I know my limits. At least I think so. But I know I try too hard sometimes.
I think I'm an ego person. Haha. I need to feel needed. And I kind of felt good just because of something that happened. That person wouldn't even know, but really. it kind of made my night. Cause it happened at night. But it made me feel more confident and comfortable that there are people who believe in me. And my abilities. Or the lack of it. Whatever.
I've come to terms with myself tonight, after what that person said. I will always be me, no matter what other people say. No matter what other people choose to say about me, I know who I am. People I love know who I am. I know who I am. I agree with Wai Yee. People do need to be selfish sometimes. But I realise, I don't want this selfishness to ruin others. At least I want to do my part. I hope I can do that very least.
Maybe its just not in me to allow myself to disappoint people. Because I feel disappointed as well. Haha I don't know whether its good or not. Maybe in some sense, yes.
Its been a productive two days, as compared to my past freaking two, three weeks. I know its late, but like I said, better late than never. And I really must thank my friends, my really lovely classmates who are willing to help me, alot. :D Like Xin Yi! Haha I wouldn't have been motivated to do math without her. And yes, now I have conquered sequences and series! And least slightly, and to think I never listened to a single lecture or tutorial. -.- Not good, trust me.
I'm motivated by hands as well. :D Hahaha. That's why today's Bio and Chem were ): cause bad view. Haha. Shit I sound like some pervertic stalker. No, I don't think it'll be as bad as Ms Yeo's ex-student. Or Wai Yee's. Haha scariness totally. No I just have an obsession with nice hands, really. At least that's what I think. Gasp.
Okay I'm getting a bit irritating here. Haha. And really irritating to all those whom I keep emphasizing nice hands to. Wahaha. Really very nice. ><
Okay its 1am. Time to sleep. Tomorrow will be a better day! :D Love you all! :D