why does this have to happen? we were fine at first, werent we? what happened? i want to know why too. i suppose everyone does. why does it have to turn out like this? the situation tensed up, no eye contact, nothing spoken. how did it turn out like that? was this the case when we first started out? doesnt your heart break when you see that? stop stop stop. stop thinking about this.
this is what happens when im not talking to anyone. when i am, i will concentrate only on what we are talking, if not, i will start thinking about stupid stuff that has happened. probably pre-depression sydrome or smth.
my head hurts. my heart aches. sigh. shall go do some other stuff so i can forget about this. but its going to be stuck in my head for a long long time.