is hot. Like, epic hot. Pelvic thrust! :D Haha. All thanks to Waiyee and her spamming of hot guys throughout the trip. :D And he's got nice MARCLES. :D Sizzles.

|| At 12:00 AM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

AIRPORT! :D

♥Friday, December 04, 2009.

WOOHOO! :D We're at the airport now! :D Wahahaha. Uber exciting cans. Roar. Its around 10 minutes to boarding time and I'm being very retarded here. HOHO. SEE YOU PEOPLE IN TEN DAYS TIME! :DD

|| At 11:30 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

CHINA CHINA CHINA. :D

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I'll be on a freaking plane in less than 24 hours. :D CAN YOU BELIEVE IT!

And I'm like, really really really sorry to people whom I've thrown all the shit to: Hern Hern, Vivien, Jaime, Qian Wen, Hui Kin and Li Ying. PAISEH! I attempted to jiao dai everything and I hope I managed to do that. Erps.

I'm excited about CHINA! :D WAIYEEEEEEEEEE. :D Haha hopefully we don't get sick of each other through these 10 days. HAHA. :D So exciting! This is like, my first informal trip with friends! Okay, friend! :D Woohoo.

Okay but first I need to get through tomorrow's training, and once again, I WILL BE ZAI. I type also feel abit guilty. -.-

Oh my. I HOPE WE GET TO VISIT BOOKSTORES IN CHINA!! I'll probably bring a second luggage worth of stuff back. Haha.

Okay its time to get all my songs on my iPod. :D SEE YOU GUYS WHEN I'M BACK! :D

|| At 1:03 AM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

♥Wednesday, December 02, 2009.

Training today was, horrid. I should kick myself. Harhar. Nevermind, I shall be zai on Friday. (Like real I'll be.)

Anyway, to continue on the art rampage since yesterday. :D

For all those photoshop fanatics out there (among my friends who actually read this boring blog), go here! http://sixrevisions.com/photoshop/70-excellent-photoshop-resources/

There's like, 70 websites full of FREE tutorials and stuff. Well maybe some stuff are not free, but yes, there are cool free stuff. Haha sorry, I just have to harp on the freeeeee part.

My gosh. Popular sure is hard up for money. In addition to Students' card they have a POP Kids Card.

And while I'm flipping through this FREE Popular members magazine thing, I have to comment. With all due respect to Microsoft; I love Office, but I hate Word Art. Or should I say, I hate people who use Word Art on advertisements. Period. Gosh.

Cheesy taglines. "If you can read then you can go anywhere!" Oh my. Haha wth I just noticed a very cheesy advertisement. Damn epic.

Oh and did I mention!! Chelsea Cain's sequel to Heartsick is out. :D I think thats old news (ooh, oxymoron) but its kinda cool. :D Can't remember the time though.

Random: Sony stuff all looks damn good. Their music stuff is like, ownage. Besides iPod I don't think anyone else can have better looking devices.

This is beautiful. Stumbled upon it while looking for quotes and stuff.

The Main mission of Farley presence in the artic was to study their hunting habits on the idea that they hunt recklessly, killing in excess. I did not realize that caribou, when healthy, can easily outrun a wolf. “The scene was all wrong” as describe by Mowat, “Neither one seem perturbed or even greatly interested in each others’ presence” (191). Wolf can only feed on a caribou, when they cannot operate at optimal strength. They do “test runs” in order to determine if they are sick, this helps the caribou develop speed and stamina. Hunting requires so much energy, that the wolf only hunts when absolutely necessary. This puts to rest the fact that wolves are savage and wasteful hunters, however Mowat soon uncovers that hunters are to blame for the game decline.

"The caribou feeds the wolf, but its the wolf who keeps the caribou strong."

Okay I shall stop blogging here. Haha. Off to do team stuff. :D

|| At 10:25 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

Cool shit.

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Damn, I really need to be sleeping now, but I just found this uber cool website. Okay maybe the website isn't the cool thing but the stuff I saw there is like, woah. And something just struck me when I saw this picture.

Damn. So cool can. Doesn't it remind you of Little Prince?!?!?! The elephant in the snake's stomach. Hahaha that was like the first thing I thought of. And there's alot of cool advertisements and photo manipulations which are like, damn clever. Haha. Yes, that's how I spent my whole freaking day. If yall are interested: 10steps.sg. Haha its not his works, but they're like stuff he found and consolidated. Darn cool. Haven't got around to look at the tutorials and such, but its inspiring. Really. :D

I absolutely had to share that, for some reason which I can't explain myself. Haha. Its getting er..late. I better go sleep before my dad pops into my room again, like he does 10-15 times a day. Hurhur. No dad, I'm not watching porn on the web or doing illegal stuff. You don't have to drop in my room every once in 20 minutes. Considering he's only at home at night, the times he drops into my room is like, WTH. Seriously, give me some privacy. I'm not into showing you my Facebook profiles or comics or I don't know what other stuff I do online. Oh like, online shopping with your money. Erps. But really. I need to like, open a new tab on Chrome just when I hear the your door opening. Damn, why don't I get to close my door.

Okay enough of rambling. Getting some 2nd hand comics tomorrow. Greatness. :D At like, $1 each. Haha damn shiok okay. And getting absolute boyfriend comics, also 2nd hand, on Friday. At $2 each! Freak SGClub is love. :D I need to start selling some redundant stuff off, my cupboard's piling up.

And damn you flu, go away.

Not in a very civilised mood today. As you can probably tell.

Looking forward to team outing. :D But I think I'll have to go through intervals tomorrow first. Damn. Pray hard I can breathe.

Okay I really ought to stop rambling.

|| At 2:19 AM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||