♥Saturday, July 09, 2005.
bah.......i feel so guilty...if not for me nothing like this would have happened...i am so devastated...i dont want to think about it...but it just keeps popping up in my mind...i cant stop thinking about what i have done...yes...i cant handle failure well...i have been like this...it takes my a few months to recover from these kind of situations...it just keeps reminding me of what i have done...i end up crying...alone...i appear to have no worries...but i cant tell what i am feeling...these few days, my mood has been very bad...qi tian knows that...SORRY!!!...i just cant bring myself to face reality...bah...i want to forget about it...but when i see it...i feel my heart breaking into pieces...sigh.......although it isnt there anymore...but when i see it...it still makes me sad...what have i been doing??? haiz...going johor later...i really want to stop thinking about this...ok...shall go off now...bye...
|| At 1:03 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||