♥Saturday, April 18, 2009.
I have kinda alot of feelings now. :S
Anyway, to start off with something high and happy, I shall talk about JOLEEN LEE (and I bet you're reading this (: ) Cause shes the (quote HCunite) "young uprising star" of touch rug! WAHAHA Had damn lot of fun niaoing her just now. NOT BAD JOLEEEEEEEEEN (: Haha and of course congrats to them for nats champs! (:
Hmm. People seem to be emoing lately. Stay strong manzzzz, everyone who is.
I sound so unsympathetic, but seriously there isn't much to say to emoing people. :S
I sound skeptical. :S But I'm not okay.
AND I AM NOT DEFENSIVE.
Okay shit I just sounded like I was.
Everyone please clear the monologue from your mind. That was unnecessary. I'm getting influenced by my Chinese teacher. Schizophrenic. ><
Yesterday was utter scariness. I really don't think we should have let ourselves reach that stage before we picked ourselves up. :S Yesterday's play wasn't us. At all. And you know what, I really really really want to win.
It is the feeling of being so close to losing, that you really want to win it.
And we can do it.
AND TAKE CARE JAIME! (:
(piang those retards who didnt think people will get hurt by the pole deserve to get smacked upside down.)
Oh and I was reminded by Hui Kin's classic statement.. I can't remember when. But it was really funny. Cause we were just talking about the I LOVE HC shirt. And we were just saying it wasn't grammatically sound to say "HC LOVE I" cause its supposed to be HC LOVES ME. And the conversation goes as follows, according to what I can remember:
Hui Kin: Huh, then shouldn't put there in the first place what!
Me: But the school must reciprocate our love!
Hui Kin: But why must HC reciprocate our love? Can't it just be one-sided?!
Not bad, but it should then look like I CRUSH HC. Which is grammatically unsound again. Go figure man.
Met Li Ying in school to do some passes and runs under the bright and hot sun in an attempt to fight it head-on so we'll get immune to it before our next match. And I think it was not bad, just that we had to keep drinking and drinking and drinking. (Note to self: Drink 2 litres of water the day before, please.) And we did a little bit of drills and court run. Haha eons since we did that. ><><
AND WE MUGGED AFTER THAT! We studied for like 6 hours. Hahaha not bad right. (:
Okay I shall go watch the only TV show I watch. Haha. BYE (:
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♥Tuesday, April 14, 2009.
Kind of a happy day, I guess. Except for Bio lecture for which more than half my eyes were closed. :S DIES.
Wai Yee and I ended up not going for SMASH. Sorry to the organisers. :S Haha, but we know we'll get in and theres games tomorrow and we both have training so forget it, no point fighting. :P Haha but we were just plain lazy. We're playing tomorrow though! (: During break of course. (:
Oh I wanna talk about yesterday's training because it was so so so good. (: Jiaolian being there makes a damn great difference in intensity and all. The defender drill was a killer. But in the end we're all still standing here, alive and well, and what doesn't kill you makes you stronger (: But yesterday's training was really good, and I feel like an alkane once more. (: I'm getting a teeny weeny bit worried about tomorrow though, cause I'm guessing it will be tougher. But we're gonna be prepared when it comes! GO HWA CHONG! (:
And we got our jersey today. Sorry to say but I'm kinda disgusted by the puny-ness of the words. Gosh. Come on, we're there to intimidate people and scare people off from afar. And not for a bunch of people from 50m away going, "What school is that in front? Cannot even see the words." Like, what the?! Angry like anything. Che.
Stayed back today with Jenzi and Wai Yee to eat cup noodles (Wai Yee is going to drop alot alot of hair. :P) and just talk crap. (: Was kinda relaxing I guess. (: Yays!
And Jenzi, your SPACE still got STOMACH to FOOD EAT. (:
Finally did income tax filing for my dad. Zzz. I think my computer has got something against the website. Took damn long before I finally managed to file it.
I don't know what to do. I don't know how to face you. I didn't think you were such a person. I thought you at least had the heart to do something for us. But it turned out you didn't, and you probably can't see the disappointment in me. Come on. Don't trample all over us and think you can get away with it.
请你不要糟蹋它，
更请你不要糟蹋我们。
我不晓得你是否有回心转意的意思，
但是请你至少记得，
多少人得为你的不付出而牺牲。
Its just unfair. I'm not even talking about myself, I think its a waste for others to be put behind you. You know, I really want to hide my hate for you, but its overflowing in me, and its seeping out bit by bit. I don't want to reach the time where I explode, so please understand. I still want to be your friend, to trust you and believe in you, but can you help?
Thanks alot Jenzi, I think I keep burdening you with alot of my problems. :S I'm here for you too okay! (:
Its time to go do some productive work. Bleh.
|| At 9:19 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||
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♥Monday, April 13, 2009.
3 Cheers to completing damn ILP. (:
Got my Eee PC today! (: Can't understand why they choose to name it this way, but heck, its too pretty for me to care. (: But I'm having problems switching it on now, and I'm a bit panicky. Must I really wait until 8 hours is over?! At least I hope after 8 hours it will cooperate and switch on. Im not into sending it all the way down to near Funan even before I manage to operate it once. Hurhur.
And my goose. This is the 3rd freaking PI I'm submitting, when Ms Yeo hasn't even vetted it ONCE. My goodness. PW is pissing me to the core.
And I've got so many so many things I wanna do but I just can't freaking find the time to. And I've got stuff I NEED to do as well.
1. Income Tax filing for my dad (15 April!)
2. Store songs on MP3 for my mum. ... go figure.
3. Damn homework and studying. DIES.
Okay I'm tired of making the list because it makes me feel damn unaccomplished. Pui.
Had a weird thought today. Haha. Sounds quite mundane, but whatever, it just sort of struck me today that it sounds weird to be speaking to someone in English in Singapore when both of you actually know Chinese. Its like so..act. Haha. Maybe because I spent like 2 hours bitching to my mum about school (haha yes and she is nice to talk to! (: Just that everything has to become Chinese. Hurhur.) and it felt kinda weird returning back to English when speaking to other people. Hmm.
And I guess I'm kinda tired today.
AND I STILL HAVENT GOTTEN MY SKIP BEAT YET. ANGRY LIKE ANYTHING.
And a sudden random thought: I want the black cat from La Tendo at Kallang Leisure Park! PLEASE BUY IT FOR MY BIRTHDAY, ANYONE, PRETTY PLEASE (: Haha feel so thick-skinned, but whatever, being shy doesn't get you anywhere. (:
Tightened my braces today, and it feels like shit now. As in, it feels almost as if I went back to the time when I just put them on.
Grah.
And my muscles are getting more..bulky. Hurhur. Damn gross, was just comparing legs with my mum and realised how big my calves and thighs have become. Nevermind, its for an extremely good cause! (:
Please, please, please don't let me screw up sit and reach and IPU tomorrow. :S
|| At 12:51 AM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||
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♥Saturday, April 11, 2009.
Its raining now. (: Kinda nice weather to sleep in. Hurhur. Going out at night anyways.
Today's training was GOOD. As in not the we are damn good sense, but in the sense that it felt way better than any other trainings this week. Probably the intensity, I guess we can credit all these to jiaolian coming down. I think we achieved alot today. (: Oh and yesterday's training was important for defenders too! (: Yays, to kop Char's words, I feel saturated (: like an alkane! (: And my shirt was seriously wet, like wow. Its been that long since it happened.
Last week to choing before seasons officially starts! JIAYOU HWA CHONG NETBALL! (: WE OWN! (:
Anyway, I'm feeling kinda sianded now. So I shall go and watch TV. Told you I can't study at home. ZZZ.
|| At 4:13 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||
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♥Tuesday, April 07, 2009.
PI is kuku. Period. Shall give up on it for the time being.
Tomorrow is gonna be quite a hectic day I guess. Hopefully I don't screw math test up too badly. :S
And I've got to do my AQ. Which is utter deadness cause she hasn't really taught us the skills to do it. ZZZ.
And I'm tired already. At 10 pm. Shit me. I shall at least strive to finish AQ and wake up early to study math tomorrow.
Feeling kinda..empty actually. Feels like I'm going through that all over again, when I thought I had made the right choice and feeling all good about it. I guess ignorance is bliss, and its time to start forgetting about these things that distract me from what I really want. But I don't even know what I really want.
For now, I just want to eat, breathe and sleep netball, but what with the homework and all, it seems like and impossible task. I'm ultraly worried. You know what, I really want to get into main seven. But it isnt about me wanting, but whether I can do it. Its not even about my confidence; if I don't even have the ability, where am I going to get my confidence from? It just keeps going lower and lower as I continue deproving. I really want to strike back. Hard. And this two weeks are my last chances to do so. Please give me strength.
And I want Centad. :S Random, but yes.
I want a lot of things, but I'm not sure where's my limit. I'm afraid I'll reach the point where my plate is too heavy and everything just goes out of order.
I hope its not too much for me.
|| At 9:38 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||
Sianded.
♥Sunday, April 05, 2009.
Freaking shit. I have one freaking night to do my PI and study for econs. I'm freaking SCREWED.
Hurhur. What a sucky day.
And PI PIsses me off like nobody's business.
Grah. Angry like anything.
But you know what comes after this, don't you. Its back to work. Ha. Ha. Ha. What a joke.
|| At 11:00 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||
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| What is your True Fear? Your Result: Where Your life is Going You are a very determined and willful individual. You have strong set goals that you plan to reach no matter what.
You may be an overachiever at times but that's because you want to be successful in your life. The greatest accomplishment for you is when you reach a high goal. However, you constantly worry if you're not good enough to do something, or if your life doesn't go according to plan. You worry a lot about your future, and if it will meet all your high criteria. Don't worry, with your determination, and hard work ethic, and organization chances are things will go according to plan. |
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Koped from Jenzi. (: Kinda weird that I'll be afraid of death because I don't really think I am. But I think I used to, like when I was really young and kept asking my mother whether we are living in a dream and once the dream ends all of us will disappear. It isn't impossible to me still.
Anyway, yesterday was WAH!! And it really was damn HOT! (with me around, of course it was. (: ) Although a bit disappointed with the turnout rate, but was having loads of fun with people who were there. (: And OMG, haha we love Boon. (: He's the banana king in our hearts, right! (:
Haha anyway, I'm supposed to be mugging econs and doing PI now. Just that I'm lost for ideas and motivation. Freak. I. Am. So. Screwed.
Grahness. Fine shall go start work. Poo.
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