so mad.
im mad at everything. even myself.
and im going crazy thinking whether to quit jap. and i have decided that i should. because im really dying from all the projects and all. and so my decision is to NOT go for jap tmr and stay in school to really do homework and geography sia. BOO. i really want to study jap. but im getting too tired of staying until 6. no use getting good results for jap and getting tired of life and all that. PLEASE. i want to enjoy my school life. i DONT want to get out of this school and regret not doing more stuff that i wanted. i really dont. i cant even get enough time for SLEEP now. see. im here doing work at 12.30am. and theres school tmr. SHEESH.
sigh. and i wish i had a better choice than to quit jap. but its like, im really stuck. like if my mum forces me to stay on or forces me to quit, i will at least do it with a purpose. but now, you see, my mum goes like, i give you freedom. so you choose whether to quit or not. i know shes being really nice to me, because i spent like $100+ on the transport fees and $40+ on books. and she just lets me quit. BAH. i just dont deserve it. thats why im like stuck in the middle. im tired of going for third lang. so sick of it now. serious. but i dont want to let my parents down. i know they have high expectations of me, but i just cant meet them. and i have already witness what was to happen. sigh.
and im still doing science ws 1.3 now. still havent finish compre. and jap compo. AND geog sia. AND science sia. AND home econs. all by this damn week. some more need to cook pasta on tuesday and our recipe isnt even done yet. and some more only 2 people in our group can cook because i wont be around. SHIT LAH. then geog sia. im in charge of it. CRAP. science sia. at least weve finished the outline, and i admit that i seriously suck. ARG. ws 1.3 is a total failure. sigh. cant even read the words of the article. SHEESH. compre. at least i finished HALF. jap compo, FORGET IT. wonderful. i shall work until at most 3 and i will sleep. CRAP. shall not blog anymore for i have too much work to do. bye.