Its been a really tiring day. Right, when is ever that I'm not tired.
Everytime I go for counselling sessions, I come out a little sadder than I went in. I don't know why. Probably just self-realization that I shouldn't continue being the me now, but I just can't help it. And it just makese me more disappointed in myself.
Maybe I really don't know how to manage my time well. All that in the past was a facade. I don't know what I'm doing now.
I don't think simply worrying about things I have not done is being responsible, I disagree with you on that.
Am I too harsh on myself? Maybe, maybe not.
But I always feel like I'm not trying my best. Like everytime.
I agree. I think I overcare. But I just don't want to do something that I won't want others to do to me.
Maybe I just want to get approval. Get acknowledgement. Get attention. Get friends.
I don't know.
I guess I just have to try to psycho myself. Into thinking I have a positive schema.
But I'm not exactly a positive person myself. Haha. What a joke.
Back to normal daily stuff. PW is a mass massacre of my brain cells. And my eyes. -.- And I'm pissed with the horrendous colour of my printer. And I'm angry with my glue. Damn. So everthing has to go against me huh.
And I promise myself, I'll get a freaking tablet on my own. SERIOUSLY. It sucks working with a mouse. Honestly. Please, any kind soul, donate to the Jocelyn's tablet fund. I shall aim for the Bamboo Fun, from Wacom, is it? But its bloody expensive. But I heard its more sensitive. Okay I know Wacom Intuo is a lot better for art, but please, its bloody expensive. I'll start small. :D
I'm glad to get my type style finder book today. :D Thanks to Jenzi's Harris discount voucher. :D HAPPY. And Jenzi! If you ever see this, GET WELL SOON KAY! :D
Thanks Joleen for the Kangaroo. :D Haha you really brought one back for me! :D (Mainly because I've gotten a lot of Koalas but not kangaroos. Hurhur. They got a fetish for K isit. Koala, Kangaroo, Kiwi. ><
Its time to return to PW. EXPLODES. Few more hours of staring at this tiny screen and trying to make sure the bloody colour matches. And my printer better not screw up today. ><