♥ , My Garden of Eden.

SORE THROAT. ><

♥Sunday, February 24, 2008.

Investiture was on Friday! And I'm missing it already! Really, I miss the preparation: the souvenirs and the banners. (: And I'm getting nostalgic all over. Just want to really apologise for being late for the rehearsal. :( Erps. I think its a mistake on our part since we weren't aware of the time we took to change. Sorry again! Anyway, I thought actual investiture didn't go too badly! (: I was uber nervous during pledge and speech. >< But it was really FUNNNNN! (: I MISS INVEST! Sorry, feeling a tad too hyper.

Anyway, today we went for pre-recording of The Arena. (: Quite fun. (: But a lot of waiting time. ><>< Shall stick with being a housewife. Doesn't seem like too bad a prospect can. And my throat is utterly gone, since on Friday it was on the verge of breaking down (I'm surprised I didn't go hoarse halfway through my speech, like morning announcements. Goose that was embarassing.). And today, after cheering, it's entire gone case. Tomorrow's match against Tanglin. JIAYOU! (:

I think my elevation sucks leh. Sorry for the randomness, but I think I've lost the height can. URK. TRAIN TRAIN TRAIN! GOOOOOO JOCELYN! GO NANYANG! (:

Okay shall stop the randomness and go sleep. Lots of things not done. Guess I really have to ask for extension, really can't get time to finish up things. BAD.

|| At 11:44 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

Short rant before starting work.

♥Monday, February 18, 2008.

Anyway, it's the start of round two! Jiayou! (:
Sorry about the random start. But I'm not in the right mind to think now, apparently I think my flu is coming back. You just don't give up, do you? 不把我弄死你不甘愿是吗！气死我了。Sorry, Just feeling very pissed.

Was feeling emo yesterday particularly, since it acted up again. No no, not me of course. But it really pains me to see your face in a total state of blank, just tainted with tiredness. Boo. I forgot, because I had wanted to talk more about it, but since I didn't blog about it yesterday, I can't remember what I had wanted to say.

Today was an irritating day. With flu coming back and all, I feel like flying away. I don't know what's with the sudden urge to disappear, but just felt really ><. OH right, I wanted to say something, but I can't remember. OH OH I REMEMBER NOW. Sorry, told you I'm feeling random. Anyway, today I had a realisation that I want to go back to Sec 1. ): Lessons were so much more fun and I could be as unproductive as I wanted to be. Apparently now, I have to chiong and chiong and chiong. And it's not as though I'm not trying, I am, as people know (I hope), a rather laid-back person. To take sooooooo much effort in trying to actually do something makes me feel strangled. Sorry, I'm just a person like that. But like I said, don't take anything to heart or whatever, since I'm not in a particularly great state of mind. Erps. Anyway, I'm off to eat kuehs and start on work. Gooooooood bye.

|| At 7:56 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

QUIZ! (: From Rachel's blog. (:

♥Thursday, February 14, 2008.

Sorry, I gave up reading newspaper. After reading about the CPF Life thing. I think its a cool new idea. As in, sounds like its more efficient that the previous one. And I like it cause the family sort of gets to recieve what's remaining if the person pass away. Interesting.
Was just blog surfing again and decided to do two quizzes from Rachel's blog. (:

1. You're a girl, right?
Left. LIKE DUH.
2. Have you kissed any one on your top list?
Nope. (: Okay wait what's with my happy smiley?
4. Do you enjoy drama?
Yea! The more exciting the better. (:
5. Are you a girly girl?
MM. Maybe?
6. Who was the last person you hugged?
Okay this got my thinking. If you think you've hugged me rather recently please do tag, because I have a feeling I did but just can't remember who.
7. Small or large purses?
I like things BIG. (:
8. Are you short?
I hope not. :S
9. Do you like someone?
Hmm. I like everyone. But if its another like, then no.
11. Do you care if your socks are dirty?
No. Just that I'll feel sad for my mum because she does the washing. Thanks mum!
12. Do you think you’re conceited?
Sorry I have to admit my vocabulary sucks, and I had to check the dictionary for this word. I think..I don't know! But I think so. >< BAD BAD BAD.
13. Do you dress up on Halloween?
Nope. But if you want to know I would want to dress up as a witch. Sounds exciting. (:
14. Are you double jointed?
And what's that?
15. Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
Hmm. How weird can any place get! But position wise, yes, because I can fall asleep while standing. Just that I'll keep waking up because I'll feel like I'm falling. ><
16. Has anyone touched/smacked your butt in the past 24 hours?
Nope. Good for me. (:
17. Is there any type of rumor going around about you?
I somehow believe there always are. Oh well.
18. Do you call anybody by their last name?
Lol. Yea.
19. How many guys will read this?
How about zero.
20. What color bra are you wearing?
White. ><
21. Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?
DARK.
22. Are you currently frustrated with a boy?
Nope.
23. Do you have a best friend?
Hmm. How about I have really good friends. (:
24. Have you ever had your heart broken?
Yes and no. No in the relationship sense, yes since I'm a rather sensitive person.
25. Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?
Thought, yes. Going to carry it out, I don't think so. >< Oh if you're curious I thought about getting double eyelids. LOL.
26. Do you like your life?
Not really. ): But there's always people around me to cheer me up. (:
27. Has one of your friends ever stolen a boyfriend from you?
No.
28. Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?
Nope.
29. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?
Girls.
30. How long have you had fs?
?
31. Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?
Nope.
32. What are your biggest fears?
Losing people close to me.
33. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
Yep.
34. Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?
Mm. Yea.
35. Have you ever had a good feeling about something?
Lol yep.
36. Do you ever wish you were famous?
Did. Now not really. Told you I'm anti-attention.
37. Are you currently missing someone?
Mm. Maybe.
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THIS GUY OR THAT GUY?
Cowboy or Gangster?
Gangster. Oops. Since I've never see a cowboy. In real life of course.
Preppy or Punk?
Hmmmmm. Punk.
Face or Body?
LOL I WANT BOTH! Okay fine. Body. (:
Sweet or Sexy?
Hmm What's with the tough choices! Sweet. (:
Well-educated or Dropout?
Well-educated. But I've actually said before, I like people from neighbourhood school. I feel like I can fit in more.
Armani or Abercrombie?
Armani. (:
Contacts or glasses?
Oops. Tell you a secret! I really loveeeeeeee people who look good in glasses! (: But I'm fine with both, since he'll be wearing glasses at home. (:

Feel like some hua chi now. ><>< BYE

|| At 9:19 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

Surprise surprise.

♥.

I don't see the point of this post actually. But was just visiting someone's blog just now. And was just thinking about how people change. No, I'm not trying to act all philosophical or cheem or anything, but just felt rather disturbed. Actually I have been rather disturbed these few weeks(?) or days maybe. Or maybe we should just label Thursday as EMO DAY.
(thinking about blog) Seeing us right now, it brings me back to the letters we've exchanged. I bet no one ever thought we could end up as who we are right now. LOL. I didn't even want to be __________ at that time. And you, were scared of ________. But oh well, look at us now. We just in the exact same situation which we did not expect few years ago. I won't call it maturing or anything like that, but I would say, I guess its a change of state of mind. Okay fine, I have a feeling its linked to maturity but just let me sound good for once. (:
And I'm actually rather afraid to see the real me right now. Oops, I don't even know where it went. Sorry, I think my brain is massively laggy, it's probably remaining in the Pentium 1 generation, where having a computer of just Pentium 1 was a mean feat. But bring it to now, I guess it's the most dreaded thing on Earth. Oh right, maybe it doesn't even exist anymore. My reaction is like, a lot slower. Oh well. And hearing about the fake me just makes me feel...Actually I don't feel a thing. I want the real me back. I want my happiness back. I suddenly aspire to be a housewife. Sorry its such an unexciting job, but I really don't want to show my face outside. I'm anti attention. ><><

|| At 8:24 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

Kranji War Memorial

♥Monday, February 04, 2008.

Hello! (: Today hasn't been a totally joyful day or anything, since I was feeling rather emo. ): Somemore with the visit to Kranji War Memorial. Listening about stories of people who fought in the war really touched me. Just felt like saying something for all who have sacrificed their lives for Singapore: Like what our facilitator said, Thank you for sacrificing your tomorrow so that we can have our today. Although I may never get to know all of the names who have stood and defended my homeland, I feel truly grateful and I appreciate all that you have done for Singapore. I have understood that you are just like everyone around me, with families and friends, and yet you have given up your chance to be with them and do your part in defending our homeland to the last moment. As we pray for world peace now, we will remember all the sacrifices made and all the men, women and children lost in this war. I pray that you will be able to see the success of Singapore, with the past etched in our minds, and we will make you proud. As we honour all of you as brave soldiers who have sacrificed your lives for our homeland, we will also remember you close to our hearts, as common people who have stood up with courage to fight for us.

Today was emo when I was writing my zuo wen also. ><>< Yay!

Anyway, go QIANWEN! (: WO ZHI CHI NI! (: (If you get what I mean.) Don't care about what others say; they only say so because they don't know you. (: Thanks for being such a great friend! (: And we really really must go shopping someday! (: WHEEEE.
EDIT: Oops, maybe I've said some things that may have cause some misunderstandings and I'm really really really sorry! ): You know this brainless woman here abit xin zhi kou kuai ><. Lol, and don't be overwhelmed by my love and support man!

I really want to go sleep le. Haha. BYEEEEEE. (:

|| At 11:24 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||