♥ , My Garden of Eden.

♥Monday, January 28, 2008.

在你左右还有多久
怎么样才能让时间倒流
每一分每一秒都珍重
握紧的手不愿放松
十点半的飞机它在等候
不要再让自己的眼泪流
我必须要走
要记得

我们的故事真难忘
有太多的回忆和希望
不管它有多疯狂
我愿意一生收藏
我们的故事不能忘
太多的情节要发展
不要放弃
因为有一天缘分会继续
一定会继续

在你左右还有多久
怎么样才能让时间倒流
每一分每一秒都珍重
握紧的手不愿放松
十点半的飞机它在等候
不要再让自己的眼泪流
我必须要走
要记得

我们的故事真难忘
有太多的回忆和希望
不管它有多疯狂
我愿意一生收藏
我们的故事不能忘
太多的情节要发展
不要放弃
因为有一天缘分会继续

我知道你寂寞
一个人确实好难过
思念是一种痛
没有你叫我怎么活
身边充满诱惑
不坚定就容易犯错
你是否能看见未来的收获
你愿意在耐心等候

我们的故事真难忘
有太多的回忆和希望
不管它有多疯狂
我愿意一生收藏
我们的故事不能忘
太多的情节要发展
不要放弃
因为有一天缘分会继续
让我们一起演完

|| At 12:31 AM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

Unbelievable-ness.

♥Sunday, January 27, 2008.

The weekends are gone. Boo. ): And I feel totally wasted. Like, Saturday, we had match in the morning and we went for lunch and Joleen and I met Bel at JE library to supposedly do homework, but ended up audi-ing. And I went home and slept at 8pm. Tell me how exciting can my life get. It's not like I want to sleep this early, but I'm really tired. I wonder why I'm so drained out after every training/match.
Jiayou NYNB! It's a mad week coming up. Go Jocelyn, intercept those balls outside! ): I hope I don't end up screwing up again. I think I've played like rubbish since the start of seasons. I really really want to do my best (all right, who doesn't?), but it just doesn't work. JIAYOU. ><

Millions of things to do, even now. So I'm off to do things. Bye.

|| At 11:09 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

SCREWED.

♥Sunday, January 20, 2008.

I'm living such a hectic life. I'd rather be an average person who goes to an average school, gets average results, gets an average paying job, an average husband and average life. Sorry, but I'm just that easily contented. Apparently I don't get a choice, do I?

Anyway, I've been emo-ing for the past few days (I bet Joleen knows why.) and it's rather disturbing. The weekends I've been looking forward to don't seem as relaxing. The nights are filled with uncertainties: oh-my-gosh-how-come-I-feel-that-I-haven't-done-something syndrome pops up every single night. And currently, before I tackle my math questions, I'm here to rant about how fulfiling or unfulfiling it has been. I don't know what is the 'it', but whatever, if you and I don't have a generation gap, you will understand that it can forever belong as the unidentifieds. And I'm having a splitting headache from the lack of rest accompanied by the sexy voice and runny nose. Well done immune system. I've been stuffing myself with antibiotics (which my mum assures would work. Though I highly doubt so.), panadol and spoonfuls of pi pa gao.

Oops, angsty part ahead. Proceed with caution. Anyway, I've had enough of you. Just cause you think you have the power you can do anything. Sorry, I'm refuse to believe you anymore. I've said stuff like these countless times, apparently telepathy doesn't exist between you and me. I'm just a coward who's scared to stand up to you, but that doesn't mean I don't hate you.

我不会耍手段，因为你不值得我为你牺牲。我只会暗地里恨你，因为你伤害了我。

Phew. I'm feeling a teeny weeny bit more liberated now. Rereading the paragraph, I suddenly think it applies to a few people around me. Oops, sorry for being direct. Its time to return to math, even if its going to kill me.

|| At 11:26 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

Sucks.

♥Friday, January 11, 2008.

Okay great. I just deleted a whole chunk of things which I have typed. And I'm not sure whether I want to type it all over again. This sucks. I'll just type a compressed version of what I wrote previously, but I can't get rid of that pang of irritation over my lost post. ):

Anyway, was just thinking about Nanyang Netball, and how tough it will be. I give up blaming anyone, since I think putting the blame on the same person/people doesn't help the situation in any way. And like my Council mates always say, there's no way to go but on. So we will! Jiayou for seasons, we'll give everything we've got!

And I was just looking through my email folders, and i chanced upon the June Camp folder! I miss all the Council camps! Even though I spent the previous few nights fretting and freaking out, I still enjoy the camps! Reading what my batchmates have wrote in their Yahoo Group posts also made me really happy. (: But happy is an understatement I guess, since I think we feel much more than that.

And I was just expressing my disappointment in myself, and ranting about how I feel unfriendly vibes from people around me. Oops, but I think I won't blame or hate you, since I think I will hate myself if I were some other people too. Since I think I'm really irritating, so much so even I can't stand it.

Okay, besides that, I think I have to brush up. It sucks to feel useless during trainings. ): I'm not refering to the training itself, it's just me. ): Sorry.

Okay, I'm still feeling angry over my post which I have spent so much thoughts over. I'm getting a headache soon, so I shall stop being irritating. Bye!

|| At 10:30 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||