♥ , My Garden of Eden.

hi. another quiz.

♥Sunday, October 30, 2005.

quiz quiz quiz. this koped from jenzis blog. again. haha.

1. What song are you listening now?
not listening to any. but am humming 'stay'.

2. Who are you waiting for?
no one. duh.

3.Would you like to dye ur hair?
now, no. future, dont think so.

4. Do you like sports?
YES! =)

5. Chocolate or vanilla?
CHOCOLATE!

6. Punk or goth?
eek. not very interested in either one.

7. Do you like babies?
yup!

8. What are your feelings right now?
bored and feel like sleeping.

9. Whom are you with right now?
hmm. my dads sleeping in the oher room.

10. What was the last thing you asked someone to do?
dont really recall.

11. What did you do for the last few hours?
rot in front of com which is usually what i do.

12. What are you wearing?
'i lvoe singapore' t-shirt and some weird pants. nothing much to talk about undergarments.

13. What's on your wall?
PAINT. ok fine. theres a world map in front of my study table. and posters around the room.

14. What are your plans for tomorrow?
trng! after that dont know do what, then go for choral and drama night performance! =)

15. Beer or tap water?
tap water. i have trust in our government! =)

16. Favourite Color?
VIOLET! PINK ON BLACK! (im crazy)

17. Do you like cookies?
YES YES.

18. How many dark secrets do you have?
eek. after counting i think i have quite a lot. haha.

19. What's in your trash can?
loads of food packets. potato chips, sushi box and more lah.

20. Do you miss someone?
yup. i freakingly miss SCHOOL! AND ALL THE PEOPLE I HAVENT SEEN FOR THE LAST SECOND! =) which means everyone btw.

21. Spring or summer?
SUMMER! =)

22. Turn to your left. What do you see?
study table with a huge box on top because i was trying to find some stuff.

23. Do you like cars?
not really. =) so UNROMANTIC. haha. really. bicycle more romantic mah! haha. nvm.

24. Have you eaten your dinner?
does oreo blended ice count? thats the only thing i drank.

25. If I asked you to go to the kitchen right now, what would you get
vitagen. because im damn thirsty. haha. stupid reason.

26. Have you ridden a horse?
nope. but maybe shall try it someday. haha.

27. Do you believe in love at first sight?
YES OF COURSE! =)

28. What's on your table?
lamp, big box(like i said just now), last years diary, kotr, ashley, reindeer soft toy, telephone, stationary box, polosprit wallet, box, stack of letters recieved last year, braclets, phone, computer moniter, computer mouse, magazines, stack of crap paper, handphone, modem. uh yah. more stuff but lazy to type. this tells you how messy i am.

Favourite website(s)?
www.lifelesssprit.blogspot.com thank you very much. its even my homepage. wahaha. im EGO.

29. Whom are you online with?
uh. as in? do you want me to list out everyones whos online? haha.

30. Where's your mum?
IN MALAYSIA. haha.

31. Which cartoon character(s) do you like to meet?
...hello kitty i guess. haha. was crazy about it long time ago. haha.

32. Favourite channel(s)?
dont watch much tv, but mostly channel 8 and channel u.

33. Which phone do you like to own?
i LOVE my phone. i was telling yining that i would change to a new phone of exactly the same model. haha. but i quite like 3G phones. haha.

34. What time is it?
11.06 pm.

35.What is the day & date?
sunday 30th october 2005.

36. Last movie you've seen?
corpse bride.

37. Do you like it?
yes. so touching. but its too damn short lah. so sad.

38. Are you sitting anywhere near a window?
yes. window is just in front of me.

39. Be honest, do your socks stink?
I AM NOT A STUPID FREAK WHO SMELLS HER OWN SOCKS.

40. Any favourite brands?
uh...im not THAT biased. but does mos burger count? haha. i guess it doesnt.

41. Name 3 things you last bought.
2 oreo blended ice and a large coke from LJS. haha. im such a pig.

42. Are you wearing any accessories?
nope. specs doesnt count i guess. haha.

43. Do you wear make-up?
no way. i have enough pimples.

44. How was yesterday?
...FINE. what else can i say?

45. Do you hear anything weird?
erm. no i can only hear my typing and my aircon.

46. Do you like your school?
yea sort of.

47. Anything left to say?
i have something right to say, can? rubbish. haha. nvm.

ok. shall go sleep now. theres trng tmr. haha. havent decide yet. but shall just bring clothes. haha. ok. bye!

|| At 10:00 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

hmm.

♥.

ok. i miss school. hi-5 janice. sigh.
ok. went with yining to je. para. =) think we both spent about $6-$8 there. haha. managed to pass deluxe eurobeat at hard mode. oh yay. yining work harder ok! must pass! ok. started on expert mode. damn fun lah. MORE SWEEPING. fun. wahaha. SWEEP SWEEP SWEEP. i think im going to get muscle aches tmr. =P so fun to SWEEP!!!! =)
oh man i am so addicted to oreo blended ice. =) as in at jurong west. so nice. went there at about 7 because yining wanted to get the cable from alvin. wahaha. (the wahaha is very extra because i dont know why i said that)
reached home at around 8. and i discovered a torchlight on my table. erm. dont know what my dad buy it for lah. haha. so funny.
i think i have a sore throat btw. eek! too much chocolates i guess. bleh. so sad. later cannot speak then i die ah, no need go choral night. haha. just kidding.
was watching the videos taken at macs ytd. damn funny can. WAHAHA. lets see if i can find the cable that connects my phone ot the com. haha. ok. oh i just discovered i dont think theres any cable that can connect it to the com. -_- ok shall copy and paste a quiz here. nothing to do now. so damn bored.
1- you find out that are being followed?
go to some crowded place. or hide in some disguise.

2- you lost your hand phone in sch.?
call my mum using public phone or smth and cancel that SIM card immediately.

3- the guy you dislike most says he have a crush
on you?
probably say something like, we can just remain as friends. so that he wont get the wrong idea lah.

4- you were given a flute on your birthday?
eh that so cool. but i dont think i will start learning how to play it. haha.

5- you inherited a million dollars?
erk. can i just dump them all or smth. its freaky having so much money. bleh.

6- your annoying sibling woke you up when you
were having a sweet dream?
hehheh. just wake up then, what else can i do? haha.

7- your pet starts toking to you?
yea right. i will go to the psychiatrist.

8- the teacher give your class a surprise test?
uh. what can i do? kidnap the teacher? funny.

9- you were to be a guy for one day?
...

10- the person you love is a gay/les?
hmm. give him up then. hmm.

11- you got 0/100 for you geography final year
paper?
another visit to the psychiatrist.

12- you see Osama walking around Serangoon
central?
...what makes you think i will do anything?

13- a fairy give you a wish?
WORLD PEACE. TSK.

15- the person beside you farted during foot drill
whats foot drill? bleh.

16- you realise holiday is over and you havent
completed a single assignment?
start on assignments lah. then hat? prepare for scolding meh?

17- some clowns kick a soccerball and hit your
drink which splash on your uniform during recess?
its all right. seriously i think ive done much worse stuff. then splashing water on people in class and it landed on my friends stuff. bleh.

18- someone annoys you?
DAO.

19- your hair is shave bald by the hair dresser?
GET THAT HAIRDRESSER FIRED.

bleh. shall go look for more stuff. bye.

|| At 8:20 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

back. i dont know for what.

♥Saturday, October 29, 2005.

ok. hi again. wahaha. seriously i DONT want to change my phone le! i have loads of videos inside ok! taken today lah. clip 5 is the funniest ok! wahahahaha. can die laughing. oh btw i still have the video taken at mos burger the last time when we had a friendly match. wahaha.
oh. mums off to malaysia. wow man. she just came back on wednesday. er... that means housework lah. haha. i think im very shibai at housework. haha.
sigh. very bored now. should i go do crossstitch? no. 11 pm le. hmm.
ok. tmr going to para!!!!! =) yay!!!! =) SWEEP SWEEP SWEEP!!! =) haha. train arm muscle ok!! haha really will get muscle aches one lor. haha. so shuang.
ok. shall go sleep now. bye! goodnight! =)

|| At 11:55 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

koped from jenzi's blog

♥.

Do u like to smile?
yup. but i like to LAUGH more! *huge green apple smiley with shiny and white teeth*

Do u love music?
yes yes yes.

Who do u share all of ur most personal secrets with?
hmm. seriously i think if i ever said the names they will be hunted down or smth. haha. but mostly teammates and benchmates because they are sort of closer. ng yining has qutie a lot too. which i would probably regret saying this.=P

Do u love to shop?
YES.

If u were given a chance to buy anything u want in the world what would it be
huh? nothing much i guess.

Why are you completing this survey?
because i am very bored and i have nothing to do and i was reading jenzis blog and i found this so i copied and paste. the end.

The most:
a) grossest thing u ever heard?
loads. especially from teammates. haha.

b) yummiest thing u ever ate?
chocolate truffle! =) haha.

c) cutest boy/girl ever saw?
ERM.

If u were given a chance to rule a country, what country would it be?
bleh. i think if i ever ruled a country, it would be damn shi bai lah. haha. so forget it lah.

The time you're confused the most?
uh. when i get numerous decisions which i freakingly cant choose. and im supposed to face it on my OWN. somewhat like the third lang thing huh. nvm.

The thing that would make u like a guy/girl?
first impression will probably be how i notice the person bah. hmm. i will probably look at that person's sincerity. hmm yup.

Are u always happy?
what do you think, after reading my blog for so long?

Are u easily jealous?
NOPE. even if i am jealous, i wont show it. if i do show you that im jealous, that just proves that i trust you and i can joke around with you. hmm. haha.

Do u always share drinks with a boy/girl?
anyone whom i know well i guess. uh. as in girls. the only guy who will share drinks with girls would probably be yong zhiyi.

Are u noisy?
yes. i suppose so.

Do u know how to rollerblade?
think ive forgotten how to. haha.

Do u like to give hugs?
hmm. why not?

Do u know how to ice skate?
yes. but havent been going le. =(

Do u prefer guys/girls who curse or a guy/girl who loves to touch u?
hmm. dont like both. bleh.

Are u a goody-goody or a naughty kid?
YOU THINK LEH? im probably halfway but more to the GUAI side. haha.

Do you think of your future?
yes yes yes. go look at my previous post. haha. nvm.

Do you easily fall in love?
NOPE.

Are you addicted to someONE now?
ADDICTED is a bit weird here...

Did you get pissed/pleased when people gave you a surprising moment?
surprising. good or bad? hmm. depends on the person. HA. im biased.

Are u a complicated person?
VERY. muahahahaha.

ok. im damn bored now. go find some more weird stuff to do. bye.

|| At 11:17 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

lazy.

♥.

hallo. seriously im very lazy to update lor. haha. damn tired.
ok not in the mood to update blog. whatever lah. must work harder next year man. i DONT want to get just 67% lor. im aiming for at least A2 ok! hmm. oh and when is OM meeting? oh yes tuesday.
OH BTW. YOU ARE NOT __ OK! seriously lah. you act as though you want to pick a fight or smth every single time ANYONE talks to you lor. SERIOUSLY ANYONE. and let me tell you, we get DAMN pissed ok. sheesh. SOUNDS LIKE SERIOUS AP WITH ME RIGHT. sigh. say whatever you want. i really cant stand just sitting there, listen to you talk, and listen to all that rubbish you try to force into our minds. ENOUGH IS ENOUGH ok. dont you dare argue with us saying whatever crap you are going to say. no one will bother. I BET.
I FEAR THE PRESENT. I FEAR THE FUTURE. I FEAR MYSELF.
but now, i really dont know how i feel towards you lah. i really cant tell what you are trying to do. if you are really so desperate, please, go say it to that person, yourself. theres not much use trying to break up the bonds of people just because of your selfishness. no point dragging other people in. if you do, you are just being plain selfish. you are NOT giving other's feelings much thought. sigh.
i think i have serious APPLE. (if you dont understand just forget it) arg.
this is just good at getting me more and more irritated. sigh.
ok. shall go sleep now. bye.

|| At 10:53 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

damn me.

♥Wednesday, October 26, 2005.

damn. can i like, box myself? seriously i think i suck. grr.
never am i going to do that again. seriously. im going to take it more serious than ever, although its not as though i havent been serious all this while, but really. trust me. im never going to do that again. i can imagine someone saying that to me and all those who followed. i guess i was too selfish. sigh.
ok. today. nothing much to talk about. just that in the morning my dad woke me up at 6 and i had to take a taxi to school. rubbish right. so got off at the main gate lah.
sigh sigh sigh. im not in a good mood now.
whatever that happened has happened. so forget about it and go on, with a lesson learnt.
ok. oh theres some weird weird people on the mrt. spastic. there was this guy, from a think about half a cabin away. i was like just looking around then i saw him lah. then he smiled a very WEIRD smile then made some weird expression. er. i was like GLARE at him then i dao him and look away. whatever lor. weird people. VERY WEIRD.
im so sian now. shall go find smth rubbish to do. bye.

|| At 8:04 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

angry.

♥Tuesday, October 25, 2005.

oh yes i am VERY ANGRY with some stuff around here. if you are NOT interested to see whatever im going to be typing here. please just stop reading. NO ONE IS GOING TO LISTEN ANYWAY. WHATEVER.
the next few paragraphs are going to be very abstract and i probably wont even understand myself because my language is really horrendous and its really no use trying.
theres this smth that happens almost everywhere and everytime lah. but i seriously dont understand why people cannot put themselves in other peoples' shoes. why cant they spare a thought for others around them? the way you look at one thing, is diffrent from how others view it. and this simply relates to how they present themselves and how they want others to to view them as. bleh.
can i do the reflections after a week now? haha. because i seriously think i learnt smth. ok fine. reflection for the day then. i learnt that, the way you present yourself, is how others will take you as. whatever. im talking too much crap today. shall shut my mouth up and go sleep because im damn tired today. bye. good night.

|| At 9:59 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

SEC1 FAMILY DAY!!!!!

♥.

hallo! today was family day!!! haha. went to west coast park. first thing that stupid me did was to hurt my right hand because i poked my hand with smth sharp. theres like, 4 'holes' on my palm now. painful ok. haha. im damn clumsy.
then went to climb that pyramid. oh yay man. i manage to sort of overcome my phobia of heights. haha. thanks to sixers who forced us to go up. haha. sandy liang hui and i were so scared i tell you. damn scared of heights ok. haha. but it was fun.
then went to kop food. haha. so cool ok! got spagetti! haha. oh and i now have another jar of peanut butter in my fridge. its like, only a depth of 1cm was used. haha. and its so cool mixing peanut butter with luncheon meat. haha.
then played loads of stuff lah. until around 11.30 then went to macs. haha.
went back to school at 12.30. trng was cancelled because it was raining heavily around 2+. went back at around 6+. went to westmall to buy junk food. seriously i think im gonig to get sick real soon. every single time this happens lah. eat too much chocolates, then will get fever or whatever flu or what, then would stay away for a while from chocolates after recovery. and a few weeks later its back to junk food. haha. ok. shall go find some stuff to do now. bye!

|| At 9:28 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

haha.

♥Sunday, October 23, 2005.

wahaha. feeling very lame.
i did not go out today. i did not see yining today. i did not go dance para with yining. i did not play freestyle hard mode. i did not pass energy love at jurong east entertainment center. i did not pass eurobeat at free style hard mode at jurong point.
ok fine. thanks to yining. ok. ANGELIC SMILE! O=) spastic. haha. sounds like reverse psychology to me. haha.
ok. changed blogskin today. box is damn small. cram can. but i like the skin! so cute! =) i have a passion for depressed blogskins. haha. seriously lor. almost all the blogskins i have used are all quite sad huh. haha.
oh btw. its very hard not to mention i did not go out today. haha. sorry yining! haha. damn funny. ok. went to jp. para machine was crammed up ok. so played other stuff. then went IMM. eh wow cool can! earrings, braclets, anklets necklaces. $2!!!!!! damn shuang ok. haha bought a braclet. then went to dance para.
oh yay. hard mode rocks ok. haha. agree right. so fun. ENERGY LOVE!!!!! =) sweep sweep sweep. hahaha. muscle ache like dont know what lah. really. but its damn fun. =)
oh yes. i miss my mum!!! she called back today! one whole long string of numbers. wow. cool can. from korea. haha. oh and my dad is very weird can. today when i went out he kept insisting i take $50 note just in case. i was like, crazy! dont want! i just take $20! really lah. its crazy to take $50 out just for a day lor. oh and after that, he was like, do you have money for tmr? then i said no. then he said smth like take the $50 from my wallet. ER HUM. its very crazy to be taking $50 for just A DAY. really. haha. because mine is daily allowance. which i seriously dont count how much i get because i will always use up the $10 spare. haha.
ok. shall go try to rehearse script on my own. then shall go read some books. shall sleep at 12.30. haha. ok. bye!

|| At 11:12 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

dead.

♥Saturday, October 22, 2005.

phew. finally. have been doing housework for the past 3 hrs. tiring lah. ok, for a person who hasnt done housework for 13 years its damn tiring ok. first thing, clean shoes. ended up scrubing the shoelaces and shoe with the scrubber or whatever its called. damn tired lah. training arm muscles huh. then decided that the house was very dusty so called my dad and volunteered to mop and clean the house. also wanted to take that burden off him lah. who would want to clean the house after work? so decided to help. spent around 2 hrs on that ok. my house is small, but seriously, i think 2hrs is already quite fast huh. left out some stuff because really crazy to be climbing on the table to clean the clock and windows or smth huh. ok.
today had speech trng. ok. better memorise script well.
went to causeway point with shiyu after that. bought dangling earrings!!! =) haha.
can my body just make up my mind? am i a left hander or a right hander??? spastic can. i have more strength in my right hand, but more control in my left hand. thats probably why i cant use a scissors with my right hand. i can never do it ok. sigh. nvm. prefer to use left hand to do stuff.
ok i shall go do some fun stuff now. bye!

|| At 7:00 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

hey! =)

♥Friday, October 21, 2005.

hallo! =) not in a VERY bad mood today.
checked marksheet in the morning.
OH YAY!!!!!!!! A2 for jap!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (even though i failed that spastic oral) YAY!!!!! I LOVE JAP!!!!!!! =) so that will mean i shall continue third lang!!!!!!!! =) yay!!!! problem solved!!
and yay. got 3 more marks for geography. =) marks update.
lang arts- 57/100 (C6)
math-71/100 (A2)
chinese-75/100 (A1)
science-79/100 (A1)
geography-80/100 (A1)
history-66/100 (B3)
jap-71/100 (A2)

oh yay!!! can i replace humanities with jap? wahaha. then i can get A2 instead of the only miserable B in my results. haha. no lah. this is just eoys. havent add the SIAs CAs and all that yet. then it will surely pull this mark down. haha. nvm. at least this proves i worked hard for this exam! =) except for lang arts lah. so darn sad to see a C. =( nvm. just work harder next year. =)
hmm. but wasnt really very much happy for the rest of the day. oh. first thing. bag was infested with ANTS. because forgot to take out the jelly sticks. eek. then spent the morning clearing out ants from my bag. crap. i bet theres some dead ones inside because i resorted to stepping on my own bag. haha.
then played games like crazy. stupid me forgot to copy down marks from marksheet. but supposingly its correct lah. checked for everything. except science. i dont know how i missed it. nvm.
after break went back to class for speech trng. grr. got scratched by the props and i havae around 5 cuts on my leg. grr. then second half like damn bu shuang with first half lah. i dont know which stupid spastic freak went to chase the second half people out of our classroom then they ended up having to go to other classrooms. wah lao. then i didnt know about it until catherine told me. no wonder their faces like charcoal black can. and our props are like, so hard to set up. i bet we will get scolded like mad if we bring it into auditorium lor. ARG. then its really unfair to let someone who has already prepared everything, to NOT say anything. arg. everyone must play a part ok. stay as a CLASS. at least HALF OF THE CLASS. its like, some people didnt turn up for speech t. then must explain everything once more. its all right. but just at least put EFFORT into it lah! arg. thats for english speech trng btw. which i almost lost my voice because janice wasnt around and its like, only left with 3 people to recite. then must like contract stomach like crazy to project louder voice lah. sigh.
then after that went for chinese speech trng at 4.15. i better go practise my script. im such a freaking shi bai narrator. theres around 5 narrators lah. im very pressured can. first person to speak. SCARY. then must memorise song lyrics too. hmm.
wait i missed out smth worth celebrating!!! we were one of the two groups chosen to present to next years students!!!!!!!! =) we are presenting on open house too!!!!! =) but the weird thing is, our project file is nowhere to be found. eek. and let me tell you. janice is going to spend time printing scripts and some ungrateful people are just going to tear it up after presenting. yea go on. cant believe it man. arg.
then had to miss trng today. =( SAD OK. sigh. and i almost melted ok. thanks to those wonderful jeans and black shirt. i wonder what we will be wearing for chinese.
this suddenly reminds me of some spastic shit person. grr. BOSSY LIKE DONT KNOW WHAT LAH. forget it. shall not complain anymore. shall go sleep now. still have speech t tmr. sigh. goodnight.

|| At 10:13 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

OH YAY!

♥Thursday, October 20, 2005.

ok wait. before everything i want to say, i shall say smth that is very random. i hit all my goals for eoys!!! ok fine. except for lang arts. which i failed miserably. see lah. pulll down my whole average. because we benchmates used a green card from the stack which i brought, to write our goals, and the baseline goal that we aim for for eoys. and wahaha. i hit the goals for everything except lang arts. but its so pathetic that it didnt even reach borderline one. oops. hmm. ok results are ok, i think, based on my standard. haha. which is i dont think very good. haha. A1 for chinese, science and geography. A2 for math. B3 for history. C5 for lang arts. haiyah. average is not good because of lang arts. haha. nvm. at least i know everything will be pulled up by the exam marks. sigh. i have decided to study hard next year. so i dont have to pia like crazy for eoys. as in, NOT THAT CRAZY. haha. because my SIA like crap lah. so cham can.
oh i was just counting my average for eoys. and goodness me. i missed A2 by 1 mark! =( sad. shiyu just sent me the file and i counted like crazy. nvm.
oh yes. i dont want to see marks anymore. ok unless im going to get more marks for my geography. which will be POSSIBLE! =) at most 4 marks. at most lah. i think i can get like 2 marks or 3. haha. which will pull my average up! haha. nvm. im very happy today.
ok. wait. can i like, get some help? because theres this trojan in this spastic program which i cant delete. i know how to repair it, but problem is, i lost the rescue disk. spastic me. NVM. shall let it just R.I.P. in my program until i manage to find the rescue disk. grr.
oh yay. today we had an interclass captain's ball match! =) so fun ok. then had this mission possible thingy. which was very fun too, although we didnt win but nvm! we tried! =) then cheer writing competition. we won!!! =) so cool ok! but the bad thing is, i now have blood clot on my left thigh again. last time play those clapping games already have le. then now one more time because we had to clap the beat of our cheer. haha. our class has been the one who invent weird weird games ok! dont know why lah. then somehow it will spread somewhere else. hahaha.
for trng we learnt concept of DEFENCE! =) so fun!!!!! =)
ok. im very angry. seriously there are some people who piss me off on the bus. can explode ok. first time was ytd. went to the upper deck, then no space to sit. so wanted to go down. then theres this person who just stood in front of the staircase blocking the whole staircase lah. wah lao i was blackfaced for the whole journey ok. even if you dont know science, can you please use common sense and read the sign??? grr. then one more today. went on the bus. then wanted to sit down at the one that faces the back. and theres this raised platform in front right. then theres this lady who put her feet on it lah. so i cant move in. which is like, im stuck outside and nobody can go in because of her FEET. listen mp3 somemore. hallo. the bus is damn packed lah. aiyah. can you spare a thought for other people? i was sitting there, thinking about how selfish it is to be sitting on the outside and preventing other people from going in. please, you dont OWN the seat. grr. and yet im doing it. and i was really tempted to just get off the bus and walk home ok. if we all be considerate then wont the world be a nicer place? and in this world there are some smart ass who just goes against us. yea thanks man.
grr. angry like dont know what lah. haiyah.
ok. shall remain happy. and must bring lots of stuff tmr. shall go pack now. bye! =)

|| At 9:34 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

exhausted.

♥Tuesday, October 18, 2005.

wah. tired like crap. so much stuff done today. landed on the side of my left foot playing court in the morning. BRUISE. SWOLLEN. grr. skipping made it even worse ok! and during skipping thingy, hurt the bone on the inner part of my feet. because i stick the two feet together until so hard, then the bone is now swollen too. well done man.
ok today checked geography and history paper. yay. i LOVE geography man. WAHAHA. ok fine im crazy. ok marks:
geography-61/80 (dont know if im going to get anymore marks. haha.)
history-66/100
hmm. ok. tmrs science. i DONT want to die. i already failed lang arts. cant they put double weightage on either languages (higher one lah, duh)? haha. nvm. i hate to say this, but chinese rocks. haha. i dont know why i just dont like chinese. as in, i love exam formats (except compo). hate the compo. yea haha.
SKIPPING IS SO FUN!!! except for my poor bone that suffered. catherine is so PRO!!! =)
hmm. this is getting more and more WEIRD. hmm. very weird. BUT NO IT IS NOT GOING TO MAKE ME GET A HEADACHE. ive had enough of them. just RELAX! =)
oh yes. was so tired that i fell asleep while waiting for the bus. STANDING. was just standing there hugging my shoebag. then suddenly felt like sleeping then leaned backwards then suddenly woke up. haha.
oh yes. ytds movie at moelc is so cute ok! especially the cat. hahaha. JIJI! catherine is obsessed with it.
haha. ok. i shall go find smth interesting to do now. ok bye! =)

|| At 8:33 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

crap.

♥Monday, October 17, 2005.

boohoohoo. today got back our first 3 papers. SIGH. CRAP CAN.
math paper 1- 40/50
math paper 2- 31/50
total- 71

english
compre- 14/30
summary- 13/20
compo- 18/30
unseen prose- 14/25
total- 59/105 (converted- 56)

chinese
compo- 48/70
ying yong wen- 11/20
paper 2- 90/110
total- 149/200

this is the very first time i have gotten an A2 for math! wahahaha. from a B4!!! yay! ok thats probably the only thing im satisfied with ba! boohoohoo. lang arts. crap lah! i failed ok! grr. chinese. total crap. i have ery high hopes for chinese de lor!!! then now! see lah. wait i got a feeling the compo marking is damn different can. really. janice sure will get higher then me de lor! then the marks now is really very strange. hmm. ying yong wen. DONT TALK ABOUT IT. my paper was OUT OF POINT. crap. thats why so low marks lah. thank goodness i didnt fail. paper 2, hmm ok ba. BUT THE TOTAL SUCKS OK. haiyah. damn heartbroken after seeing my chinese results lah. dont feel really much for lang arts because i have always been weak at that area. but the marks are horrendous. grr. nvm. theres still tmr. oops. and theres history geography and science. hmm.
phew. my handphone is SAVED.
ytd was qi en's man yue! so went to qi tians house. haha. ate then played xbox. er hum. seriously i dont know how to play. hmm. then played monopoly. then went to the void deck to play badminton. wahaha. then went to play netball with basketball. was wet because there was a heavy rain. haha. damn fun lah! then all of us were wet lor. because have to play barefooted. hahaha. then fell into the puddle of water lah! wahahaha. ok. oh yes. tmr we are going to be SKIPPING!!! skip skip skip!!! wahaha. havent skipped for a long time. participating in the 5000 times thingy. hahaha. fun ok! shall go off to practise now. bye!

|| At 9:56 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

HAPPY AND CRAZY MOOD!!!

♥Friday, October 14, 2005.

WAHAHA! im so CRAZY AND HAPPY TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HAPPY BENCHMATES AND TREE COUNTING DAY!
WELCOME BACK CLAUDIA AND JENZI!
YAY!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT A HAPPY DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and we are going to buy present for qi en tmr!!!!!!!!!!!
WAHAHAHA!!!!!! and i just asked my mum if im alllowed to go out for the both days and phew she allowed. jenzi and i were so scared we decided to go together at 10.20pm becauase she also wanted to ask. haha.
ok oh yes! today is HAPPY BENCHMATES DAY!!!! =)
went bowling at safra yishun!!!!!! haha. damn crowded. wahahahaha. pathetic scores man. 47 (i forgot the second score) 75. 1 pathetic strike lah. and janice is so damn cute can! WAHAHA. she got 2 strikes 1 spare ok! katherine darn pro 3 strikes in one game ok. haha. pro pro people. ok we shall go out on next HAPPY BENCHMATES DAY ok!!! which is 14 nov. haha. maybe will get pushed forward or postponed lah. haha. best is during weekends. oh no on sunday. haha. and after bowling we walked back to the mrt station. then we were counting tress on the way!! haha. so cool can. hahaha. then went back home.
haha. ok so now. only left me and claudia can go out tmr. eek. NVM. we shall go play! haha
hmm ok then present can postpone? so we can go as a team and buy mah. sorry! haha. QI EN MAN YUE!!!!! =) hahaha. =)
smiling like crazy since just now. hahahaha. oh btw, i think im going to go crazy memorising speech trng stuff. and oh yes. i wonder where our photos are going to appear! as in the IPW group photo. wahahahaha. cool man. went to eco pond to take. damn funny lah. yea i bet i dont look like myself. haha. i really dont look like myself in photos. funny. i look...i dont know, WEIRD? aiyah. just look DIFFERENT. haha. crazy.
BOOKS!!!!!! i want to read NEW stuff! i just reread a few books today. boohoohoo. NEVERMIND. i shall go borrow tmr. WAHAHA. i shall borrow 8 books! =) huge thick books to occupy me! =) ok fine i still have my cross stitch but...haha that reminds me. i shall be off to do crossstitch! bye!

|| At 9:24 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

died.

♥Thursday, October 13, 2005.

hallo. just died. freaking know that stamina dropped like shit during exam period. haha. nvm.
before trng went to jurong point because my mum wanted me to help her choose choose color for clip. haha. damn funny lah. go there, which color nicer? ok gogogo. because almost late le. thought will reach school late lah. but in the end wasnt. phew.
ok just checked answer for science mcq because jenzi checked with her tuition teacher. haha. cool. damn lah 25/30. i bet i will die for chemistry paper can. and setter was mdm tan siu guan. yea thanks man. especially the drawing thingy. like whats ALUM? funny. and the boiling tube is like floating in air because tripod stand wasnt mentioned. er hum.
ok. after trng went to macs with vernice and soo han. haha. then when we went back that time vernice damn funny lah. haha. ok im very tired. and i want books! boohoohoo. i want samurai girl! as in i want to read the whole series! its like i got the third and sixth book. so its like, unrelated to each other. oh yes. me and shiyu were discussing about it before trng. eh wait lor. i thought hiro DIED? then how come shiyu say...oops i forgot what she said. like oh yay. heaven found her mother. and its so darn cool that she can FIGHT ok. cool man. nvm im crazy.
i want da vinci code! very random. suddenly reminded of vernice's question. haha.
ok. am very addicted to listening to cd. wahaha. damn nice. ok shall go find some old books to read now. oh and i have to return library book. hmm on saturday bah. because we are buying present for QI EN!!!! yay!!!!! and haha sorry, i havent ask my mum whether i can go anot. haha. should be can. yay! what are we going to buy? haha. dont know leh. wahahahaha. i am so happy today! oh and i am just reminded we have to go for rehearsal tmr. grr. bleh. ok nvm. shall go find books now. bye!

|| At 10:10 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

back.

♥Wednesday, October 12, 2005.

hallo im back after 2-3 hours of book marathon. uh yea. finished two books by alyssa brugman. sigh. see lah. now no more books le. crap. nvm. eh wait i still have one more. wahaha. and my com has been switched on because im using it as a discman. haha. ok.
today went to watch corpse bride. hmm. nice but its too short! its like...only 1hr15 min? strange. haha. but its touching.
bought new cd. yang chen lin! =)
then went to take neos. haha. damn funny lah. DRACULA TEETH! =)
im in a happy mood today! yay! never felt so worry-less. sigh.
if only i could hang on to this day forever! haha. no im crazy today. ok. but i really wish i could have no worries for at least until the end of this year. which is uh, quite impossible lah. A BIG SIGH.
but today was happy! =) will i continue to hang on to this happiness. i dont know...
ok. im ready for a few more books! =) either that or cross stitch. but im not in the cross stitch mood now. now in the read-book-and-cry mood. haha. crazy. nvm.
ok. shall be off to read books. ok. bye!

|| At 11:02 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

before.

♥Tuesday, October 11, 2005.

ok before i empty all my thoughts. lets do something fun. got it from jenzis blog.
7 things that scare me:
(1) insects
(2) vegetables taking over the world.
(3) deceptions.
(4) despicable people
(5) losing the world.
(6) people who resort to doing anything just to get what they want.
(7) jaywalking. (dont ask me why)

7 things that I like the most:
(1) NETBALL
(2) FRIENDS!
(3) PARAPARA
(4) my wonderful life
(5) computer and handpohne.
(6) genius who invented computer and handphone
(7) music.

7 important things in my room:
(1) computer
(2) handphone
(3) telephone
(4) television
(5) cds (inclusive of cd roms)
(6) aircon (cant live without it. haha.)
(7) books.

7 random facts about me:
(1) crazy moodswings
(2) emotional (this is just a nice term for crybaby. ok fine. forget what i said)
(3) loves netball!
(4) loves para!
(5) unsociable ( i agree with myself.)
(6) have split personalities once in a while.
(7) wols. (if you really dont understand. that was SLOW.)

7 things I plan to do before I die:
(1) tell the whole wide world i love them. (doesnt need to be true huh.)
(2) at least read the da vinci code!
(3) find time to spend with loved ones
(4) kiss my stuff goodbye.
(5) sms everyone on my list.
(6) cry (pessimistic thought)
(7) mourn (even more pessimistic thoughts)

7 things I can do:
(1) BREATHE.
(2) play netball!
(3) play para!
(4) go shopping!
(5) crapping! (especially with laushee)
(6) use the com.
(7) go crazy

7 things I can't do:
(1)STOP BREATHING.
(2) stop being stressed (probably after meditating under a treee would help or smth)
(3) stop worrying about stuff (i would have attained nirvana if i can do this)
(4) stop thinking about how freakingly despicable you are.
(5) currently stop thinking about jap.
(6) pretend i dont know a single thing when i DO.
(7) give up.

7 things I say the most:
(1) think so
(2) bleh
(3) huh?
(4) anything/dont know (can be classified under one category: indecisive)
(5) ass (thanks to janice)
(6) total crap (thanks to janice too)
(7) shit (trying much to refrain. but cant. haha.)

7 celebrity crushes:
(1) sun xie zhi
(2) lin jun jie's VOICE
(3) da S
(4) yang cheng lin
(5) thats all bah.
(6)
(7)

7 people who could do this:
(1) you
(2) you
(3) you
(4) you
(5) you
(6) you
(7) everyone

oh yes i shall keep jenzis answer because im too lazy. haha.
ok time to complain. ok. no vulgarities on my board people! sigh.
oh yay. freedom finally! =)
todays trng was weights trng. hmm...quite fun actually. can compare and see how much weights you lifted. hahaha.
then went causeway point. ate at mos burger. then went shopping. BOUGHT EARRINGS. like wow. i havent wore earrings since like...p5 or p6. cant rmb. because everytime need to take it out because cannot wear earrings to trngs de. haha. then too lazy so just didnt wear or just put earsticks. haha. then dont know why jsut went and look. and we actually decided to xue ping on thurs. but cannot because scared trng end late. so we decided to bring it forward to tmr. wahahaha. so we are going to watch movie. CORPSE BRIDE!!! =) oh and will be buying lots of stuff. oh and need to remind myself to ask mum if i can buy the yang cheng lin de cd!!!!!!! OH MY GOSH. her voice is DAMN nice lah. goodness. ok. got to go sleep le. bye!

|| At 12:34 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

another one

♥Monday, October 10, 2005.

one more. because im in a very boh liao mood. and im tempted to change short form words. haha. nvm. im crazy today.

o1.wat song r u listening to nw?
some some of some tv show. (sounds familliar)

o2.nw wat lyrics do u like so much?
hui zhe chi bang de nu hai.

o3.wat shirt colour u wearing nw?
BRIGHT RED.

o4.who's on ur mind?
lots of people. haha.

o5.wher do u feel like going nw?
school. i want to get exams over and done with. then i will PLAY.

o6.wat movie do u wan to watch?
the myth, corpse bride and lots more because they all look damn interesting.

o7.wat do u wan most?
freedom. haha. no lah. just be content with what you have now and strive for what you want. but now i just want to PLAY. haha. im crazy.

o8.nw wat r u eating n drinking?
nothing.

o9.current mood riite nw?
mixed feelings.

1o.when is ur bdae?
11 june

11.wher did u buy ur sch bag?
which one? the grey one is at sportslink. the black one now is at john little.

12.wher did u buy ur pencil box?
popular. haha.

13.how was sch todae?
exams. what do you expect me to say?

14.best subject?
hmm. currently is geog. but its going to change to history or smth. it just keeps gonig on like a see-saw.

15.worst subject?
either geography or history. see-saw rmb?

16.for ur last exam, wat was ur positioning?
i dont know.

17.Last time u fall in love?
huh? havent from what i rmb.

18.last shirt u wore bfor tiis shirt?
does hongzi count? haha.

19.last time u cried?
just now, rmb?

2o.last place u went? wiid?
macdonalds. vernice, ying yan, claudia.

21.last dream?
cant rmb.

22.last call u received?
shiyu's call.

23.last testi u gt?
i dont count, but i think its either yushi or jenzi. cant rmb.

24.last things u did?
use computer, sms, call on house phone, write list of names on notecard.

25.last present u gave someone?
erm wow. cant rmb. its probably ages ago. haha.

26.last person u miissed most?
loads of people, havent i said already?

27.describe love to u?
why on earth would i want to describe love to myself? er hum.

28.longest relation? who?
repetition. havent even had a relationship mind you.

29.ever regret to love someone?
GRR. making me fed up. no.

3o.some want like you now?
er hum. supposingly it means 'someone like you now?'. if it is, NO.

31.have you had a stead now?
NO. N-O. NO.

32.prefer to b single?
currently yes.

33.do u hv a crush nw?
yea. sort of. and currently the whole world knows it. haha. nvm.

34. last sms receive?
from kah hsing.

35. last person who u tok to online?
vernice and jenzi. jenzi went off and vernice's convo is stagnant. take your pick.

36. last werds??
hallo, im not dead yet. ok fine. BELIEVE IN YOUSELF! =)

haha. lets go see whether got other quiz to copy. haha. im feeling very happy now. because 11hr later, i will be having trng. haha. im probably thinking too far man. haha. but it will just mean eoys are OVER. phew. 11hr more. sigh.

|| At 10:17 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

lazy pig.

♥.

ok. im very lazy to be sending this email to the whole wide world. haha and im not gonig to flood peoples mailbox with this. so i shall post it here.
1. Time of starting This?
monday 10.00pm

2. Were you named after anyone?
no

3. Do you wish on stars?
hmm. yup, sometimes.

4. When did you last cry?
cant rmb. but its quite recent. like oh yes. just now. haha.
5. What is your favourite meat?
eh? chicken?

6. What is your most embarrassing CD on your shelf?
like whats embarrassing?

7. If you were another person, would YOU be friends with you?
hmm. after much consideration probably no. because im in a mood to hate myself. ok fine. yes.

8. Are you a daredevil?
nope never.

9. How do you release anger?
BLACK FACE. haha. very obvious blackface.

10.Where is your second home?
SCHOOL. isnt everyone's second home school?

11. Do you trust others easily?
hmm. some whom i really believe and put all my trust in them. some not so.

12. What was your favourite toy as a child?
hmm. was crazy about barbie dolls and hello kitty. haha. now, not really.

13. What class in school do you think is totally useless?
nope. all lessons are quite important i guess! (i sound like some nerd)

14. Do you use sarcasm a lot?
what do you think i mean by 'sarcastic partners'?

15. Have you ever been in a mosh pit?
whats a mosh pit???

16. What do you look for in a guy/girl?
caring, able to put my trust in.

17. Would you bungee jump?
NEVER IN MY LIFE. haha. told you i wasnt a daredevil.

18. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?
NO. I AM A LAZY PIG RMB???

19. What's your favourite ice cream flavour?
chocolate. haha. chocoholic.

20. what is your favourite colour?
violet. pink on black. (im very persistent about this combination. haha.)

21. What is your least favourite thing?
vegetables, insects (especially mosquitoes), air refresherner, and loads more.

23. What do you miss most right now?
i miss school! ok. more specific, i miss playing court!

24. What are you listening to right now?
hmm. just some dialogue in some tv show my mum is watching.

25. If you were a crayon, what colour would you be?
HOHOHO. light purple, quite obvious huh.

26. What is the weather like right now?
hmm. i dont know how you describe night. ok the weather is FINE.

27. Last person you talked to on the phone?
shiyu.

28. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
character

29. Do you like the person who sent you this?
all friends.

30. How are you today?
elated. because theres approximately 12 hrs to freedom. haha.

31. Favourite drink?
hmm. loads. but more on fizzy drinks. (i am not very health conscious)

32. Favourite alcoholic drink?
huh? (im not THAT unhealthy)

33. Natural hair colour?
black with some brown because of too much chlorine.

34. Eye colour?
brown.

35. Wear contacts?
yup. but currently not until tmr after exams.
36. Siblings?
NOPE. only child.

37. Favourite month?
hmm. not much difference. but i dont like holidays. haha.

38. Favourite food?
a lot ok.

39. Last movie you watched?
a lot like love? yea think so.

40. Favourite day of the year?
no preference. school days? (another nerdy comment)

41. Have you ever been too shy to ask someone out?
hmm. 'someone' as in? hmm friends, no. others, hmm never intended to anyway.

42. Scary movies or happy endings?
happy endings. i repeat, i am NOT a daredevil. ok theres probably no reference.

43. Summer or winter?
would love to experience both. haha. gemini rmb? so the bright side of me likes summer, and the dark side of me likes winter!

44. Hugs or kisses?
hugs. (i bet claudias thinking about smooching on the handphone again)

45. Do you want your friends to write back?
haha. just dont flood my inbox.

46. Who is most likely to respond?
not much people will anyway. haha.

47. Who is least likely to respond?
seriously if youi ask me, if i were to mail this to myself i wouldnt have replied. its just that im in a happy mood today. haha.

48. What book/magazine are you reading?
not reading anything actually.

49. What's on your mouse pad?
some anime characters whom i dont know.

50. What did you watch on TV last night?
news? haha. thats the last thing i watched.

51 Favourite Smell?
hmm. oh yes. the smell of the oil that you apply when you have a stomachache. REALLY. IT ROCKS OK.

52 do you regret ever breaking up with someone?
never even broke up before. er hum.

53. Time of finishing?
monday 10.18pm.

ok fine that was quite lame. i shall go copy one more. im in the quiz doing mood today. haha. ok. shall post again later. bye!

|| At 9:52 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

GRR.

♥.

wah! total shit ah! im getting freakingly aggitated. GRR. mum is like nag like dont know what shit lah. shes been saying what its not a good place then blah blah blah. then complain to my dad then my dad say what getting spoilt by my mum and blah blah blah somemore. then i finally exploded. i was like you repeat a lot of times le! stop saying le! i know! then she was like nag somemore saying what i was just trying to tell you and blah blah blah. grr. EXPLODE AH! seriously i hope no one says anything to me now becuase if they do i will probably explode at them right in their face. wah lao damn irritated today. BLEH.
SHEESH. i feel like giving myself a punch then ifaint and i dont have to worry about these things anymore. but hmm...not very possible. sigh. shall be contented with what i have. am currently reading a book that is very interesting. hmm. by alyssa brugman. nice.
ok wait. im having big fat problem trying to contact people. ok. shall go now. bye.

|| At 8:56 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

freaking shit.

♥.

ok. i almost exploded at my mum today. because she was like nagging the whole way home. almost screamed at her for jaywalking when there is a huge zebra crossing just a few steps away. GRR. she went nagging about how late i came home and she said no more of these. but after thinking it through, she is really a very nice mother. sigh. i think i spent like, $10 a day during exam week, but she didnt really grumble much about it. i think im going to become a spoilt brat ok. sorry mum for talking back to you just now! =( was just too angry. oh and i cant go out with catherine and janice to kbox because she said kbox is not suitable for students and its addictive or smth like that which i almost wanted to laugh when i heard. and tmr got trng, then they decided to postpone the date to sometime in holidays or smth. so sorry! =(
oh yes. today is not a very freakingly happy day. although i seem to look happy. sigh. first thing in the morning was to get 'intoxicated' by air refresherner. this tells me i better sleep on the bus so i dont smell it. almost puked when i reached school. ate panadol early in the morning. and on an empty stomach. well done.
then exam.
then went to study at macs. wow. no wonder i can spend $10 in a day. unbelievable. sigh. study session was quite fun. erhum. as in the crapping part, not the studying part. haha. but studying for math is fun too. oh and we finished past years papers in like around 2hr. then we were like wondering how we were going to manage that in 1hr. and we found out that the past papers were 2hr. so that means, our paper will have less questions but more chim and more marks for each question. DIE. oh and i still have found out how to find median. eh? wait, im trying to find out the one that requires numerous calculations. ok fine. i forgot which one it is. nvm.
oh yes. was cracking my brains over funny sums that caused me to have brain damage. haha. i tell you if that question comes out i will probably be...hmmm...mixed feelings bah. because i will be angry because brain cells will have to die, but be quite happy because i at least know the concept.hmm. contradicting. nvm.
oh and even before the exam, which is now, i am thinking about seriously too much stuff again. as in some really serious stuff which i have been thinking about since, i dont know. sigh. can i swap my brain? haha. no i love it. im crazy today.
ok. shall go try to figure out how to find median. ok. bye! study hard! (cant be bothered to since its the last paper) but hmm...still must do well. ok BYE.

|| At 8:30 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

goshgoshgosh.

♥Saturday, October 08, 2005.

ok. not in the mood to do anything man. NONONO. dont assume you know me well. sigh.
oh and a tv show today taught me to look from all POVs. hmm. sigh.
today is a freaking slack day. sigh. i want to read my book.
oh yes i was tidying my cupboard today. ok not TIDYING. practically stuffed every single thing into the cupboard. not considered tidying huh. haha. oh and...oh shit, i forgot what i wanted to say. oh oh yes. i just rmbed. i saw the result slip in ca1 with the error. i got 65.94 for average. but i dont know what it was after amendments. eek man. this ca2 i only got 65.7. crap man. then sia average only 61+. die lah. 30% on sia. how? oh and after funny calculations, i will pass the 60% mark if i get 50 for eoys, erm if theres only 10% weightage. haha. if 40% then cannot lah. aiyah. what stupid rubbish lah. nvm. just work hard bah. oh and also saw this form for continuation of third lang. chucked it in the cupboard as well. will clear up my cupboard when im free(which is probably never) haha.
i want to read my book. but have to do that when mum isnt around. hahaha. so probably i will just have to survive without books until after exams. haha.
ok. shall go slack around now. study at night. ok. bye!

|| At 5:01 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

im back.

♥Friday, October 07, 2005.

its probably not early. and im just here to vent my anger on smth. sigh. unfair unfair unfair. so theres this A and B. A is the person im talking about. B is a...hmm...another lead ok nvm. eek. didnt think A would be such a person. ok probably A is. but if not for B, i dont think this kind of stupid things will happen lor. but A wouldnt even get anything if not for B's fault. but its more on A lah. RUBBISH. if you dont intend to even do ANYTHING, then GET LOST. ok fine. you will think im being too harsh. but you are just being freakingly unfair to others. GRR.
and wow. another one. you make me feel scared. but i suddenly see myself. you seem like a mirror to me. i have never seen it from this POV. and i am terrified. am i like that too? do they feel the same as how i know they are feeling now? i am scared, of myself. am i such a person? am i really what i am now? i hate that person because of it, and it would only mean a thing. i ought to hate myself, for even doing this. it isnt fair to others. they tried, but i just cant open up. i dont like stick. they refer to a few. at first i thought ignorance was the best idea, but i am now terrified of it. save me.
dont tag on my board on anything about this. i dont want any single person's comment on it ok? sorry but this is how i want it to be like. i dont want others to think they know what is this about and guess and you tell this to the whole wide world. so, keep your comments to yourself. grr. im being very SHIT today. sorry to everyone who even bothers to read this.
some more problematic stuff but i will probably be hated if i complain too much. so i shall shut up and keep this inside me. grr.
oh yes lets talk about some happy stuff. ok. i miss tammy and darren (is it spelt like this?)!!! just saw tammy's pictures in my cousin's email. so miss my cousin too! haha. they will be back in november i think, because my another cousin is getting married on the 5th, if im not wrong. oh yay. im probably going to get a new blouse or smth after the exams! to go with my skirt! yay! im enthu about picking clothes to go with skirts. wahahaha. sudden addiction of skirts and sleeveless shirts. probably because im sick of wearing bermudas. haha.
mum's going korea on erm...18 oct? forgot. actually i could go, but if you ask me, i love staying at home. =) home is the sweetest place. dont you agree? sigh. ok. shall go sleep now. bye! =)
oh no before that, let me do some reflections of the week. maybe i shall try to do it every week. then i will see what i have learnt throughout a week. and i discovered that a week is very short, and it goes by very fast. but it teaches us lessons that i probably wont forget. sigh. ok. this week. taught me how to view things from other's point of view. everyone should learn that. i thought i knew how to do that, but i only knew how to do that to a certain extent and now im facing problems and consequences of a different kind. this week taught me about myself. i guess i seriously dont understand myself. better spend some time after exams to try to understand myself and really improve on my character. seriously think im being hated. sigh. ok. shall sleep now. bye.

|| At 10:47 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

tired like crazy.

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oh by the way, out of boliaoness, i have just found out that this is the third title that contains the word tired, recently. and today, finally no more coffee. ok probably only until monday. oh and i just freakingly gained 1 or 2 kg. like, im 46kg now. goodness. thanks to studying at macdonalds everyday this week. crap lah.
todays geog paper was quite tough. i think i will fail section b. wrote total rubbish.
got back ca 2 marks. like what shit can! i got 65.7%(round up) average lah. die die die. and my sia i got only, 61? aiyah. i got 2 c6 for sia lah! pull my marks down. thanks to common tests which pulls up the average. phew. but im very scared! because theres like, 20% weightage on ca1 and only 10% on ca2. but if you see my results, my geog was from e8 to a1, but my history was from a1 to d7. must it always be a see-saw??? and its humanities. and oh yes i am suddenly reminded of jap. ITS MY ONLY HOPE NOW. lets hope it can like, take over geog and i will scream. haha. ok fine. no more thinking about jap. or my headache will start again.
after checking of marks then had team run. 4.9km at a very slow pace. was trying to chase claudia at ying yan because they dont want to run. then later took a rest then decided to run 2 more rounds because seriously wanted to destress. sigh.
then played court! after three freaking days more i am going to go CRAZY. really i can go totally MAD. so miss trng!!!!!!!
then went to macdonalds (where else). but we slacked there lah. end up drawing a nice chair with shadings and all, the the lady went to move it. GRR. nvm. its still nice on the whole. hehheh. ego. then after that went to cold storage. i am so in love with...CHOCOLATES!!!!! my goodness!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the range they have is like, making me crazy!!! dars chocolate is nice! and i wanted to try out the meiji chocolate but didnt. then also bought peanuts. im crazy. but salted peanuts rocks. haha. seriously todays mood is like, end of exams, but oh well, theres still until tuesday. thanks to math paper that was splited into two. i love chocolates. going crazy thinking about chocolates. bleh.
then went with vernice and claudia to bukit panjang library. hahaha. borrowed three books. but must read it secretly. haha no lah. must save it till after eoys. then i will be crazy trng, reading, doing cross stich and lots more other stuff which i havent thought of. wahaha. ok. concentrate on the exams first bah. but today im in a daydreaming mood! =) ok. then i was stuck with two people who wanted to go for the storytelling session. hahaha. then ended up flicking coins. hahaha. damn fun lah. shall master it and we shall play on monday. hahaha. we think of funny funny games to play before and during exam period. haha. creativity is flowing. today is slack day. and im very thirsty. drank loads of water today as in not plain water, but still i am VERY thirsty. ok. and my mum only realised she spoke to claudia on the phone again when itold her she was the one whom she spoke to the last time. hahaha.
oh yes. im getting forgetful. took lrt then when i got off i discovered my hands were empty and i left the shoebag inside. retarded man. so had to rush back in. haha. was damn pathetic today. was at lakeside mrt station then got off the train then suddenly thought of changing trains because i probably thought i was still at jurong east and had to change. hahaha. ok. shall sleep chao early today. good night! bye! =)

|| At 9:54 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

history.

♥Wednesday, October 05, 2005.

eh damn it. i am gonig to fail my si han. aiyah. just invent another cca called maths club or smth lah. i only said its RELATED to math. aiyah. shit lah.
oh. and this is the very very first time that i got above 50 for my zuo wen. which was probably impossible. and also, todays zuo wen i wrote the most of my life ok. ok probably besides chuang zuo. sigh. almost fall asleep during the paper. sigh. nvm! since its over shall not let it bother me anymore! =) work harder for other subjects! =) and oh crap man. i didnt reach my target for chinese for ca2. EEK. i want my 4 marks. i think its one of the compre i failed that pull me down lah. GRR. i want my 4 marks!!! sigh. today is a suay day where i got 4 marks lesser than my target and i screwed up the si han. grr. nvm. tmr shall be a better day! ok probably not because its history tmr. suddenly look forward to geography exam instead of history exams. i am damn scared of essay and source based. sigh.
ok. today went kap again. i bet people working at macdonalds recognise us ok. did i say that ytd? oh yes i think i did. oh and we slacked for about 1hr or so talking about butt transplant. i think people there thinks we are crazy because we were laughing like mad throughout the whole hour. wahaha.
ok shall go study history now. better brush up on inference and source based. like crap. i only have about 5 hours more to study. the latest i can go is 12. ok. shall go study! bye! =)

|| At 6:53 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

acidic.

♥Tuesday, October 04, 2005.

my stomach is so acidic!!! nvm. todays was math paper. was quite ok actually. but i was actually stupid enoguh to spend 45min on the freaking question 8 when question 9 can be completed in 5 min. as in we get to choose. and i chose the number sequence one. RUBBISH! nvm.
then went KAP macdonalds to study. studied geography. wahaha. damn fun. i think im dead for history. HOW? grr. forget it. and i bet those people there rmb us lah. every single day go there spent about $10. as in every person spent $10 lah. haha. ok shall go study history now. because i dont know what i can study for chinese. seriously nothing. because is one zuo wen one ying yong wen for paper one. then zong he tian kong and 4 compres for paper two. which is impossible to study unless you know what is going to come out. so not much use. so i shall not waste time and go study history since its after chinese paper. sigh.
shall not think about other stuff now. shall put 100% focus on the exams. no thinking about other things besides exams. ok. jiayou everyone! =)
today was the queens baton relay thingy. haha. melted.
oh yes. and my primary school is famous man. was featured on the news. wahahaha. damn funny lah. my mum was like, bei ah! (ok thats what she calls me) your primary school on the news! haha. so funny. sigh. never had so much laughter in my blog le. feel so relieved after all those rubbishy things wore off. ha! they are not going to affect me. ok.
jenzi, dont let what happened today affect you ok! whats over is over, so must xiang qian kan! dont let that affect you ok! must still concentrate on the other papers to come! jiayou! =)
everyone work hard!!! ok. shall go off. bye! =)

|| At 7:27 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

fast fast fast

♥Monday, October 03, 2005.

okok. ive got to make this fast. i need to go off at 11.45. how crap. todays paper was, erm... ok i guess. thats what i usually say. bleh. but the compre was damn difficult and i thnik the summary was the easiest for the whole paper lah.
i am gonig to die horribly for unseen prose. hmm. nvm. shall not brood over it. whats over is over. just work hard for other papers! =)
oh yes. was thinking about marks allocation just now. and i just recounted the marks of ca1. eek. compo pull down my whole chinese marks lah! crap. but this term i hope would pull up my marks. and it is so damn funny that there is 20% weightage on ca1 instead of ca2. and i am very angry at how i got e8 for ca1 and a1 for ca2 for geography and it will stay 20% on ca1. EEK.
my typing is very problematic this few days.
oh yes. i am going to wear specs until exams are over. seriously lah. my contacts fell out just before the exams and had no time to rush out and take my specs, so had to force it back it and endure the pain! rubbish lah. so i shall wear specs. haha. nvm. ok. that was probably the first haha on my blog for ages. ok. just lame. shall go off now. i am seriously stuck at scales and maps. nvm. ok . bye! all these in 5 min. i am amazed! =)

|| At 11:40 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

wow

♥Sunday, October 02, 2005.

almost finished. two more chapters. PHEW. i have currently 19 pages of A4 size paper notes which are in a file. yay. wonderful drawings. seriously, i think studying geography is the most fun because i end up drawing loads of stuff. fun! and drawing and writing stuff helps me rmb. and phew. one day of studying.
im going crazy studying. supposingly everyone is too. and seriously, i dont think i will be able to sleep before 12. which is like, er hum, VERY LATE. so cannot! must try to sleep by 1130. actually not much difference. and studying made me calm down a lot. peace peace peace.
and i am bombarded with ling yang, yi mi, vitagen and lu dou. erm. every time i hve exams i will have to drink all this. and i will end up having a cough because its too 'liang' for me. everytime will be like that. because i eat too much chocolates and chips and all that, so must sort of neutralise it. im talking crap. nvm. ok. shall do go some stuff before i go. its too early i feel. i dont know. but i got this new supplement. which is better than previous ones i took. alertness. the previous ones i took has no effect! this is actually quite good. hmm ok. shall go off now. bye! eek no wait.
wahahahaha. i suddenly think of...BLRY! is this correct? haha nevermind. BL is enough! like O.M.G. great big shock! first time saw her on monday. OMG. dian dao. i think i got too much influence from the two hua chi! hahahaha. how??? wahaha nvm. shall go off now! bye!

|| At 12:00 AM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

taking a break

♥Saturday, October 01, 2005.

sigh. when will the peace i yearn for ever arrive?
i freakingly know how the whole wide world hates me. grr. even i hate myself sometimes. especially now, in this time where theres chaos and all that. will our lives ever be the same again? we are all worrying about millions of stuff which will probably stay the same, but what about other things? i bet its just a dream, a nightmare. well, thats what i hope it is, but is there even space for hope? my whole mind is clogged up with much much more things then what my face tells you.
blamed. unjustified. sabotaged.
what makes you think i am truly happy when i smile?
sigh. i thought it would improve, but now, this has indeed prove me, and all of them, that what we assumed, was wrong. it was the complete opposite. can you just stop acting? its TOO GOOD for us. act concerned, good, nice, pro. its incorrigible. i cant believe you are such a person. i wish you could prove me wrong, but time after time, you have always showed me the ugly side of you, and i have given you tons of chance, probably not just me, to let you prove us wrong, to prove that you are not what we think you are, but i guess you would rather give up those chances, and leave us in disappointment. sigh.
THINK. before you do anything. really. think not just from your point of view, but also from OTHER'S point of view. BE CONSIDERATE. and also, think about your future. do what you think is best.
this week has left me confused, puzzled, saddened and disappointed. it taught me that the world is full of deceptions and we have to learn to overcome that fact. this week has passed and we shall not brood over it. the future will hold more than just this.
ok. study hard everyone! prove ourselves worthy! jiayou!

|| At 7:10 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||

hohoho.

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ok today in quite a happy mood because im finally away from those i hate. but sad because im not with those im like to be with. bleh. talking rubbish.
oh yes. ytd decided not to go to woodlands to study so we stayed in school to study. nice ambience and we are able to study! oh yay! because if we go other places i cant study, when i go home i just plop down on the bed. and finally i am going to finish topic on digestion. but i think im dead. i JUST started geography. just finished population studies. like wow. i have like 6 pages of notes just for populations studies. oh yay. population is my weakest topic lah. im now stuck at plate tectonics. how??? i am going crazy.
damn tired now.
grr. im still very angry lah. can anyone just give me a punch? sigh. shall go study now. bye.

|| At 5:53 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||