sheesh. i think i want to zoom out of the house next tuesday so i dont have to start crying in the morning.
mum woke me up then she was like, call your aunt ask her dont come today. then i refused. then my mum started to like, CRY can. so i had to call lah. then i was crying the whole morning. after that, she seemed so fine lah. i think im going to break down someday. sigh.
i think it was my fault that it ended up in this state. all my fault lor. why did i score so badly? if i had did better she wouldnt have suffered from depression and end up like this. its all my fault. i dont know what made it act up again. i seriously dont. sigh. just blame myself.
sigh.
shall go do smth now. i must STOP thinking about this. or i wouldnt even have tears to last the whole of today. sigh. bye.