Sad.
♥Thursday, January 25, 2007.
My disastrous moodswinging is starting again. I don't know, but I feel as though I have split personality. Like, on one hand, I hate someone, but deep down inside, I can feel myself saying, NO I'm not allowed to hate anyone.
Sorry Claudia! Had a major moodswing during lunch. I don't know why. Maybe I'm stressed by some things.
Woah. I cannot stand it anymore. Everytime I see you, I feel like boxing you. Because I get reminded of what you actually said, right into my face. But of course, you can happily say that I can just ignore you. YEA RIGHT. HOW EASY IS THAT?! Why don't I compare you to a person better than you?! Yucks. And I HATE the way you think. You don't seem to care about what we say. You only care about what SOMEONE says. Sorry, I think that kind of attitude SUCKS. Sure, I can be very nice and humorous and all, but please. I have a limit. Don't push too far. I'm not one who forgives and forget so quickly.
I'm sorry if this post sounds angsty, but seriously, I'm very angry.
Hmm. I admire you for being so frank. Or maybe you've always been like that. But that's great. Because I seem to not be able to ever be frank to anyone, or even myself.
Currently, I feel like digging a hole, climb into it, and stay there the rest of my life. Oh and of course the hole must have something to entertain me. But that's a bit too farfetched.
I hate _______. Sucks. All the _______ _______ suck too. I don't understand. Not a SINGLE thing. Boo.
Sigh. I'm feeling really crap now. Like, all jumbled up. I don't know what I'm doing, I don't know what I'm supposed to do. I feel like I could stare at a wall and stone for ages and I wouldn't feel anything. Poo. Shall wake up earlier to do work tomorrow. Shall go sleep now. Bye.
|| At 10:26 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||