Anyway, enough of rambling about my inability to write a journal.
Today, I feel..thankful to God for all of the things He has given me. I read the daily devotion for yesterday, which was inspiring.
Job 5:19
He shall deliver you in six troubles, yes, in seven no evil shall touch you.
God will deliver you from all your troubles, but deliverance is not the best that God has for you.
As long as you keep believing God's promise of protection, you will come to a place where no evil can touch you. So when trouble comes, God does not want me to be discouraged. It is only the devil trying to steal His Word from my heart.
Even if you stub your toe against something hard, don't be discouraged and wonder why God did not protect you. The devil had meant to cause greater harm to you, but thank God that he could not because God is watching over you.
I think this devotion goes out to all who are struggling, with studies, relationships, family problems or with life itself.
I will stay strong, because I believe in His plan for me. And I'm praying for the rest of you as well, my family, my friends and all around me who are disheartened.
I know I have to like, go do math now. Mrs Boo totally enlightened me about vectors today. But she went quite fast. Haha. I hope I understand. ><>
And I feel quite shit that I'm not ready for the freaking Economics Test tomorrow. I totally thought it was next week. -.- And really, even if I have the question I can't do anything about it. I'll try.
Chemistry too. At lesat its organic Chem, something I can handle. But the energetics and equilibrium part became kind of screwed. Thanks a lot holy. -.-
Biology, I think I'm lagging. A lot. Hurhur. Its time to start reading and flagging stuff I don't understand.
Other's I'm not too concern.
Oh but honestly I really don't want to see HER tomorrow. Like my goodness. I totally don't want to see how she will react to me being there. Freak. Please calm down and do not attack me and PLEASE DO NOT ASK ME TO TALK TO YOU. I am talking to a counsellor already, I believe there's no need to trouble you. Shivers.
Haha so that was the narrative part of today's happenings actually. Oh and I missed out, I think there's something wrong with my left thumb. Like the bone is out of place or something. Hurhur. This year's been horrible. I've been for X-rays for like 2-3 times. And I've seen the doctor for almost 10 times regarding injuries. Goodness gracious.
I'm feeling really thankful for all my friends. All their encouragements. Teachers' encouragements too. I promise everyone, I'll bounce back stronger than ever. Because I believe I can.
But you know, I still want to be really selfish and do only only only things that I really want to do. But I guess there are still responsiblities I just can't let go of. And no, I don't think that's an excuse to escape from it.
Damn I need to gain back that motivation I used to have. The drive I used to have. The passion for life I used to have. Yes, I really do have a bucket full of hopes, dreams and aspirations. And I know I have the ability to reach it.
So yes, I'll just have to keep on working towards it.
I think my water personality is giving me a lot of troubles. Haha. I think I drowned out that little bit of fire I used to have. I'm like, a flood now. Don't worry, I'm building my dam up to control myself. I'll make it. And so will all of you. :D