and wow. another one. you make me feel scared. but i suddenly see myself. you seem like a mirror to me. i have never seen it from this POV. and i am terrified. am i like that too? do they feel the same as how i know they are feeling now? i am scared, of myself. am i such a person? am i really what i am now? i hate that person because of it, and it would only mean a thing. i ought to hate myself, for even doing this. it isnt fair to others. they tried, but i just cant open up. i dont like stick. they refer to a few. at first i thought ignorance was the best idea, but i am now terrified of it. save me.
dont tag on my board on anything about this. i dont want any single person's comment on it ok? sorry but this is how i want it to be like. i dont want others to think they know what is this about and guess and you tell this to the whole wide world. so, keep your comments to yourself. grr. im being very SHIT today. sorry to everyone who even bothers to read this.
some more problematic stuff but i will probably be hated if i complain too much. so i shall shut up and keep this inside me. grr.
oh yes lets talk about some happy stuff. ok. i miss tammy and darren (is it spelt like this?)!!! just saw tammy's pictures in my cousin's email. so miss my cousin too! haha. they will be back in november i think, because my another cousin is getting married on the 5th, if im not wrong. oh yay. im probably going to get a new blouse or smth after the exams! to go with my skirt! yay! im enthu about picking clothes to go with skirts. wahahaha. sudden addiction of skirts and sleeveless shirts. probably because im sick of wearing bermudas. haha.
mum's going korea on erm...18 oct? forgot. actually i could go, but if you ask me, i love staying at home. =) home is the sweetest place. dont you agree? sigh. ok. shall go sleep now. bye! =)
oh no before that, let me do some reflections of the week. maybe i shall try to do it every week. then i will see what i have learnt throughout a week. and i discovered that a week is very short, and it goes by very fast. but it teaches us lessons that i probably wont forget. sigh. ok. this week. taught me how to view things from other's point of view. everyone should learn that. i thought i knew how to do that, but i only knew how to do that to a certain extent and now im facing problems and consequences of a different kind. this week taught me about myself. i guess i seriously dont understand myself. better spend some time after exams to try to understand myself and really improve on my character. seriously think im being hated. sigh. ok. shall sleep now. bye.