Tomorrow is gonna be quite a hectic day I guess. Hopefully I don't screw math test up too badly. :S

And I've got to do my AQ. Which is utter deadness cause she hasn't really taught us the skills to do it. ZZZ.

And I'm tired already. At 10 pm. Shit me. I shall at least strive to finish AQ and wake up early to study math tomorrow. 

Feeling kinda..empty actually. Feels like I'm going through that all over again, when I thought I had made the right choice and feeling all good about it. I guess ignorance is bliss, and its time to start forgetting about these things that distract me from what I really want. But I don't even know what I really want. 

For now, I just want to eat, breathe and sleep netball, but what with the homework and all, it seems like and impossible task. I'm ultraly worried. You know what, I really want to get into main seven. But it isnt about me wanting, but whether I can do it. Its not even about my confidence; if I don't even have the ability, where am I going to get my confidence from? It just keeps going lower and lower as I continue deproving. I really want to strike back. Hard. And this two weeks are my last chances to do so. Please give me strength.

And I want Centad. :S Random, but yes. 

I want a lot of things, but I'm not sure where's my limit. I'm afraid I'll reach the point where my plate is too heavy and everything just goes out of order. 

I hope its not too much for me.