♥ , My Garden of Eden.

IRRITATED.

♥Sunday, March 26, 2006.

hallo. poof i am irritated. by a lot of things actually. haha
watched duel last night. didn't really understand icaru's fall. were they supposed to be wings? haha fine i only know there was this part about stuffing eagles into a cage and forcing them to fly. blah. so cruel. remember i read it in a book somewhere. fine shall go dig it up later. still interesting. =)
arg. no one is doing the stupid home econs thing can. freaking pissed lor. pfft. i finished almost the whole file and i even went to buy ingredients to recook the whole stupid dish and take photo. and you people like over there bo chap. arg. anyway. never really recook. and i would have blown up the kitchen if my mum and dad never help. haha (i couldnt even on the gas can. so malu.) haha pathetic. and my dad went out to buy a can opener because cannot open becasue the old one was too blunt. blah. anyway. I ROCK. pfft.
anyway. it was uncooked except for the spaghetti button mushrooms (no need to cook) and pineapple. others were raw. haha and my photography skills rock. tmr go do photoshop.
shall try to cheer up and not give everyone i see a ultra charcoal black face. =) shall smile! (and try not to scream at anyone.)
my table looks like..nonono wrong. i cant even see my table. its piled up with i dont know what rubbish lah.
at least i got my history file organised. and i filled all the blanks ok. i rock. just that i need to photocopy the SIA thing. and im suppose to do my research.
oh. stupid me slept for half the day. and my mum was like saying got time go sleep sleep sleep never do work. uh yea thats the truth anyway. i usually cant get any work done during weekends. and somehow i cant escape from slacking off and reading blogs instead of doing work. shall go read magazines later. hey no one can deprive from doing what i want after i finished my work ok. not all, but at least those need tmr. and those due long long time ago. POOF.
i love myself. =)
ok. shall not be stupid here. ok. bye! =)

|| At 11:13 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

thinking back.

♥Saturday, March 25, 2006.

hmm. just finished reading the books shiyu lent. sigh.
was just thinking about some stuff. and realised no one actually KNOWS me. not a single person. maybe each know a little little bit but maybe not all. hmm. and i know its real hard to understand people. because we cant just pry open their brains and see what they are thinking all the time. if that can happen everyone would be able to understand each other. so impossible.
going to bathe at 5.30. five minutes away. and i shall go and sit there in our auditorium and cry alone. SIGH.
feels so fake. my lfie now feels so fake. except for the exams and netball part. i dont seem to fit in well into this life of mine. doesnt feel like my own. hmm. well, maybe im just thinking too much.
i feel shibai. really i do.
ok two more minutes. sigh. i dont know what i want now. cant seem to be able to think. so meaningless.
freak. and i shall go make spaghetti and take photo tmr. as i long as i dont blow up my kitchen. and i shall complete reflections. sheesh.
bloody OM. go die go die go die.
ok. shall go now. bye.

|| At 5:23 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

bounce right back up! =)

♥Friday, March 24, 2006.

hallo! =)
hmm today we lost the game against anglican. buts its all right! we will all put in our best for sport school match! =) jiayou jiayou!
hohoho. freak lah. our home econs die liao lor. 1 day 25%. fine by monday we hand in get big fat ZERO because its 3 or 4 days late. eeyur. so disgusting.
going with qitian to watch duel tmr. =) how exciting.
haha im paying loads of $10 lately. tickets for duel, grad mag deposit, class fund. sigh. at least i managed to save up $16 to buy ring. and im planning to save more so i can go pay for the grad mag myself. aiyoyo wonder how much it costs.
pfft. this is going to be a packed term. oh yes oh yes. SABBATICALS. =) oh man i love it ok. haha AND I WANT TO GO FOR THE LEADERSHIP THINGY. so cool can. although wont be able to go for others. haha but dont even know will be selected or not. =( i want to go!!! =) haha but i wont mind going for power of media. CL i might go for drama or public speaking. hahaha so interesting.
oh for group c and d. hmm. i forgot whats c lah. but i want to go for chinese dance can. eeyur but she say must have dance background. PUI so saddening. SIGH. but i still want to go!!! very interesting ok. oh yes. if cannot get in i want advanced photoshop ok. SO FREAKING COOL CAN. can get this kind of course. oh man. so excited about the group c and d one. hahaha ok lah. but the leadership one is 30hours right. hmm. i shall go check course outline later. im dying from excitement. haha its like how long away lor. but it will be wonderful to see loads of people running to com lab. haha like last year. tsk tsk.
FREAK. we LOST all our OM props. and we found them in the bloody rubbish dump ytd. freak lah. and its not in ONE piece ok. then board has been SHREDDED can. and where are the costumes and flower and all that lah. and PAINT. wah lao all our paint was GONE can. cried ytd lah. like what kind of rubbish this is lor. im tempted to scream vulgarities but i shall not. because its unhealthy speech. aiyo. what rubbish lah. at least got the video ok. no more OM nanyang. freak lah. ACTUALLY I WONT MIND REDO-ING CAN. because its like , i really dont mind that lah. i really dont mind doing everything all over again. serious.
YOU JUST WONT KNOW HOW I FEEL.
bah. so freaking warm lah. stupid aircon says its 24 degrees celsius but i'm sweating like i dont know what. grr. i wonder how i can sweat so freaking often.
and i've survived almost 2 weeks without bitting my nails. i rock ok. shall work hard on trying NOT to chew on my nails.
this morning had prize presentation. got bitten like dont know how many ants. spastic.
ok. shall go do stupid stuff now. ok bye.

|| At 9:12 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

cough cough.

♥Tuesday, March 21, 2006.

hallo. feeling rather dead now. arg.
stupid FLU. dumbo cough lah. got timing one. sleeping that time, playing match that time dont have. after all that start coughing like some mad person. faints.
lost to st margarets. we shall all jiayou for the next matches! JIAYOU JIAYOU!
so sorry i couldnt shout much today. shout somemore i dont need to speak for rest of today already.
FAINTING.
oh yes had an interesting dream. you know i read the snow flower and the secret fan book right, then inside got this part about gettng killed by bee sting. ad i dreamt of something similar ok. like theres this guy who i forgot was doing what, was trying to shoo away a very catoon-ish bee. (dont ask me how it turned out to be CARTOON-ISH.) oh yes. then ask another two guys to help. the the two guys damn stupid never go help him. then the cartoon bee started to swell and swell and swell until very big then it stung the guy's nose. then i woke up in a fright. (although its cartoon-ish bee.) eek. so scary. and i couldnt sleep after that ok. this is the one of the few rare times where i wake up in the middle of the night. oh yes. and i was thinking about a lot of stuff lah. like someday get stung by bee then very stupid can. then i was thinking, aiyo later got bee fly inside here then how, so i pull up the blanket to cover my head. and i pulled it down again after realising i will suffocate before bee even gets through. after that i tried imagining the scene in the book. yikes. how scary lah. like everything start to swell like tongue and fingers and eyelids. tsk. ok shall no t elaborate too much in case other people who are paranoid like me gets influenced. haha and i have been tempted to ask my mother whether if will die after getting stung by ONE bee. i think can leh. the i dont know whats that called lah. but very aggresive one. eek. oh and i didnt dare to ask because i think my mum will probably go mad after hearing my question. then she might ban me from getting any bees for fear of me killing someone with it. -.- like, no thanks. ok. end of story of dream.
oh yes cheryl was telling us about her dream on the bus. i didnt hear the front part. but i heard got one part about her holding or i holding- yea she said she dreamt of me-toliet paper and sunblock. then i suddenly go crazy and everyone got scared or smth. then i think got someone ask why i go crazy, then cheryl said maybe because i never help her apply sunblock. ok it was super funny when we were hearing it but it may not seem funny. hmm nvm. at least i know when i look back on the past entries i will see this and rmb and start laughing. and i realised i have not been putting a lot of commas. ok nvm. that was random.
oh was doing the dna structure thing just now. pfft. i suck at doing this kind of thing ok. leisure still nvm, somemore is schoolwork lah. arg. so ugly lah.
arg. no fever but my throat feels like crap. and i dont think i can speak tmr. i hope i can. although i dont know why. but at least if im called to answer i can probably say i cant speak. but i like reading stuff. =) out loud. =) ok. shall go sleep now because sick person need a lot of rest. ok usual flu last 4 or 5 days. so if i dont get well by saturday i shall go see doctor. or if i get too sick. because currently got no fever. if have then i shall go. (but i bet its the same old medicine. i can even recognise the stupid antibiotics lah. like all the same one lor. no use one. as in got use lah. but. ARG. forget it.) ok. shall go sleep. bye! =)

|| At 10:45 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

bleh.

♥Sunday, March 19, 2006.

looking through stuff. i rock ok. =)
pfft. this was a rather BAD holiday. as in. ive practically done NOTHING. en oh tee edge ai en chee. =( what rubbish. and school is starting tmr. blah. nvm. lets look on the good side of it. =) can see people i love. =) yay and thats enough to cover up for the negative side. =) i missed everyone over the holidays. =)
poof. i think we are DEAD. home econs die. boohoohoo. shucks.
CYY ROCKS. =)
that was random. but nevermind.
ok jenzi and i was just doing something interesting. haha like impersonating people we both know. as in their typing styles, fonts and all that. hahaha that was fun. =)
i feel behind time. =( bleh bleh bleh. so much stuff undone.
haha i jsut saw tags from LAO AHMA GOSHIYU and TOOPID HOM. hahaha oh man im going to cry because im so touched. haha i dont know why im touched. but still. haha maybe i think of last nights convo with jenzi. nonono HOM. hahaha haiyah. 5 years. PUI. so freaking fast. damn sad. =( oh lao ahma is the one who has lao ren chi dai zheng so heck her. hahaha i throw rotten tomato and eggs at you then you know ah.
oh was talking to jenzi again today. haha and her convo is the problematic one. aiyoyo. and we were having fun chaning dps and impersonating people. hahaha
oh before i forget. my com went BERSEK today. bloody com lah. so freaking angry can. i switch on then i see the desktop dont have my stuff. my documents also dont have. rubbish lah. and they all disappeared into another folder. freaking angry lah. somehow i think its a part of the dumbo security thing. arg. better save all my stuff. haha like what jenzi said. all the wunderfool convos and all. =) and i lost all my bookmarks on mozilla can. so damn pissed lah. especially all the blog urls. then had to try to rmb and go there. haha but i succeeded. so dont doubt my memory. =) haha but i dont think i can rmb the lyrics website and all already lah. oh and i made amazing discovery by using yahoo. MUAHAHA. so funny. =)
poof. yikes. 10 hours to school.
oops i almost forgot the nail polish. hahaha. so stupid. but at least it sorts of prevents me from biting my nails. so when i get it off i shall TRY not to. haha like how many times already lor.
oh yay my pinkie is healing quite fast. =) but still cannot bend fully. ee. how long more? haha nvm i shall be patient. =)
ok shall go do some mroe searches on yahoo. muahahaha. =) ok bye! =)

|| At 8:58 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

saddening.

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lala. was just talking to jenzi chua. hahaha what an inspiring talk. hahaha i saved that convo! =) and im going to read it when i get seriously mad with anyone. haha i should go box myself for having this kind of temper. BAH. but at least not as bad as in primary school. lala.
i have written a long essay on the stuff we talked about. =) hahaha havent finished it though. and i feel mean. BAH.
i want the world to stop and for us to pick up all the stuff we have left down, like projects and all, and finish them and we can go back on track, prepared. bah. impossible dream.
lalala.
im feeling spastical. thanks to lao ahma goshiyu. lalala. lao ren chi dai zheng. *box your face sticks out tongue and runs far far away.* muahaha.
im getting a cough. no, a flu. because im getting runny nose and cough. what the rubbish lah. so irritating. i better get rid of all those chocolates. pfft. wheres my self control?! although i think the cough might have come from drinking too much ling yang. haha however thats called in english. haha too liang for me maybe? haha
toopid sore throat. eat too much unhealthy food. pui.
oh im proud of myself to have finished 2 books over this holiday! =) snow flower and the secret fan and the devil wears prada. hahaha loved both! and i heard that the latter is having a movie!!! =) should be around june. lalala so cool. oh and also watched nanny mcphee. =) haha so cute. and i bet i was the only pathetic soul sobbing. hahaha retarded. but its so touching to see the innocent boy of only 10+ (?) shouting "you never listen!" into his father's ears. like how true can that be. sigh. nono better stop typing or i end up sobbing in front of the screen.
oh yes back to the books. =) haha my mum was in a good mood or smth that she bought so much stuff for me lah. and i think the price of the white shoes are MAD. oh btw my first pair, the kappa one, got worn out in 3 months. my goodness. haha too much playing court. oh anyway its 50+. actual price is 60+. MAD MAD MAD. lets hope it last me for the year!!! haha
oh then also got new shirt. hahaha nice. quite expensive if i rmb. haha forgot the price. around 40? maybe.
then got new perfume, because the previous one finished. 40+.
got the book. the second one. haha its totally cute. but the process of choosing it was horrible. haha spent 2+ hours standing and looking around at kinokuniya at bugis before i chose it. was deciding between 3 books. haha but decided on that. and it caused my back and my mum's legs to hurt like dont know what on that day. hahaha
also got new handphone pouch. =) PURPLE. =) and lets hope it doesnt spoil or get so dirty easily! oh btw its a freaking 7 dollars. BLAH.
high cost of living. mad! my mum got a pair of shoes for 40+. and a 3/4 pants for 30+. ARG. and we ended up spending 300+ on that day. haha my goodness. almost didnt have enough money to buy food home. but nvm i still have my hidden 5 dollars. haha must save up to buy sarah's ring. haha im broke ok. my mum cut down my daily allwoance by 10. but i bet no ones mother gives 20+ like my mum. everyday. but obviously i dont spend all lah! haha so its now been cut down to 10+. haha so much better. easier to spend without having to worry spend too much. good good. but must cut slowly. haha.
lalala. what a long post. =) but it sort of summarises this week of holiday. and i think it sucked (for me). because i havent accomplished much. haha i think i failed trying to make myself look busy. hahaha although im still trying. but i get distracted now and then. haha sigh. oh btw my mums gone for tonight. haha went for some cruise. she will be back tmr morning. and ive got loads of homework to start rushing tmr. SIGH. starting to hate, no, dislike school. haha ok. shall go now. bye!

|| At 12:29 AM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

lalala

♥Friday, March 17, 2006.

here to post some funny photos we took at macs after fitness trng on wednesday. hahaha got storyline one ok! =)

i see you bu shuang, you see me bu shuang.

bu shuang then fight lah!

ITS HER FAULT, NOT MINE! *innocent look*

*ACT EXTREMELY INNOCENT* we did nothing wrong! =)
and we become GOOD friends. (and sarcastic partners)
THE END.

yay i rock. =) original storyline by jocelyn. =) haha
jenzi is telling me her dream and it is super funny. haha
yay i love my sarcastic partner. =) *big huge apple smiley*
lalala. ok. shall continue talknig and i shall be back if i think of anymore interesting storylines. hahaha and this is not planned ok. i thought it up just then while talking to jenzi. =) haha ok bye! =)

|| At 10:06 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

walala

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was just doing stupid stuff. hahaha and i found a quiz to do. have i done it before? haha stupid me.

1. name: Jocelyn
2. sex: female
3. birthday: 11 June 1992
4. siblings: NONE. =)
5. hair color: black
6. eye color: brown. =)
7. any tattoos or piercings: ears. haha
8. do you do drugs?: NO.
9. what kind of shampoo do you use?: LUX superrich or smth like that
10. what are you most scared of?: used to be insects. haha now is GIGANTIC insects.
11. who is the last person that called you?: Shiyu. (called last night)
12. where do you want to get married?: hahaha no idea.
13. how many buddies are online right now?: whole list-19 but not talking. haha

f a v o r i t e (s)
1. color: VIOLET (if not, purple.)
2. food: anything but vegetables.
3. boys names: hmm. no idea.
4. girls names: JOCELYN. =) haha nonono just being ego.
5.subjects in school: math lesson. =) interesting. but i suck at math.
6. animals: rabbit? haha must lvoe my own species.
7. sports: netball! =)

h a v e y o u e v e r
1.given anyone a bath?: nope.
2. smoked?: NO. NEVER WILL I.
3. bungee jumped?: no and NEVER.
4. made yourself throw up?: yea. because i felt sick.
5. skinny dipped?: NO.
6. ever been in love?: nope. not including crushes. =)
7. made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: nope.
8. eaten a lemon in its entirety?: nope.
9. run away from home?:nope.
10. cried when someone died?: nope.
11. lied? : yes
12. fallen for your best friend?: NO.
13. been rejected?: nope. (RIGHT.)
14. rejected someone?: not that i rmb.
15. used someone?: maybe i have, maybe i havent. but i sincerely dont know.
16. done something you regret?: LOADS.

c u r r e n t
clothes: pink hang ten shirt and spastic pants.
music: nah. in the mood for silence.
make-up: nope.
annoyance: schools starting. ><
smell: haha i dont know.
favorite group: huh.
desktop picture: haha some korean drama actor. haha so shuai.
book you are reading: The devil wears Prada (interesting)
color of toenails: normal.
last person you touched: huh. right.
hugged: xing xuan. haha happy birthday! =)
instant messaged: goshiyu. hahaha stoopid her.
you yelled at: whats your definition of MY yell?
you kissed: no one.

a r e y o u
open-minded: hahaha spastic question. NO.
arrogant: haha MAYBE. i dont know.
insecure: YES. because im not carrying my 100 ton school bag and hugging files, shoebag and a ball. =) i rock.
random: haha i think so.
hungry: nope. but im thirsty.
moody: haha maybe. im mood-less.
organized: NO WAY! haha
difficult: haha YES.
attractive: NO.

R A N D O M

In the morning i am: weak. (sinus problems and whatever breathing difficulties come in the morning. what rubbish.)
love is: opposite of hate. (only thing i can think of now.)
I dream about: so general! i shall reply with a general answer too: A LOT.

o p p o s i t e s ex
do you notice first: erm. im not boy crazy or anything that i have to notice every single thing about a guy.
makes you laugh the most: no one.
makes you smile: dont know.
d o y o u e v e r
sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to you?: haha currently maybe not so.
wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: ack. NO.
wish you were younger?: haha no. my age is just fine.
cried because someone said something to you?: yes
N u m b e r of times
i have had my heart broken: becasue of? haha PIANG! =) you think leh.
no. of hearts i have broken: right. no one has ever come up to me and said, YOU BROKE MY HEART. so i have no idea.
no. of guys ive kissed: ZERO. except my dad and cousins when im young.
no. of girls ive kissed: ERHUM. mum and cousins considered?
no.of continents i have lived in: one
no.of cds i own: so general. A LOT.

F i n a l Q u e s t i o n s
1. do you like filling these out?: yea because i end up laughing.
2. gold or silver?: silver
3. favorite cartoon/anime?: urm. no idea.
4. what did you have for breakfast this morning?: 2 hashbrown and iced milo. macs =)
5. who would you love being locked in a room with?: someone who can gget me out of that room. >< why would i want to stay inside?!
6. could you live without your computer?: HAHA NO!
7. would you color your hair?: currently i dont want to but i never know.
8. could you ever get off the computer?: i do not sit on my com so how i get off my com?
9. habla espanol?: -.- good job. i dont understand.
11. how many people are on your buddy list?: haha 117? maybe got calculation error. (and i only talk to around 1/4 of them usually.
12. Drink Alcohol?: NO. NEVER.
13. Your name spelled backwards?: nylecoj (how artistic.)
14. Where were your parents born?: singapore
15. Have you ever moved?: yea. once if im not wrong.
16. What's your Favorite place to go: netball court/rock wall/anywhere where my friends are.
17.What's your favorite sport to play?: NETBALL!!!
18. How many kids do you want?: haha dont know. but i want a boy and a girl at least. =)
20. Type of music you dislike most?: none.
21. Colour of your school bag?: grey, black and orange words.
22. Do you have cable?: WHAT CABLE?
23. Favorite 80's song?: none?
24. Ever prank call anybody?: seen someone prank call but never done it myself.
25. Ever get a parking ticket?: no i dont even have a car.
26. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?: URK. NEITHER.
27. Ever bowl a 300?: haha no way. cant even get past 100.
29. What's your favorite comic strip?: dont know. archie considered?
30. Do you really know all the words to your national anthem?: haha should be!
31. Bath or Shower?: aiyoyo. got difference ah.
33. Favorite pizza topping?: just no vegetables or tomato or pineapple.
34. Beer or ale?: whats ale? haha but i bet it would be NONE.
35. Have you ever smoked peanut shells?: HUH?! no.
36. Do you eat skin on chicken?: haha depends.
37. Apple juice or Orange?: both are fine. =)
38. Favorite type of chocolate bar?: im in love with black forest currently.
39. Your favorite fruit?: mango? haha dont know lah. dont really like fruits.
40. Your favorite vegetable?: ERHUM. what makes you think i eat them anyway.
41. Are you a good cook?: no way. i will blow up the kitchen. but im proud of the fact that i can at least cook simple meal with my home econs partner without blowing up the school kitchen. so well done.
42. Bought something from an infomercial?: NO.
43. throw up in public?: nope.
44. Would you prefer being a millionaire or find true love?: true love =)
45. Do you believe in love at first sight?: YES! =) so romantic dont you think?
46. Ever call a 1-900 number?: yes.
47. Ever been stood up for a date?: haha maybe i have but i forgot.
48. Biggest turn off of the opposite sex?: hmm. no idea.
49. Ever Been Cheated on?: in what sense?
54. What are the names of all your pets dead and/or alive?: havent had any pet before.
55. Can ex's be friends?: WHY NOT?! =)

yay. i rock. shall go find more quizzes to do because im bored. =)

|| At 6:54 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

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|| At 6:41 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

poof.

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hey. not in the mood to blog but im here anyway. getting so tired. for the first time in my wonderful life i dont want school to start. im getting irritated by the system and i hate, no, DISLIKE SIAs. yea. so tiring.
poof. still not in the mood to blog even though i have much to say. but im just not going to say it here. i feel pathetic. bleh.
i want to go read my book or sleep. but i just cant bring myself to switch off the com. maybe i shall. ok maybe not.
im mood-less. just dont feel anything but tired now. pfft.
hope my pinkie heals. QUICKLY. and im too lazy to elaborate on my darling pinkie.
dont worry dont worry. BLAH.
YOU SUCK. blah blah blah. *slaps you back with your own words.* HYPOCRITE. *sticks out tongue and runs far far away.*
ok. i shall leave it. starts chanting: must LOVE everyone. must LOVE everyone. pfft how hard is it?! answer: VERY.
shall drown myself in chocolates. ok. BYE.

|| At 3:26 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

BOO.

♥Wednesday, March 08, 2006.

its been 13 days since i last blogged. hahaha how long.
hmm today is lifeskills camp but we are not going. haha but we going later to watch the movie. hahaha i want to go for personality assessment!!! =) tmr we meeting up to go tpy sports hall. =) so fun!
so weird to be so free when people are having camp. =) haha but its so fun! =) we shall go invade their homeroom later. HAHA im leaving in half an hour's time. see lah. waste like 2hr of travelling time to and fro school. haha so cool so cool so cool. =)
got a lot of hairbands. =) haha got 1 drak pink, 1 light pink, 1 metallic purple, 1 lime green, 2 black. my mums wearing the light pink one now. haha so cute. =)
lalala i love everyone! =)
ok shll go do stupid stuff until its time to leave. bye! =)

|| At 4:34 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||