Priorities.
♥Tuesday, May 13, 2008.
Today's SIL we had this supposed panel discussion. Which ended up sounding too political for my liking. But in any case, I had a lot of thoughts which I didn't get to bring up while I was just sitting there. >< Since I have a great big problem with spontaneous speaking. Anyway, one question that truly made me think was the one about my priorities in life.
I don't know about others, but I guess the society currently makes people have EVERYTHING in first place on their priority list. And I think this sucks. We just keep alternating from job to job and we just keep finding a way to keep that delicate balance (which I'm upsetting terribly, I think.) of that super huge indestructable pile of workload. Which I'm currently struggling through because I'm just that pathetic.
Anyway, back to the question, I guess if I had a choice (which obviously mean I do not have one now.), my first priority will be family. I'm a very family person, probably since we're a close-knit family with just my mum, my dad and me (and me being the only child *SPOILT BRAT! but that's besides the point), I yearn to spend time with my family more than anything else. There's a reason I want to be a housewife. (:
Next, I guess, will be friends. I don't understand how, man, as social creatures, can forgo social relations for their work. -.- I refuse to conform to that, I see no point in working so hard on other things and I give up all my relationships. Maybe that's exaggerating, but I don't want to live a life of just fighting and fighting alone.
I'm reluctant to put work as next one, but I guess that has to come before play right, even though I don't want to agree. ): Self-explantory anyway.
The list's getting too long for my comfort, seeing as it just shows how different reality is. Apparently all I'm occupied with now is work, work and more work. Sorry if it sounds like I'm whining (which is exactly what I'm doing), but I really want time with my family and friends. If not who will I be working so hard for?
Sounds like a circular argument, but you get the point. I probably sound mad or something. But I'm in desperate need of LOVE. ): And I'm really glad to know that I receive unconditional love from God, because He is the only one who can do it for all of us, no matter how much we have sinned. And I really really really love my mum and dad too! Although I'm a really bad daughter, they still care for me and pamper me, which I feel really guilty for. ):
Okay I'm getting out of point. But anyway, I have to go do WORK now. Feel so inefficient I feel like slapping myself. Goodbye.
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