♥ , My Garden of Eden.

HOPE (:

♥Monday, May 21, 2007.

Hmm just finished typing letters to both my angel and mortal. (:

Seemingly I think there's some problems. But just remember the small bit of HOPE in Pandora's box. (:

Haha. Looking at you all reminds me of us when we were younger. (: Grah I sound so old. ><><

|| At 12:12 AM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

Nauseating.

♥Wednesday, May 16, 2007.

Hi. Before I go start choinging my Youth Day proposal, here's a SHORT post/rant.

I just read this TOTALLY nauseating blog. As in, it isn't the normal kind of disgusting or gross stuff, but it's the way that person acts. Seriously, I think your attitude is seriously revolting can. >< All of us can see you are good, that you can do better than practically ANYONE around. But stop trying this kind of tactic to attract attention. I don't know why you keep saying that, because I don't believe that you really do think this way. If you think I'm judging you, so be it. Because I just cannot stand looking anymore. It just makes me think that you're trying to get other people to say you're good. AND, I'm really GLAD that no one actually SAID that. HA!

Yay. Feels so much better after saying. Seriously I've never seen such an irritating person. Oh besides HER.

Talking about that, it just pisses me of to see HER suaning the rest of us. I wish I had the guts to shout in her face: ____ ___. But oh well, I'm such a coward. >< Seriously she doesn't SEE! She doesn't see what's causing all of us to become like this. ____, IT'S YOU. All the things you're making us do, it's not strenghtening, but DESTROYING. You only know how to talk, how to lecture, about responsibility, honesty whatever whatever. But do you know? WE are sick and tired of YOU. Pushing all the blame to us when something goes wrong, giving us lectures which are ______ redunctant. I'm feeling totally SUPPRESSED. That's why I say, I hope next year comes. FAST. So I can get out of your clutches, and I'll dao you the moment I see you. ______.

I'm not really keen on typing out the words in the blanks. Just fill them in yourself.

So much for a short rant. :P But it really feels so much better. But that oppressed feeling just can't escape. ): See, you're ruining us THAT much.

Just saw someone's nickname on MSN. HA. Feel like puking now.

Fine, shall go do my proposal. JIAYOU! 2 more days!! BYE (:

|| At 7:50 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

Grah.

♥Monday, May 14, 2007.

Phew. This few days have been quite happy and carefree. Who ever knew I would have a little teeny weeny bit of time to slack without feeling guilty. Oh perhaps I DO feel guilty. >< But oh well. It's much much much better than that screwed test week where I was rushing proposals and studying for test. While coping with trainings nevertheless. But I'm glad it's OVER. So far of course.

BUT BUT BUT I think they don't even want to let me off for once though. Proposal for Youth Day Fun Fair is due THIS WEEK. So I've got practically NO TIME to slack anymore. ><>< Haha. It's okay! We'll make it through! (: Haha. Seems like that what's I'm going to be saying for these few days. After this arduous week, it'll be relaxing time. And I can finally get some time of MY OWN to do stuff I WANT.

Went to Kallang to watch HC and RJ match today. Woah. Zainess everywhere. HAHA.

Hopefully we can get in!! It's time to PIA, PIA and PIA!

Oh was just reading Blaue Rosen yesterday. Oh goose the characters are SUPER pretty. (: Like, pretty boy, handsome girl, literally. HAHA. Story is super cute! Can't wait for 4th book to come out! (: Okay I shall go do work now. BYE.

|| At 8:36 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

I should get another blog.

♥Monday, May 07, 2007.

I realise I like blogging abstract and weird things about stuff and people. Someday I should create another blog and post this kind of entries in. But meanwhile people, bear with it. (:

I MISSSSSSSS YOU! (: Even though I just saw you..2 or 3 days ago. (: Yay! Never knew you mattered so much to me. (: Thanks for just being there! And I'll try my best! I'm willing to put in effort to learn, so teach me! (: Love ya! (: I've been reading your blog. (: And I'm really really really glad to see you're so HAPPY! (: LOVE YOUR SMILE. (:

Looking at peoples' blogs make me have mixed feelings. Like disgusted/inspired/soothing or whatever lah. But yea. Some people just ROCK anyway. And I'm not the only one. (:

Okay. Shall be a hardworking girl and work on my AMES and huo dong. (: BYE. (:

|| At 8:57 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

WHO UNDERSTANDS.

♥.

Today was an OKAY day. (: Where everything went OKAY-ly. (: Well done. (:

Eeks. I'm totally worried about my results. :S Like, seriously. My class is DAMN DAMN DAMN smart can. I'm like the last/second last in class. ): Tell me how sad I can get. ): And that's when I thought I had quite good results (as compared to the past two years of unlimited slacking.). Like, I'm the second lowest in my class when I get 80 for my chemistry. Sorry, but I'm really proud and arrogant to say that 80 isn't toooooo bad a mark. But when I see others' marks, I feel so..ugh. ><>< But I seem to be surviving well. HOPEFULLY. (: OH MAN. BUT I THINK I'M DAMN SCREWED FOR MATH. ): So sad can. Like, I CAN do my assignments, but when it comes to the exam, my mind blanks out. ): Like quizzes I also can do! But I just cannot stand the pressure during test. ): GRAH. I suck.

Okay that was a long and boring rant about my results. Which I should just take it as it is. My mum told me that I just have to pass. BUT THE POINT IS I CAN'T EVEN PASS. ): GRAHGRAHGRAH. So scared can. ):

Poo. Stayed back after school to shoot a bit with our future shooter Claudia Sng. LOL. Being damn spastic. And she nicely practise passes with me. (: Yay thanks Claudia! (: But I think I'm still arching my back. ): Can feel a bit of strain when I catch ball. ): Crap. Feel so sad about it. ): And my passes are extremely horrible. ): Goes everywhere except the reciever. ): GRAH. Joleen joined us too. (: So funny.

After that we played court with Qing Ying, Liyi and Pei Shan. (: So funny can! And Eva came to join us after that. (:

Then we sat down and talked for quite long I think. (:

It's an OKAY day after all. (:

|| At 8:39 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

Sucks.

♥Thursday, May 03, 2007.

Knew it. Saw it coming already.

It had been such a lousy term. With me being the lousy one of course. >< I'm rushing this and that, this and that. Life sucks totally. GRAH.

Sorry, but I still think it's pointless. If you think it's SO beneficial, go on on your own. Show them how GENG you are about it. CHE. I HATE your stupid attitude. Please don't act as if you know EVERYTHING. What makes you think I want a part in it?! Sorry but I've turned into a person with a rather heck-care attitude. Sorry, it's MY fault. It's MY fault that I'm such a pain. GRAH.

YOU SUCK. I felt like just walking off. We're not your pets! Sorry if I'm such a person who just stones when you talk. But you're the one that leaves me with no choice. I feel like crying. Crying over YOUR stupidity and stubborness. I'm dumb to do that. But do you understand how I feel? How I love? You're ruining it for me. I can't wait to get out. Can't wait to look at your face and not dread anymore.

It's such an EMO day. Everyone's feeling EMO lately I guess. HA. With all the rubbishy rumors going around, I guess its easy to tell. :S Oh well. It's just one of those days where you feel like just leaving without a sound. Well. Jiayou to everyone who's feeling like shit currently. Just remember, your fellow friend here is too. (: Sorry to enemies, I'm not that kind and magnanimous to wish you good luck or anything. Too bad you got on my bad side. (:

|| At 9:42 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

Grah. Emo day.

♥Tuesday, May 01, 2007.

|| At 9:13 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||