Okay after reviewing, maybe not as plain as I thought it was. But seeing as how much excitement I've had before, today pales in comparison. 

But I think its a bad day (morally) and good day (to jocelyn, of course. (: ) today. Bad since I have just started on my homework. Reason being the good day part: I finally have a day of rest time to myself. But I don't know how much of today was rest to me, seeing as I kept getting nagged at at the back of my mind. Hurhur. About homework, about friends, about parents, about a lot of things I don't even wanna recall. 

Someone just said something to me. That made me think. Is it really still fun, even without the people I truly loved? As compared to now, when I feel like I know nothing about them? Which brings back to the question Mr Tang posed to me during Sec 2. 

"Why do you like it so much?"

"Because of the people."

"You mean you like it just because of the people and not the thing itself?"

At that time, I answered as I would answer anyone who asks me the question now: no lah! Of course I like it! (If you hadn't realise I'm hiding the it. And he obviously didn't try to hide it, the conversation's tweaked, DUH. So don't ask.)

But yea. I thought that was my own answer. But I realised if I asked myself the question, I can't answer so definitely after all. 

Haha, seems kind of childish isn't it? But I'm a person who'd rather live like a child than an adult or even a growing teenager. I so wish to smile truthfully in front of everyone and anyone I see, even if they're strangers. But I know I can't. I can only count on people I know, but..I don't know. It seems that everyone else has a darker heart than anyone else. Like Mio and Natsu (Skip Beat, btw), its so deep I can't even get closer. 

But even they are putting on a smiling facade. Who are we all kidding actually? Each other? Getting down to the truth, we're just trying to kid ourselves, aren't we? 

The more I see smiles, the more I smile, the more I'm digusted.