i hate my damn life.
♥Wednesday, July 27, 2005.
sheesh. not in a very good mood. cuz today is such a WONDERFUL DAY. WONDERFUL, like shit. yea. that is how wonderful today was, and my life is. freak. renewable energy. made a car that looked so dumb and ugly. damn. but it can run ok!!!! so happy that it could run. but it still looks ugly. qitian is going to make her car tmr. haha. she got such a cham partner which is me. qitian is a very good partner. i am NOT being sarcarstic. but my car looks like its going to collapse any minute. my car is so lan. but ok still admit tian is very good at this. then went to edit film.
whats wrong with those people lah!!! they dont care about anything. is that really reality??? that probably explains why life is so cruel. whole story: janice misplaced her bag today when we were waiting outside for Mr Lim. then we went in. she left her bag there. i left first. didnt see her bag but i thought she brought it in. she came out and she couldnt find her bag. she went with catherine to go around the whole school but they couldnt find it. they came to look for me in the gym. then they told me they asked almost everyone lah! THESE PEOPLE HAVE NO SYMAPATHY. none at all. she asked teachers, even in the GO. they just said she was careless. she asked the school assistants, they say they were under order not to take any bag from the rubbish bins. they searched everywhere. asked almost everyone. and everyone blamed her for being careless. her mum too. she and catherine skipped sabs for half an hour. their teacher in charge also didnt give a shit about it. their teacher didnt even want to talk to them. yea. is that what life is all about? ok mr lim was a lot, ALOT, nicer. he helped ask the teachers in the staffroom. ok he is very nice. really! the worst thing. life is so WONDERFUL can. catherine told me after that that janice found her bag. she said they were running past the huge rubbish bins which were pushed around the place. and catherine saw this huge bag on TOP of it. yea and they said they wont take bags as rubbish. thank goodness it was on the top. can you imagine if it was inside? haiz.
then went for cheerleading. learnt dance. instructors so damn pro. we are not that. haha. but i know some people pro also. and im supposed to be doing my narrative now. but obviously i was distracted.
then went for third lang. damn lah. was rushing, so didnt notice the raised platform and i skidded on the ground. almost banged into the tree. now there is a very very painful wound on my knee. i dont care how it looks like. i cant care. i dont want to care. i cant even be bothered to care about my damn life. which is in such a great mess.
went with shiyu vack to school cuz she wanted to do her project research. went coro first. wanted to buy FBTs but the shop wasnt open. so bought bubble tea and went to school. when we went back they said com labs were already closed. another sign of no sympathy. or probably its partly our fault that we didnt go earlier. then went back with shiyu.
feeling damn crappy. never felt like that before. i dont even have the mood to laugh. everything seems fine when im not thinking about it. but when i reach home and reflect on my day, i feel really empty. lonely.
shall go off now. bye.
|| At 7:38 PM, Jocelyn thought so.♥ ||