♥Thursday, September 18, 2008.
Feeling really really really down today. ): Damn. I really didn't expect myself to get so low for Biology. How am I going to pull it up! My revision is in a stagnant state and I really don't want to do anything to upset people around me. Especially my parents. But what my mum said when she consoled me didn't really help much. I just suck as the only daughter. Sigh.
看見了成績才感到惋惜，似乎已經太遲了。
哭得竭斯底里，現在又有什么用呢？
我知道我是獨生女，對你們來說是個寶貝，
但是你們是否知道，我背負著什么樣的使命？
我不想讓你們難過，不想讓你們失望，
但你們是否看得見，現在的我根本就不是我呢？
我知道你們的痛苦，所以我把悲傷全往心底埋，
一直認為不說出來，就會慢慢像噩夢消失掉。
爸，媽，我真的好愛你們。
可是我不敢與你們分擔，因為你們為我付出的已太多太多。
請你告訴我，我是不是太自私了？
我真的想知道答案。
Off to mug. ): Its such a sad life. ):
|| At 8:00 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||