Haha. Hahaha. I don't know. But I cringe when I see ... it? Or hear it even. I really don't know how to put it. I think I'm a coward for not telling her directly. This is utter crap. 

I've been dropping hints everywhere, but then you don't appear to be picking them up. If my forced smile seemed natural to you when you talk to me, well, so be it then. And do you realise, that whenever you talk about it, I can only look away. I can't even bear to be with you lately. Its such a pain. I really want to look at you in the same way as before. 

Aiyah I don't know lah. My head just hurts thinking about it. 

I'm kinda sianed now. After hunting all around for Japanese dramas around my area. Dang. I need a TS clearance sales desperately. Tell me if you see one. (: 

Surf around a bit more and I'll be off to watch my shows. (:

Math paper is pissing me off big time. I'm like referring 3/4 of the time. Oh man, wo dui bu qi Ms Yeo. ): And the stress is making me wanna chew stuff. So I'm close to finishing the $7.40 worth of gummies from Mini Toons which I bought today. Dang. Flabs flabs flabs.

My mood's up now, cause I'm on a sugar high. (: Hopefully it doesn't dip down later on. 

Piang I'm getting very discouraged by math. ):

Shit, I really feel like wearing school uniform tomorrow! But I'll feel very bad for pangsehing my class! ARG. 

Latest update, I've finished all my gummies and I haven't finish the ______ math paper! Attempting not to swear but its pissing me off big time. -.- It just never fails to make me realise how stupid i really am. Thanks. 

Mood's going down again. And I will start thinking of that again. Mixed feelings mixed feelings. Its like, angry, frustrated, afraid, guilty...DAMN GUILTY and really worried. ARG. I feel like a bloody mean ass. Shit. Anyway, time for dinner. at 10.16pm. Hahas. Cause my daddy just came back. (:

I realise my table is returning to the state it was in before exam. Haha. So pathetic. 

Oh netball shirt isn't going too well. Damn, WHO CAN PRINT GRADIENT ON A TEE SHIRT PLEASE TELL ME!!! Grah-ness. And our polo tee design is stagnant and ready to breed mosquitoes. Dang. Behind time behind time!

Anyways, random comment: I think this year investiture budget should be not bad. Haha. Cause the invitation card is quite pretty. (: Jiayou! :)

Time for DINNNNNNNER. (: Byes.

Seriously I feel like a mean ass. I really don't want to. Sorry, but I'm really selfish and mean and every other bad adjective you can think of. ____. Why do I always land up in this kind of position? I don't want to sound dictator-ish or harsh. But things are getting too close to be comfortable. I know I have no freaking rights to be saying this when I'm probably just as bad. Dang. 

Fine fine. Shall distract myself studying. Really can't bear to think about it anymore.

My mind is set on taking BCME. After the physics lecture today. And the bio lecture today. Haha. 

And I'm watching hotaru no hikari. (: 3 episodes so far. the guy's quite cute. (: 

My stomach's bursting. From water. Haha. And I am getting bloody fat. I'm like 53 kg now. Sai. When I told my mum, she was damn happy, cause she managed to lose weight so she's now the same weight as me. My goodness. Fats be gone man! Grahness. 

I'm out of things to write to my angel. ): 

OMG. Haha I forgot to post! Heng hibernation doesn't auto close the pages. 

Come on, I shall study hard this year! And next! (: Hopefully my energy level stays like this throughout. (: Time to gear up and start my own revision so I can start the school year afresh! (:

Today's lectures were not bad, except for physics. Which is as usual. I have absolutely no talent or whatsoever in physics. :( So much for considering triple. Haha.

Anyways, I shall be off to do some revision. Then I can go watch my show. Jiayou ne! (:

Just felt like blogging all of a sudden, because I'm getting sick of looking for a decent picture of a netball to put on the shirt. Haha. And we still have to do high resolution version of the finalized designs. AND THE POLO TEE! Haha. Hui Kin and I are struggling over the polo tee. Hopefully we come up with something cool. (:

I don't really have the courage to tell this to you, but if you really, sincerely can't bear to put it down, you wouldn't have put it down in the first place. The world doesn't revolve around you, you know? If you're going to do this with such an attitude, I don't think you should even do it. 

I don't what else to say actually. I'm hungry. Slept around 5+ pm last night and just woke up. Haha lazy pig. ><

And tomorrow I've got to go back and get results for Higher Chinese. Please please please please please. DON'T SCREW UP. :S Freaking worried can. After that dream in Kolkata about getting B4 I'm getting really paranoid about it. Grah. 

Today was my last day of work. Happy and sad I guess. Great to not have to drag myself to work everyday, but I think working there is really fun. (: Hohos. Besides all the getting burnt cooking pearls and brewing tea. Haha. But its really not something I'll get to do anywhere else. (: I miss working there. ): And my pay like disappears the moment I get it. Hahas. Finally got a purple bottle. Nalgene one, since they were having offer. (: $18. Not bad lah. Marked down from $25. Next item on want list: PURPLE shoe bag. Next next item: PURPLE sports bag. Freak, where's all my money gonna come from? And I really can't find a purple shoe bag. WHY?! And I was thinking of getting the purple adidas bag. (: Although the design abit the complicated but the colour's really pretty. And it matches my hairband, my shuffle, my earphones. OH HOs. But its $60 I think. Damn sai. BUT ITS REALLY PRETTY! ): Damn. But I think my mum will kill me if I get another bag. After the PSP. Oh man, I'm like too tired everyday to even touch my psp and ds. Haha. I just get satisfied with my shuffle. Hopefully it gets better. 

Oops. Kinda forgot about paragraphing. Hahas. I think Kah Hsing just got off work. Haha. I was forced to clear out by 7pm. LOL. Oh and I realised opening shop is very fun. HAHA. And yes, it is a lot easier than closing. LOL. 

Dang I can't run properly. 

Okay I'm going to fall asleep. Haha. Hopefully I have a good dream about tomorrow. Although I'm not looking forward to going back. ZZZ.