♥ , My Garden of Eden.

BOO.

♥Tuesday, February 27, 2007.

It's my 400th post. (:
Oh well. Not much to write for a number four-zero-zero post. (: But just to express my worries and stress. ><>< I seriously do NOT know how to talk.
Oh I just remembered something very funny that Qian Wen told me one day. I forgot how we got that topic but we were talking about partners for Bridge. And she was telling me how her friend was so smart. She wanted to hint to her partner that she wanted clubs, so she said something like, do you have trees? And her partner said winter time! OH GOOSE. DAMN FUNNY.
We've been totally crapping these few days lah!
Okay. Actually I'm very stressed over Art. ): As in, I'm quite screwed for Art. And I'm not sure whether to quit or not. >< But I really don't want to. Oh well. I guess I'll just have to take one step at a time. Thanks Yen Jin for your encoruagements yesterday after Art! Was feeling really lousy at that time.
OH YES. DA TANG SHUANG LONG JI IS GOING TO SHOW!!! AND ON WEEKENDS SOMEMORE!!! AHHHHH. I remember I watched a bit at my cousin's house, but its' the Cantonese version and I could only understand very little. BUT STILL. I LIKE THAT GUY A LOT A LOT A LOT!! The one who acted as..ji ling? Fine I don't know what's the chinese for it. HA. BUT STILL!!!!! (: SHALL WATCH IT! (:
Oh and so far, I've caught around 2 episodes of Hana Kimi since it started on Channel U. And it was this week that I watched. I FEEL SO DEPRIVED. But I'm going to get the VCD when it comes out so I can watch during March holidays. (: YIPEE. (: And I want to get the FLH xie zhen shu also. (:
WAHAHA. Oh yes. OBS is NEXT WEEK! So unbelieveably FAST. I truly cannot believe how come time passes so fast lah. >< Maybe it's the busy lifestlye I'm leading that caused me to think this way. OH WELL.
OH NO! I THINK NL IS BECOMING A GIGANTIC PROBLEM! ): HOW HOW HOW! ): I'm torn between choices! ): Yucks.
Okay. I think I'm going off to do some research. BYE. (:

|| At 8:14 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

HAPPY INVEST DAY!

♥Friday, February 23, 2007.

HAPPY INVEST DAY!! (:
Today was such a GREAT day!!! (: OUR INVESTITURE!! YAY!!!!!!!!
Feeling so happy now! Like, all our efforts for the past weeks and months paid off! (: NANYANG GIRLS' HIGH STUDENT COUNCIL 2007!! (:
Feeling so hyper now!! But I'm really drained of energy by the past few days. I've been reaching home at 9, sleeping at 12 and waking up at 4. And today, I'M GOING TO SLEEP EXTREMELY EARLY!
And next Tuesday I have to go for chinese supplementary because I failed my zuo wen. ): Oops. That was random. But it just popped up in my mind.
Okay I'm really not thinking properly now. BYEBYE! (:

|| At 8:18 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

Resemblance.

♥Monday, February 12, 2007.

Hmm. I seem to resemble someone.

Then again, maybe not.

Or maybe, I'll just forget all about it when I read my blog a few years down the road. :S Who knows?

BUT THEN AGAIN. WHO AM I?

|| At 8:51 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

Leaving.

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Recently, I've been thinking far too much for my own good. Perhaps I'm bored, or lonely, or depressed. Like, my blog says it all, lifelesssprit. I'm so lost until my spirit doesn't even have 'I' in it. ): How sad right. ):
I seriously should NOT be here. I'm supposed to be practising math. For Wednesday. But whatever. No feel = NO FEEL.
I'm feeling really PMS-y lately. SERIOUS. POO. I think someone is too. HA.
Hmm. It's been a great shock lately. Like, everything. Family, school, council, netball, everything. SERIOUSLY.
I don't know who to confide in. I told my mum about something, and she just asks me to quit. I got so aggitated I cried. I will NEVER quit. I will NEVER stop doing something because of my love and passion for it. Period. Don't take away my only enjoyment in life now, seriously, don't. ):
Just went to the doctor for checkup for OBS. ><><><
I'm feeling really unmotivated to do ANYTHING.
I'm feeling really puzzled today. There's alot of things I've heard and thought. OH WELL. I'll never understand. ><

Maybe, the impact is really too great.
Yet, I've shed enough tears for you.
I'm not doing it for you,
nor am I doing it for anyone else.
I'm doing it only for MYSELF.
I will weep no more.

Oh well. Bye then. I realised the true meaning of 'it takes a lot of courage to change.' And hopefully, I will stop being the lifeless being I am now.

|| At 8:35 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

I'm an idiot.

♥Wednesday, February 07, 2007.

Oh man. I realise I'm such an idiot. I wanted to leave my shoebag in school! But I just saw Qian Wen's testimonial that mentioned that I actually took it with me. Eek I suck. HAHA. So dumb lah.
I'm feeling so stoned now. Namely, wo MU RAN le.
Bah. I seriously think you are just an irritating like anything person. An AA one nonetheless. So pissed. Ignorance is BLISS. Che. So act pro only. Grr. Don't think you know me well okay! Qi si wo le. And stop deciding things on your own! I see why I was so reluctant to accept you in the first place. Maybe it's only the first impression you give that made me believe that you were a nice person. But lately it's been proven otherwise. CHE.
Che. I hate people who keep asking me to relax in a kiampa manner. OH ESPECIALLY YOU. Because in reality, I have a 'heck-care now, stress later" kind of attitude. So don't give me that "relax lah" kind of crap. And with that irritating tone somemore. Che. I'll just get angrier. Grr. It's not as if whether I'm relaxed or not has anything to do with you right. GRR.
I feel like such an AP person. :S Either that or I expect a lot from others. Yikes.
Oh I'm ready to explode soon. Like, my mum is such a clean freak I CANNOT stand it anymore. Urk. It just gets on peoples' nerves! Now, I see why my dad reacts so violently to her "clean" style of living. Or maybe I just take after my dad. (:
I'm feeling rather sleepy.
I really really really hope tomorrow's game would go well. REALLY. ):

|| At 9:59 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

Yikes. MG match tomorrow.

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Crap. I'm so freaking stress until I don't feel like doing anything. Serious. Grr. Not even blogging.

|| At 8:34 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

Slack!

♥Tuesday, February 06, 2007.

Hi. As obvious as it is, I'M A BIG FAT SLACKER. ): How sad lah. But seriously I can't bring myself to do work because of either too good or too bad mood. But seems like that's most of the time when that happens. :S
But I seriously have to go study chemistry soon. I think I'm going to DIE. SERIOUS! ): Haha. Thanks to Jiao Mei for her wonderful teaching of Chemical Formula before training!! (: I think that seriously helped a lot!! (: YAY! (: But there's still seperation techniques to cover. EEW. ):
Ho. I think I screwed up my Bio test. ): Seriously. I think I'm in love with mitochondria, because in almsot every answer that I'm not sure, there's bound to be mitochondria in it. HA! Maybe Ao Yuan's mitochondria drawing inspired me. (: It's still in my diary!! (:
MY KNEE FEELS LIKE CRAP. ): Sheesh. Sucks like what lah. It's healing okay! Just that kiasu and accident prone me is afraid that I would fall again, hence the exaggerated wrapping of wound. :S EEK. And I shall not be as dumb again to squat down so fully, because the wound is bound to split if I ever do that again. URK.
I'm in love with the song 'bao hu se'! (: It's such a SAD SAD song. ): But it sounds really beautiful. (: But I would love it more if Ya Lun had sung it! Ding Xiao Yu!!! (: Still, it's a nice song. (:
Okay. It's time to go STUDY. *shudders* I shall go look up what is the name of phobia of studying. HA. I'm probably suffering from that, for all I know. BYE. ):

|| At 9:37 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||